Reblog if you’re autistic and scared of doing new things alone
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Agh, God, I think about this a lot. I feel like there is so little evidence for my existence and that I am erased from the world.
It’s frustrating that when you’re always sick, no one gives a shit if you have extra bad day.
Just now I was thinking about how vastly different my perception of the world is from the average person’s perception of the world. It’s almost like being in a completely different environment, because of how differently I perceive and sense and sort input.
Like, between being autistic (which is a huge thing on its own), my sensory processing disorder, my different kinds of Synesthesia, my auditory processing issues and my visual processing issues, my dyspraxia and my dyscalculia and my aphasia, the constant 24/7 very bad chronic pain, my Dysautonomia and associated symptoms, the gastroparesis, my OCD… Yeah. It’s a mess, but it’s how I perceive things, and so I wonder if someone who could psychically jump into me for a while would cope? I’m thinking not well.
Like, if I lived in the sense8 universe and was a part of a cluster? No one would want to visit or share with me, haha. They would all try it once and be like,
Oh my god??? what?? wHY DOES MY WHOLE BODY HURT?? what is that sound oh my god that’s terrible? wait, the sound is… yellow? and why does touching the texture of this carpet feel like getting electrocuted?? are we being tortured??! this person feels exhausted and everything hurts? Oh someone is talking to me and… I can’t… understand what they’re saying.. like I know it’s English but I don’t understand?? Why is the dishwasher SO LOUD? WHY IS EVERYTHING SO LOUD oh man now i feel like I’m going to throw up… wait, am I passing out? but i just stood up, im not even doing anythi- *faints*
Trying to make friends when you never leave the house like
[Gif of a skeleton trying to reach out and grab Mickey Mouse from behind but failing as Mickey steps forward at the last second.]
It’s easy to misdiagnose and mistreat someone when you think you know and understand their emotions better than they do.
Saying that “no-one will love you before you love yourself” is bullshit and paints depressed/ mentally ill people as unlovable for having self esteem issues.
It is totally possible to love someone who doesn’t love themselves and actually it can really help them. What ISN’T helpful is treating them like crap because of maladaptive thinking processes that they can’t even help.
Always reblog.