Dakota Loesch

this is my first memory.

for the longest time, i was sure that my first memory was me at two-years-old standing in the backyard of my childhood home. but after a while i realized that was impossible. it was a third-person memory, and how could i possibly remember seeing myself standing in my backyard? and then i realized the truth of it: my first memory is seeing this photo of me a few weeks after it was taken. that’s the moment i first became self-aware. that’s the moment i “came online” or whatever. that’s the moment i started this whole weird consciousness trip, the moment i first saw this photo. and who knows… maybe that’s why i love acting in movies, or watching the dailies, or seeing odd versions of myself on screen. it reminds me that i’m alive. and goddamn, am i happy to be alive right now. and happy to be doing what i love with people i love. and happy to have stumbled across this photo today.

this is my first memory.