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Mental Health Update
i've been MIA from tumblr for quite some time now and i'm at a point to where i feel comfortable talking about it. in the beginning of february, i admitted myself into a psychiatric ward as my mental health was deteriorating so greatly that i was unable to take care of myself and i came to the conclusion that it's unfair to my boyfriend (who has been an amazing caregiver since the onset of my issues a year ago) if i don't get the help that i need. recently, i have been given a diagnosis for schizophrenia and ptsd. for a couple months i've been taking my anti psychotic and anti anxiety medications, however it's difficult as they don't help enough to justify the side effects (weight gain - i'm anorexic, too - and depression to name a couple). i've lost all of my friends in the midst of this and have no one to talk to outside of my main support system as i've isolated myself due to incredulous amounts of paranoia. i'm learning to manage my hallucinations and delusions, i have a great support system with my boyfriend and my family, but sometimes it feels good to just write about what i've been experiencing rather than talking about it like usual. i hope that i can help others going through a similar kind of thing, i'm always free to answer messages and asks, but it may take me a little bit as i'm battling my mind daily. i love each and every one of my followers, and i appreciate the fact that i can come on here and speak freely without fear of judgment. ♡
it's been a minute. 👀
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Wow girl you are gorgeous! Also your presctiption is way more than mine lol I've gotta talk to my doc 🤔
thank you so much cutie pie, it took two years to get my prescription this high! it's just a matter of patience, which is the worst part. 😂❤️
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Sometimes the people around you won’t understand your journey. They don’t need to. It’s not for them.
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Can I ask you anything?
of course! i'm an open book. 😋
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*80s pop playing as I lay dead in the middle of the woods*
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itsmejohnlemon
This is quite possibly the biggest mood imaginable
now we're talking
Oh another question, just out of curiosity. Have you undergone any surgery so far, or are planning any, other than the reconstructive one. Sorry if this is too invasive, or if you;ve answered before!
ask as many questions as you want babes, i LOVE sharing things about myself. :D i do plan on getting my adam’s apple shaven down, as that is one of the biggest things that i dislike seeing in the mirror - other than that, i’ll let time tell because estrogen is still softening my face and growing my boobies even after 2 years. :D
forever wanting to be a golden girl
You're passing so damn good I didn't even realize you were trans. I just now read your tags. Holy fuck
hey, thank you! i started transitioning fairly young, so i have a bit more of an upper hand compared to some older trans people who already completed puberty by the time they’ve started transitioning. i consider myself very lucky. xo
Love love love your blog! Have you ever doubted your decision to get the surgery?
thank you soo much xo :D no, i haven’t doubted it but i have read numerous articles and spoken to many doctors about the decision, both in support of the surgery and not in support, just to hear both sides. neither side has affected my decision one way or another, it’s just something in my life that needs to get done at this point. (no more painful tucking, can wear bikinis, can have sex with my boyfriend in a way that feels natural to me, etc).