Jacob Black x fem!Reader
Anything For You
Warnings:kind of angsty, cursing.
Youâve been best friends with Jacob for years, being so close with him his friends were your friends. Even Billy counted you as family. Especially due to your parents always being away for business oriented reasons, never having time for their daughter.
But as of lately Jacob has been distant, only because of an old friend back in town. Bella Swan. The girl who made your best friend ditch you for every plan you guys have made these past weeks.
Something you didnât realize was truly bothering you until you called him one night. The one night you begged him not to miss and he did. It was the night of your concert for your school orchestra. A thing you took pride in.
When you looked in the crowd to find Embry, Quil, Seth, Paul and Billy. But no Jacob. His excuse was that he had forgotten, simple mistake.
Simple mistake that crushed you beyond belief.
It was one thing for your parents to miss your concerts, to not even come home for dinner. But Jacob doing this was a betrayal even you felt childish for being upset about.
And then today, you waited outside where he said he would meet you after dropping Bella off at home. He said that he would be there at 3 pm. As it is now reaching 5:30 you pulled out your sketch book. You talked to your school counselor who gave it to you, telling you to draw or write down how you feel.
Today you wrote, filling two pages front and back about how you miss your best friend.
Who you thought even at one point could have been more than your best friend. Thinking you guys were just reaching that point in life.
â[Name]!?â The voice made you hopeful but once it actually reached your ears you frowned slightly as it was not who you were waiting for. âHey, Seth.â You forced a smile.
âHey, uh Embry, Quil and I were gonna go to the beach. We noticed youâve been sitting here a while. We wondered if you wanted to join?â His eyes looked hopeful.
The boy had a crush on you, heâs had one for a few years. Knowing who your heart belonged to he never said anything but everyone knew.
âUh, I guess.â You shrug, getting up from your spot.
Trying to enjoy yourself with the thoughts in the back of your mind was irritating, forcing yourself to laugh along with their jokes you actually didnât understand.
The four of you tossed a ball to each other, Quil now had it in his hands and you sighed. Waiting until it came to you. âHey, you alright over there?â Embry shouted with a grin on his face, not knowing you actually were not doing well.
âOh, Iâm fine!â You wave a hand to motion you were okay. Quil raised an eyebrow. âYou sure it has nothing to do with Billy Blacks son?â He questions and your eyes spiked open from what he said.
âWhat?â Was all that could form out of your mouth.
âWeâve seen how much of a douche heâs been, [Name] we arenât blind.â Embry tells you, not meaning to be so harsh but it just came out that way. You glance down, catching the ball from him. âI uh, didnât know other people noticed.â You gripped the football, not wanting to make eye contact with them.
âOf course we noticed, especially when he fucking didnât come to your concert youâve been non stop talking about.â Quil rolls his eyes.
âItâs whatever, heâs happy hanging out with her. I canât rely on him all the time.â You try to force up a lie on how you feel. âYeah, okay. Throw the ball, princess.â Embry winks.
Taking in a breath you chucked it at Seth, not realizing how hard you threw it. And the fact that he wasnât ready it hit him right in the face. âOh my god!â You gasp, covering your mouth as the other two burst into laughter.
He groans, holding his nose, checking to see if it was bleeding and luckily it wasnât. âIâm so sorry, Seth!â You run over to him. Trying not to laugh now as the others bent over holding onto each other as they canât contain it.
âItâs okay,â he waves it off but you shake your head. âAre you okay?â
âYeah, yeah.â He says and you pull him into a hug.
âYou got one hell of an arm.â Embry snickers.
âShut up.â You mutter silently to them as you hold the younger boy.
âIm really okay, [Name].â He tells you as his face burns hotter and he grows flustered.
âThatâs whatâs going to give him a nosebleed.â Quil teases and the two laugh again.
âOh leave him alone.â You tell them then look down at him and your mouth goes into the shape of an âoâ so you let him go. The boy clears his throat. âIâll go get the ball now.â He announces but as he turns around Jacob was standing there handing him the football.
His face laid no expression. Your heart races from him just being near.
âCan I talk to you?â His eyes meet yours and your posture straightens. âCan it wait for later?â You nervously glance at the other guys who stand awkwardly.
âWe will just go.â Embry says, grabbing Seth nod pushing him away, Quil follows. You mentally curse at them for leaving you.
âPlease, just hear me out.â
âWhat is it Jake?â You snap, acting impatient wanting to get whatever this conversation will be to just happen.
He reluctantly pulls out your sketchbook and your eyes widen. You instantly run to your bag, digging through it to find that exact same book, not believing you actually left it back at the house.
â[Name] why didnât you-â
âOh donât give me shit! I canât believe you read through my book!â You snatch the book back, throwing it on the ground. âWhy would you read it?â Your voice cracked as tears threatened to peak through. Trying to shove the feeling down.
âHey, calm down.â He steps closer but you step back and a pained expression shoots across his face.
âGo vent to Bella about it.â You sat on the sad, picking the book back up and staring at it.
âPlease.â He comes closer. âWhat!? Just say what you need to say. Get it over with since you obviously wonât give up.â Tears fall and you quickly wipe them away as you feel ashamed and embarrassed.
âI.. I didnât realize I was being such an asshole.â He says, he follows every movement you make, â[Name] there are no excuses to how I have been treating you.â He falls to his knees in front of you. âNo, thereâs not. No excuse for going through my shit either.â You point a finger in his face, hiccuping as you cried.
âI know,â he sighs. âI donât know why I got so excited when Bella needed me. I donât know why I left you out and forgot your fucking concert. It was unexceptional of me.â He tries to get closer so you would look at him but you turned your head to stare at the waves of the water, gripping the book.
âYouâre worth more than that. Youâve been my person- my number one for years.â He takes the book out of your hands, throwing it aside and holding your wrists. You donât resist. You close your eyes, not wanting anymore tears to fall in front of him. âI got confused, I⌠I realized I need you. More than anything, more than the food I eat, the water that graces this Earth, Iâd rather lose sleep thatâs how much I need you. I need you near me or I canât breathe. The distance that pulled us apart was slowly breaking me and I didnât even know that feeling was because I wasnât with you.â He expresses, his voice wavering throughout his words. Your body shutters as your silently sob, your lip quivering as you shivered.
The look on your face physically hurts him, his body feels like crumbling knowing that this was because of him.
âI want- need you to know I will do anything. Anything to make it up to you. To never see these tears fall from those pretty eyes unless they were happy ones.â
Your eyes follow from his hands holding tightly to your wrists, going up his torso then to his lips, and then lands on his eyes.
For the first time, the world shifted. Everything grows brighter, his touch burning but you donât move an inch. An energy switch from wanting to hate him more than anything to just wanting him around you. Even without speaking youâd be okay.
A small noise escapes passed your lips, then you speak. âAs much as I want to punch you, to tell you to go away and never speak to me again after you hurt me. I donât truly wish for that. I want to trust every word and donât look back.â
His eyes soften, he lets you go slowly. âPlease forgive me.â He whispers, his voice trembling which breaks you. You pull him into an embrace, one hand stabilizing himself on the ground and the other wrapped around you. â[Name] thereâs nothing in this world I wonât do to be yours.â He holds you closer.
âJust be here. With me.â
Then pushing him back to look at him again. âAlways.â
Like magnets, force brings you two together, his lips on yours. Igniting a fire from every touch you lay on his skin.
Pulling away his fingers wipe away your tears and you grin at him. âMore of that and Iâll forgive you for everything.â
He laughs, pulling you onto his lap. âAnything for you.â