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Captain Swan ff roundup List #40 which covers 3/11-3/17. If I missed something let me know and I can add it. As always like, reblog, comment and Happy Reading ❤️

MCs

Dark Hook Comes to Storybrooke  ch.21  by @hollyethecurious @winterbaby89

Alone, Until I Get Home  ch.24  by @peglegsjones

Frozen in Darkness  ch.7  by @tomeandflickcorner

A Birthday Surprise  p.2  by @hookedonapirate

Enough of Feeling Like This  ch.7  by @unfolded73 (complete!)

Given the Choice  ch.17  by @winterbythesea

Reputation  ch.12   by @kymbersmith-90

Hell or High Water  ch.10  by @gusenitsaa @pirate-owl @justmilah

Awake and Alive  ch.18  by @captainswanandclintasha

Your Case or Mine  ch.10  by @blowmiakisscolin

A Rift in Time  ch.3  ch.4  by @thejollyroger-writer

In Focus  ch.2  by @dassala

North Star  ch.35  by Emma_Jones

Ethical Conflicts  ch.1  by @kymbersmith-90

Serendipitous Melody  ch.21  ch.22  by @killiancygnus (complete!)

Rook Land  ch.2  by @polarbearmorgan

Figure It Out  ch.7  ch.8  by @kymbersmith-90

Not Just a Deckhand  ch.11  by @sherlockianwhovian

Patience  ch.16  by @kymbersmith-90

A Day for “Just Emma”  p.4  by @whimsicallyenchantedrose

Since We’re Alone  ch.4  by @everlastingcaptainswan

Scoring Your Love  ch.4  by @seriouslyhooked 

Complicating Factors  ch.15  by @branlovesouat

One/Two Shots

The Accident  by @rouhn

Headphones  p.2  by @searchingwardrobes

I and Love and You  by @euphoric-melancholyy

Pillow-Based Bankruptcy  by @welllpthisishappening (Blue Line)

La Incondicional  p.2  by @lenfaz

S3B Pining Angst  by @wingedlioness

You Look Really Tired  by @wingedlioness

National Pi Day Meet Cute  by @whimsicallyenchantedrose

Constellations  by @pagesandmagic

Month Two  by @technicallysizzlingcloud

Prompt  by @xemmaloveskillianx

Someone Such As Yourself.

Someone such as yourself does not deserve to be spoken to in that way. 

That way that may be belittling, demeaning, and suppressive. 

That way that brings tears to your eyes when you listen.

That way that makes you want to curl up and white out all of that constant noise.

Yes, you. Someone such as yourself does not deserve this. 

Why? Because they are not true. Just because such words are spoken does not make it so; whether it is coming from yourself or your neighbour. 

If fact, they are far from the truth. 

You are absolutely beautiful, magnificent, and a gift to this universe. 

You are phenomenal, an astounding creation, and have so much to offer during this lifetime. 

Someone such as yourself does not deserve to hear such deceiving lies. You only deserve to hear the truth; and that is that you are absolutely precious. 

Please, never forget this. 

~ Nicole Addison | Facebook | Instagram 

You, 

I get it.

I know you don’t miss me. 

I know that you don’t care if I’m doing well or not. 

You don’t care if I’ve been eating or if I’m drinking enough water. The number of anxiety attacks I’ve had in the past three weeks does not concern you anymore and I don’t think it ever really did. I can’t breath sometimes and I feel myself slipping into this dark place and depression is warping itself around me and it’s dark… It is so so dark and cold… But you don’t care about that either. 

It’s okay. 

I get it. 

But I’m unblocking you from social media. 

Because I’m done holding onto this anger. 

Because my mental state has gone to shit for other reasons and I’m trying to make myself better. I’m trying to focus on that. So I don’t need to focus on you. I’m just done being angry. I’m done feeling bad about myself because of something you put me through. I’m done. 

It’s over. 

~Me

I'm crying

MEE

Me, getting murdered: be gentle it’s my first time

Murderer: We’re gonna go slow okay, so slow

i want someone who will light a fire in me.

I want someone who will light me on fire

call the demon that killed jessica and mary

Slam Poetry I came up with in the Shower:

My mother told me that because “I’m a child”, My feelings Are not validated. My mother told me that because “I have a flair for the dramatics”, My feelings Are less validated. My mother always told me that because “I don’t know my real father”, meant that I wasn’t going to get hurt. My mother told me that I should be proud of my brother for serving our country. My mother never told me that with every deployment my heart would ache worst than the last. My mother never warned me that having a step-father told me that love was to hurt emotionally, physically, mentally hurt. My mother always warned me of old men staring out of their tinted windows My mother always warned to “tell an adult”. But My mother never told me about boys that gained your trust about boys who smiled at you about boy who told you “It’s okay”. That it “was safe”. My mother never told me that the adults wouldn’t believe you like when I told her about the time and she told me what he had done was a lie. My mother never told me that his actions only told me that trust was to hurt emotionally, physically, mentally sexually hurt. My mother never told me that comfort was beautiful that help was okay My mother never told me the coping I had to find My mother, My everything, My mother never told me that her words showed that love and trust was to hurt emotionally, mentally. Hurt.

My mother tells me i’m fat, 

tells me that she loves me.

My mother, 

whom i love dearly, 

cuts me deeper than any knife.

My mother drives me to insanity,

then sends me away,

when I finally say,

I’m depressed...

My mother hurts me.

My mother, betrayed a child’s trust.

My mother, looks but doesn’t see.

My mother, cries as i turn to dust.

Reblog this and tag with your favorite songs/lyrics about mental illness and trauma

“Cause I’m more scarred, more scarred than my wrist is.” Bullet by: Hollywood Undead

but you made me play with him any way.

and you told him he could stay

I’m crying at how accurate this is

I want to sleep, Without remembering; Without the nightmares.

I wish I could have lived without waiting for it to happen again and again, waiting for the inevitable.

I hate myself, More and more each day. Because I never did a thing to save myself.

- Anonymous Submission

mentally broken

133 days of captain swan ❀ day 64

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