// I... feel the need to apologise. (and I’m also very drunk r/n so please pardon the typos, if any, I cba to proof read this tbh...)). So idk how long its been since I’ve last responded/posted anything, but a prsume a While (tm). Basically work is crazy. Dont get me wrong, I’m gratreful for the fact that I HAVE work atm, but I’m working a 7 days in/7 days off kinda working pattern because of C-19. Which wouldnt usually be an issue, I;ve worked 10 days in a row beofre, but it’s real jarring plus the extra hard wokr as we’re skeleton crew and because of the added guilt with having to travel to work when my mum is high risk, and my thyroid is fucking up and im not able to get a blood test atm, and im cold turkey on antidepresants (if you even knoew im now on them> listen, it;s been a long time, I;m sorry) because supply isnt getting to pharmacys atm. Its... a time. But hey, I;ve gotten that ‘promotion’ I wanted, although im not a part of the team just yeat because of C-19. So I’m now a part of the ‘Seed and wellbeing’ Team, looking after the new wellbeing garden. Which is the job I wanted for a while.
I love gaming, I love cosplay, I love drawing and doiung art stuff. So I’ve beeen focussing on that tbh. I was slowly falling out of love of roleplaying and it was adding unnecessary stress to an already kinda stressfull life. Some parts were enjoyable but there was a lot that felt more obligatory than hobbyish (whoa I spelt obligatory correctly while intoxicated wtf fancy that). So I slowly... dropped it. And Im sorry for not saying goodbye or anything. But I come home from work so tired as it’s basically underpaid manual labour, plus extra bits that theyn want me to do because I ‘owe’ them for giving me a aprrenticship. so I havent had time to write because one high wuality reply takes me like... an hour to write. Which is time I dont have anymore.
So like... long story short, I’m gonna have to quit tumblr roleplaying if I want to go forward with my career....Whcih I really.... REALLY want to do. I want to become a world renowknowned horticulturlist.
I do miss the roleplay partners that I have gotten close to over the years. You have become some close friends and I;m truly sorry for disappreaing without saying anything. The people from here that I am closest to are on my discord anyway, so if you want to roleplay or chat with me on discord, then please, P
So please contact me on discord. If you belive that we have gotten close and never got round to connecting on discord, please send me your details (im currently too drunk to remember, god im sorry) and we can roleplay over discord WHEN... I have time. I;m sorry but with my career and my chronic illnesses making me as low energy and fuckin possible, it’s hard. But I want to try for the people that have been my friends for years and have been there for me.
Again. Im sorry for disappearing. It;s been a stuggle. But I truly do love you, I miss you, and I want to keep being creative. I mght not be able to do it over tumblr anymore, but I wont delete my blogs so they will always be there for reread purposes. I will cosplay on tiktok as I really enjoy it and it;s quickish for me to create, and I’m willing to rpoleplay over discord when and if I have the chance.
I love you, I;m sorry, and I guess... Goodbye?