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Logan angst

In his room there is a puzzle that he can’t solve. He has tried countless times but has never been successful. After a while he would get frustrated and try to get rid of it but it would always reappear somewhere else in his room. No matter how many times he punched a hole in the wall it was on, or deleted the image on his computer or destroyed the paper it was writen on, it would always come back. It reminds him that he doesn’t know everything, that there are problems that he can’t solve. It shows him that he’s not the best person to do his job. He’s supposed to solve Thomas’ problems using logic. How can he help Thomas when he can’t even solve one stupid puzzle?

Crying ok not ok

cultural appropriation is putting fireflies in a jar

and letting them light up your bedroom

as you drift off to sleep.

and when you wake up all the lights have flickered out

but only when you’re older do you realize

you slowly suffocated them so

that you could enjoy their glow.

that just knocked the breath from me

All white people read this please

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 a lazy scatterbrained comic about undiagnosed mental illness

Same, but i’m too scared to tell anyone and i don’t go to the doctor…

Everyone just says I'm forgetful, stupid, and annoying 🌸🌸🌸

Growing up Undiagnosed

-Not being able to read until first grade

-Once being taught how to, reading everything in sight and reading at a college level by fourth grade

-Having two friends group dump me for being annoying

-Forcing myself to learn body language, then learning it so well people call it “creepy”

-Struggling in math and spelling but excelling in other classes

-Reading in class to focus but being told I can’t read in class so I struggle

-Being called weird and creepy for being able to remember little details about people

-Having to create a system for new friends to find out their boundaries and the face they pull when they’re tired of a topic so I can keep friends longer

(I put spaces so it is easier to read, others with ADHD can add as well)

I don’t know if i have adhd but

- if i don’t know you that good and i don’t talk to you for more than two days i probably won’t remember your name

- going into another room to get something and comming back with EVERYTHING else

- doing nothing or doing everything all at once

- bored BORED daydreaming in class and forgetting to take notes

- borrowing things from my friends (and annoying them to death)

- talking laud or shaking when excited

- Queen of procrastinating

-time is weird (wait it’s 1am?!! But i just got home)

- finding a new interest and only talking about it for a while (also finding everything else lame and boring)

aaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA IS ME IT'S ME PEOPLE UNDERSTAND

“van gogh ate yellow paint because-” he was suicidal, karen

“If Van Goah had antidepressants, we wouldn’t have his artwo-” We’d have a lot more of his work, Karen, and who the fuck cares about what we get from him  he deserved to be well, karen. 

“he cut his ear off for a woman because he lo-” because he was mentally ill, Karen.

Also he was more fucking productive when he was receiving treatment and feeling better because Depression Does Not Fucking Work That Way.

As a creative who suffers from depression,

DEPRESSION CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF. I CAN’T CREATE WHEN DEPRESSED. ITS THE GREATEST FEAR COME TO LIFE!

Actually his ear was severely infected. This was back in the day where they couldn’t do anything about an infection but amputation. So he actually cut off his ear so he didn’t die due to it being so close to the brain. He was depressed but that’s not why he cut his ear off. It’s a very common misconception.

@rosiepenwood ^^ i didn’t know that :) makes sense though

“van gogh ate yellow paint because-” he was suicidal, karen

“If Van Goah had antidepressants, we wouldn’t have his artwo-” We’d have a lot more of his work, Karen, and who the fuck cares about what we get from him  he deserved to be well, karen. 

“he cut his ear off for a woman because he lo-” because he was mentally ill, Karen.

Also he was more fucking productive when he was receiving treatment and feeling better because Depression Does Not Fucking Work That Way.

As a creative who suffers from depression,

DEPRESSION CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF. I CAN’T CREATE WHEN DEPRESSED. ITS THE GREATEST FEAR COME TO LIFE!

Actually his ear was severely infected. This was back in the day where they couldn’t do anything about an infection but amputation. So he actually cut off his ear so he didn’t die due to it being so close to the brain. He was depressed but that’s not why he cut his ear off. It’s a very common misconception.

@rosiepenwood ^^ i didn’t know that :) makes sense though

Don’t underestimate how badly I want to be around to name the next supercontinent

u know that feeling deep in your tummy where u just dont feel comfy and u feel sad and sort of want to cry but not about anything specific its like your entire body is just upset and unnerved all the way to the core almost like ur just longing for something but dont know what

Sleepless night

I’m bad at titles…..

Word count: 1214 words (sooo looong im shook)

Pairing: Platonic analogical

Tag list: hypothetically @a-valorous-choice i may be the anon who sent the asks that over used the word hypothetically.

Warnings: none i can think of

:-) xxxx

*****

He couldn’t sleep.

Logan found that his mind had gone into overdrive. Or that he, Thomas’ mind had gone into overdrive. Or he and Thomas’ mind were gone into overdrive. Were they separate? Or was he the mind? Or just Logic? If he was the mind, Patton was the heart, what exactly were Roman and Virgil-?

Logan shook his head. He was overthinking everything and needed some fresh air before this led to anxiety and stress and Virgil and Patton being woken up, before Roman was awoken to distract from the issue with a fantasy. The others needed their rest.

As did he. Logan knew he needed to sleep, but for that to be possible, he needed to stop overthinking.

The best way to do that, he’d found, was to go outside and get some air.

Despite his claims about not understanding emotions, Logan had always loved the stars. He’d always wanted to learn about constellations, about how stars were born, and how they died. He’d eaten up all the information he could find about them, even some information about astrology and horoscopes, despite not believing in it. The stars were his first love, and standing in the cool, crisp night air, staring up at them, helped Logan relax.

“Hey"

Logan would like it recorded that he did NOT yelp. No matter what Virgil says.

Logan spun around at the voice, but found it hard to spot Virgil for a moment. The other side was lying in the grass, in the dark, in mostly dark clothing. Spotting him was like solving a puzzle.

“I thought you were asleep.” Logan whispered, as he sat down near Virgil. He knew no one would hear him, but he didn’t want to break the silence of the night.

“And I thought you’d be asleep by now Lo.” Virgil whispered, sitting up. “Why aren’t you?  Is everything okay?”

“Everything is fine Virgil. You have no reason to worry.” Logan assured him. Virgil smiled sadly, and Logan regretted his choice of words slightly. They both knew Virgil never needed a reason to worry, he just always did. “What I mean is, I have everything that we can control under control.” Logan amended, causing Virgil to smile properly.

“So why aren’t you asleep?” Virgil asked again. “Are you okay?”

“My health is fine Virgil. I simply needed to get some air, and clear my head before I rest” Logan said. Virgil nodded in understanding. “What about you?  I know you had a long and tiring day, shouldn’t you be asleep?”

“Tried. Failed.” Virgil said with a shrug. “Came out here for some air and to look at the stars.”.  He seemed almost embarrassed by the admission. Logan couldn’t understand why, but he felt the need to assure Virgil it was okay.

“I also came to look at the stars.” Logan admitted. He stared straight up at the sky as he spoke, but could still feel Virgil’s gaze on him. “I’ve always loved the stars. I know these aren’t real, and I know these aren’t even the constellations we would see in the sky together, but I don’t care. They’re so constant, and reassuring, and interesting. Somehow they help me feel better.” Logan finished with a shrug, feeling embarrassed. He didn’t know why he had shared that much. He’d never shared his feelings that much and hoped he wouldn’t regret it. They sat in silence for a few moments. Logan was too embarrassed to look at Virgil, and instead looked at the sky. He knew he probably shouldn’t be able to see Orion and Canis Major together in the sky right now, but he didn’t care. Roman had taken the time to create a night sky, and it was really beautiful.

“I like how the stars don’t care.” Virgil said. Logan jumped as the silence was broken, and turned towards Virgil. The other side was looking at the sky now, and blushing a bright red as he spoke. “I know I mess up. I’m far from perfect. I hold Thomas and everyone back while trying to protect us all” Virgil said.  He stopped looking at the stars, instead staring at his feet while picking at some grass.  “Sometimes I overreact. Sometimes I don’t react well, or on time, or at all. I mess up, and Thomas, and you and Patton and Roman get hurt. And I’m always sorry.” he paused, and gestured towards the sky as he looked back up. “But the stars don’t mind. They never hated me. They never distrusted me. They’re always just…there. No matter what I do or have done. The stars are the same. I don’t mess them up.” Virgil finished but still didn’t look at Logan.

These were feelings. Logan hated feelings. But he knew these feelings very well.

“I know what you mean.” he said. Virgil turned to look at him in surprise and Logan fought the temptation to look away. “Before you showed up, and even after you arrived but we still unfairly excluded you, Roman and Patton were closer to each other than either was to me. I felt left out. And when Thomas failed a test or anything, I felt like a failure. I’m a perfectionist and failing makes me feel like a failure. It makes me feel useless.” he said quietly. “But the stars were the same when I failed as they were when I succeeded. Getting an answer wrong didn’t end the world. The stars are always the same. Its reassuring”

Logan knew his own face was red as Roman’s sash by the time he finished speaking. He’d shared a lot tonight and he never really intended to. But he felt better knowing that he had and that Virgil felt similarly to him, and wouldn’t be likely to judge.

Virgil simply stared at him a few moments, looking surprised, before he smiled at Logan.

“Its very reassuring.” he agreed. He lay back down, crossing his arms underneath his head. After a moment, Logan copied him.

They lay in silence, just looking at the stars and enjoying each other’s company. It was calm, and peaceful, and Logan felt his mind was a lot clearer than it had been when he came outside.

“I think it may be time to go to bed.” he whispered, sorry to break the silence but knowing it was necessary. Virgil yawned in reply and Logan chuckled. They both stood up and to head back inside, calm and happy.

“Virgil?” Logan spoke before thinking his next words through all the way, and he was nervous. Virgil turned around to face him nervously  

“Yeah?” he whispered,  hand hovering over the door handle.

“If you want to do this again, it’d be nice. If you want to look at the stars together if you feel the need to clear your head or anything.  Us doing this together can be another constant. No matter what happens.” Logan said, fumbling over his words slightly  

“I’d like that.” Virgil smiled. “Next time I can’t sleep I’ll come get you.” Logan smiled. “On two conditions Lo.”

“What might those be?” Logan asked.

“Next time you can’t sleep, you come get me.”

“Deal.” Logan replied with a smile. “What’s the second?”

“Could you…could you teach me some constellations?”

“I’d be delighted to.”

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