A short update on the situation since my last post: I guess first thing’s first, there’s now two tumors, one on each side. The second popped up about two weeks ago, about a week after the breast exam and imaging was done on the first tumor, told my doc but she doesn’t seem to think it needs imaged anytime soon. The one on the left is the big one, I think they said from the images it’s like 2.7cm x 1.3 cm x 2.4cm. BI-RADS score on that was 3, they took a bunch of pictures of it and used color doppler to see how much vascularity there was. There is some vascularity but not enough to warrant a higher BI-RADS score. They’re gonna observe it for six months. They’re thinking it’s probably a fibroadenoma but they haven’t bothered doing a biopsy yet so there’s no telling for sure. So I guess for now I get to have the ~fun~ experience of having tumor-y breasts and no definite answer to what’s going on, even though there’s a family history of breast cancer, cancer of fatty tissues, and other cancers that indicate there’s clearly some kind of genetic stuff at play. I just want answers so my anxiety can stop eating me alive. I don’t give a fuck about scars, I’d rather be sure of what I’m dealing with now than find out later I wasted precious time.

Because 2020 has no chill, I now have health concerns of my own to deal with in addition to my dad’s cancer battle. Last week I found a mass on my breast. Given a history of breast cancer on my mom’s side and dad having a cancer of the fatty tissues in the body, I contacted my doctor to get checked out asap. Got scans done last Tuesday and am waiting on more detailed results to come back. This past fucking week has felt like the longest week of my life. I don’t know what I’m going to be told. Any prayers and good vibes would be appreciated right now, I shouldn’t have to be dealing with all this at only 23.

So, things have been a little crazy personally lately. Managed to get through this past semester despite the abrupt switch to online classes and a professor who was less than helpful. Been spending time away from social media so I can spend more time with my dad lately, as despite chemo his cancer is now at the terminal stage where they expect him to have maybe 6 months to a year to live. I’ve lost some weight and my dad has been my biggest cheerleader in all the times I’ve been working on getting healthier. With the news that he’s at the terminal stage this past week it’s been hard to avoid emotional eating but I’ve staved it off so far.

If any of you are in Columbus for the Arnold, hit me up! I’d love to get to meet some of y’all IRL.

Well, it’s been a month of college and while I have yet to explore the campus gym, I can at least say in my own defense I’ve been walking about 5 miles each day including several flights of stairs with a 20-30 pound book bag since I have so many textbooks this semester. So I am noticing some subtle body composition changes from that. I really need to focus on eating better when I’m on campus but that may have to wait till I’m done with making tuition payments because right now virtually all my money and then some is going towards that so I’ve kinda been eating cheap junk food a lot. That’s my little life update for now. Been going to class from like 7-4, then driving and working 6-10 and 6-11, so between that and homework for college I’ve had no real chances to rest or hop on here. I’m still alive tho!

Hey, y’all, I know I haven’t been on as often this summer. Life is still pretty hectic. My dad is about to participate in a trial for an experimental cancer treatment after this round of chemo treatment ends. Meanwhile, I’ve been making moves to get back in school after a two year hiatus. I’ll be taking classes again this fall so I’ve been working my tail off most of this summer so far to be able to pay for that. Nice thing is, being a student again will give me free access to the campus gym and maybe even some fitness classes. Definitely gonna look into my options this time around. No longer a criminal justice and corrections major, I’m an early childhood education and development and elementary education major now.