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Why Yes I Am Tumblr User Smackaroney

@smackaroney / smackaroney.tumblr.com

Yo, my name is Sam and I'm a cool dude. 30 y/o cosplayer based in Denver, CO. If you got questions, shoot me an ask. They’re open.
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Hello skinny tgirl. Lately you've been complaining that your tits aren't growing. In front of you is a plate of food.

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verloonati
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traaansfem

Unironically my tits grow faster for a few days every time I eat salmon

I should probably cook more salmon

Well yes salmon does have some fat in it! And it is good! Try and eat it with some carbs, like potatoes, or maybe blinis. Why not add some vegetables as well? Steamed brocolis, grilled leaks, roasted eggplant, and maybe some cream? That sounds delicious.

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bearmojis

When I say nonbinary people can look like anything I am aggressively including nonbinary people who have beards, body hair, and who are assumed to be cis guys, firstly because that’s also me and secondly because we’re always overlooked or subjected to cringe culture. Nonbinary doesn’t just mean skinny, pale and absent of gender signifiers.

[Don’t be an ass in the notes, I can turn off comments if I have to]

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smackaroney

Oh hey this is me. Thanks.

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I’m feeling dangerously bad.

My mental health is at a low. Not an all time low, but pretty damn close.

Im still alive because I don’t want to make everyone around me sad, and it’s selfish to put my own feelings ahead of everyone else’s but I really really just don’t want to be alive anymore.

I’ve spent 30 years fighting tooth and nail to try and be okay and I cannot seem to get it right.

I’m miserable and lonely and I want everything to stop hurting. Nothing makes me happy. Not even things I used to enjoy. Nothing seems worth it anymore.

I just don’t want to leave behind a world of hurt for others, so I guess I’ll just have to wait for a time when everyone who cares about me is gone or when everyone forgets about me. I guess I could stop talking to everyone and just wait until they forget me, and then do it. I think that honestly might be best. I can’t suffer like this for much longer.

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This isn’t for everyone

I’m seriously at a loss of how to feel better and work on myself.

I don’t feel like I have the time or energy to exercise, and I can’t stop eating. I just can’t stop.

My soul hurts all the time and I want it to stop. I’m tired. I’m lonely. Nothing is ever going to be what I want it to be. I’m always going to be alone and in pain. I’m always going to be fat and ugly. I just want it all to stop. I want to curl up in a corner and fall asleep for forever and never wake up again.

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smackaroney

Did a makeup test for Zenos Yae Galvus from Final Fantasy XIV Online and frankly I think it came out pretty good.

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imaginmatrix

As some of you know, I lost my job recently, and financially this has been a STRUGGLE because I unfortunately live in the US and they hate us here 😩

But my friend recommended looking into starting a Patreon/KoFi for my writing, with early releases of chapters, glimpses at outlines and snippets, early looks at art commissions (pending artist permission), stuff like that

I have NO clue if that would interest anyone who reads my works, and I feel slightly awkward considering it, but even if it wouldn’t necessarily make any actual cash to matter, if a few people actually were into the idea I love sharing early looks with friends anyway. I crave validation. I’d also likely post original work there that’s not fanfic.

So if that’s something you’d pledge to, let me know I suppose! Stuff is hard and I write so much as it is it would be really nice to monetize it, while still making my work free on ao3

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Go to the store

Buy a bottle of ADHD meds

Open the med cabinet OH NO

I somehow didn’t get the medication and now I’m at home with no medication

Go to the store

Buy a bottle of ADHD meds

Open the cabinet OH NO

I somehow didn’t get the medication and now I’m at home with no medication

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I genuinely miss when tumblr was an incoherent hell mouth of streams of consciousness and fandom wars.

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