If I'm quiet, I'm still alive, just not very active at the moment. Just trying to have a quiet mind and heal. Last several months have been hell. Hope writer brain will come back but it's hard to write when you are feeling blah. One day at a time.

If you had ANY idea what this comment means to me. I had just come out directly before I started writing Chaos, (conveniently the first week of lockdown in 2020--yuk). WRITING it helped me realize exactly how gay I am and I finally came out at age 40. I am still married to a man because we get along really well and we're close friends, and we have a son together, but we have been platonic for coming up on 5 years. I could never figure out why I couldn't feel much of anything for men.

I am so touched that my fic helped you realize this, but as I learned, we shouldn't have to come to terms with anything. We are the way we are. Most people accepted me without question and said "Oh yeah I already knew, so what are you doing this weekend?" LOL

Trust me, you will feel SO much better in a year or two and when you experience real love for the first time, every second of pain will be worth it.

Love who you are. Nobody needs to accept you, you aren't a choice to either take or leave. If they feel that you are, they don't belong in your life. If they treat this as a "lifestyle" ask them if their wedding was part of a lifestyle. Or if all the families on TV are a lifestyle. Or if William and Kate or whoever are a lifestyle. I would like to send you something, I don't know if you have ever heart about compulsory heterosexuality. When I saw it for the first time it was like being slapped in the face.

https://www.docdroid.net/N46Ea3o/copy-of-am-i-a-lesbian-masterdoc-pdf

THANK YOU for telling me this. You made my month, honestly. Things have been shitty lately and this made me so happy. And I don't know you but I'm proud of you!!! And thank you about the wonderful things you said about that fic, I am still pretty proud of it.