gay? who, me???

@homopascal / homopascal.tumblr.com

Pascal Bryson is a fireman. He's thirty-six and formerly gay.
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“Pascal” Martin takes ahold of his arm “You have to stop this. You’re a grown man who is still scared of what his parents will think of him and the first sign of trouble run to them” he sighed “I’m here. I love you and you keep running away the first chance you get”

It’s not that Martin isn’t right, but... Pascal carefully pulls his arm free. “I’m not scared of them. I’m scared for them. I’m scared this is something they won’t accept and that the truth will harm them. I... I don’t have that much inner demons to struggle with. No matter how much I twist this, I’m not afraid of being with you. I love every second we spend together. But this relationship can’t cost me my parents health and well-being. Do you get it?”

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‘I’m not making fun of you baby, I know how much this upsets you” he said “but really, what is the absolute worst that will happen? They somehow tell your folks? Assuming they even know who they are or care to find out?”

“Yes, that is the worst that could happen! It could kill them to know I’m gay, Martin! How can you not get it?” He’s aware his voice is a little raised so he works on lowering it. “I’m sorry, I’m just under a lot of pressure. I think I’ll go stay home with my parents till after the holidays. I’ll call you.”

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“You look cute all frazzled, but I just got you to agree to move with me, why would I screw it up now ove a couple of dumb jokes?”

“This is ridiculous. You’re making fun of me, and worse - you’re not even taking this seriously.” Pascal huffs and grabs his “gifts”, ready to shove them in the back of a closet. “It’s not dumb jokes. This is taunting me. I... Fuck, Martin. I’m getting anxious just looking at this crap! And you think it’s funny!”

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“I’m just saying, they know they can freak you out by doing this” Martin said and pulled Pascal back to wrap his arms around him “We only have a couple more weeks and then it’s off to LA. You and me” he added with a kiss.

Pascal pulls away as something occurs to him. “Is it you? Are you trying to be funny? Because it’s not.”

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Martin takes a look at everything “They are. but they are only doing it because you’re giving them leverage” he said and kissed him “it is obviously someone who knows you don’t want to be out yet. Who have you talked to heart besides me?”

Pascal grunts and pulls away, so not in the mood for kissing. “What do you mean? How am I giving them anything? I’ve been super private about this.” The mind starts running and paranoia overtakes every fiber of Pascal’s body. “Oh my God. I have my own personal Judas. Martin, we have to move - now.”

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“No you don’t have to worry about me. I can handle this stuff, I just want to make sure we’re not here for too long, it’s for best of both of us.” He said as he sighed and leaned against the railing, “how long have you and your boyfriend been together?”

“That’s nice of you.” Pascal immediately starts to wonder what the guy’s occupation might be. Guys this day and age don’t just care for strangers unless it’s a professional distortion. “Not long. But it’s our second time giving this a go, so I’m not sure if we count the fact that we used to date a few years ago.” It’s still hard to talk about the fact that he’s dating a man, so Pascal turns the table. “How about you, anyone special?”

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“Nice to meet you.” Wesley nodded as he looked back at the elevator board, hoping to see any sort of change, “oh, that’s really sweet. How nice.” he smiled at the other man, “I guess that explains the smell, I’m sure they’ll be the hit at the party. What kind of cookies did you guys make?” 

“Just ordinary chocolate chip.” Pascal just hopes Drew approves of them and does throw them in the garbage for being too plane, or something. “Are you going to freak out?” he asks politely. “You look pretty calm, but you never know. Want to make sure I’m prepared if you need anything.”

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On the phone with his assistance as he walks into the apartment Martin nearly drops the phone when he’s pulled inside “What?” he asked as he tried to understand what Pascal was talking about, but seeing the sweater he can’t help but chuckle “cute” he said and then looked up at the other man “Out you to who? Me. I think they’re late on that front. Relax baby, it’s just a sweater” He gave him a quick kiss before hanging up “We have any orange juice? I have such a taste for a screwdriver”

Pascal takes a patient, long breath. “Martin!” He follows after the man, exasperated. “They are after me. Mocking me! Just look at all of this stuff,” he says, taking out the other two gifts. “They know and they are making fun of me!”

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As soon as Martin walks through the door of his place, Pascal jerks him faster inside with a fist around his shirt and pulls him to a secluded spot in the apartment. “Someone knows!” he hisses and shows Martin the Secret Santa sweater he got. “They are going to out me! I think they left me a playful threatening note!”

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“Well if they had spent any money on fixing up the building instead of running away with it, we wouldn’t be having these issues.” He got the feeling that this guy was pro-tear down and Wesley was not in the mood to have that conversation as he pushed the buttons. “Wesley. Yours?” he pressed the call button, “i’m sure this will be quick. I hope you’re not claustrophobic.”

“Pascal,” he offers his name back in return, staying close to watch what Wesley is doing due to a slight case of the ‘i know what should be done better than you’. “I mean, I can handle it, but it will get pretty old pretty soon if they don’t fix it fast.”  The cookie smell Wesley mentioned wasn’t helping, since it was only increasing Pascal’s appetite. “I helped my... boyfriend’s niece and nephew make some sweets today. They have a kindergarten party tomorrow and everyone has to bring something homemade. Or so I was told.” 

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“What’s that smell?” Wesley said as he stood in the elevator next to stranger, “sorry, you smell like my favorite cookies. I doubt you just happen to get from Alaska have you?” he joked, “you smell delicious. No offense.” he said with a smile as he kept his distance, not trying to take offense in case the other guy wasn’t friendly. Although it didn’t matter if he was or wasn’t, fate had other plans as there was a noise and the elevator came to an abrupt halt. “oh no…” Wesley said as he began to press the floor up, but no buttons were working. “I think we’re stuck.”
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Oh, great. Pascal is stuck in an elevator with a guy who’s obviously gay and obviously flirting with him. “Crap. Is there an alarm button? Some way to contact the emergency team in charge of this building?” He dares to step closer to the other man, who’s only vaguely familiar. “No wonder they are shutting down the building. Sorry what was your name again?”
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“I mean if you’re going to live do it to the fullest” Martin smiled “but I was thinking more like an actual house…mt house”

“You’re asking me to live with you?” Pascal laughs. “You really go all out, don’t you? No ‘taking it slow and easy’ for you, Wallace.”

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“Exactly, and we can do it right this time. Dates, blowjobs in places besides hotel rooms. We could be legit” he joked.

“So, right in your world means risking jail time?” Pascal grins.

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Martin laughed and reached over to take Pascal’s hands in his “I guess that whole older and wiser thing has some truth to it after all” he told him “but I do love me some avacados, so who knows. Although…does this mean you’ll come?”

Pascal sighs and looks up, his hands squeezing Martin’s back. “I mean... it can’t hurt to try. Not more than break up those years ago.”

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