"do you love me?" "what if this ended?" "what if you left?" "I could never leave, unless you asked me to"
they have an answer to all their what ifs. maybe you didn't have to borrow sadness from the future. maybe you should've known way before how replaceable you were. should've thought to what extent and how long you were going to be worth it before you were not. you had such a short time anyway. maybe you shouldn't have hoped. because all your love is spent.
love how my tumblr went from just a silly little girl simping over her silly little kpop men to NEEDS FUCKING THERAPY the way people can change you my goodness
what do you get for trying to fill broken peices of someone's heart with all the love you managed to keep even through all the thunderstorms? you get a broken heart back as you stand at your doorstep watching them leave in the storm again. right where they came from. right where you stood again. It rains harder now, it just doesn't soothe you anymore.
that sinking feeling when I think. maybe if I was prettier. maybe if I was cooler. maybe if I was smarter. more fascinating. more fun and not tiring to be with. maybe if I wasn't so annoying. maybe if I was more like her.
"I don't ever feel like a priority in anyone's life"
"are YOU a priority in YOUR own life?"
......shots were fired indeed.....
I fucking hate her. I hate her with every inch of my being my god I hate the "support" she's showing and I cannot tolerate her in a way I've never felt for anybody. holy shit. its her its her its always fucking been her and I was too blind. the slightest mention of her makes me SICK to my stomach. Is my life really just always going to be people and their lies.
love trying to send a voice note and crying so hard midway that I need 15 minutes to calm down by once again drowning my face in icewater
kys (me to me)
I don't feel very good oh god.
will never admit it but today is hard. today is so fucking hard because I keep thinking of what it could have been. its hard because one person can make a whole crowd feel empty.
read it too many times and over and over till its imprinted in my heart and I love it and I hate it because all it brings anymore is a whole lot of pain but all it did was also make today the most special it could be and I hate that the beginning of today was made special by the same person who ruined any expectations I had or will have from today forever
so many lies and bending the truths and misinterpretations and third persons in the story man just hoped I'd be trusted and be able to trust even after things went down but that broke
in my dreams, you're sorry
wow. kudos, really. I wish I could've done it this way.
this one girl dancing in our school gives me such major gay panic i was shocked at my own self
favourite time of the year second to onli durga puja fr :p
