Does anyone want to plot?
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Doing Great | Marvel Studios’ Loki | Disney+
Anonymous asked:
What did monroe do to you? You’re on her dni
If people want to know, they can approach me off of anon but I'm not gonna be talking about this publicly anymore. Both of us did wrong, I've taken responsibility for my part and apologised but a year later and I'm still suffering from the fallout and so far talking about it has only made it worse. So if you want to know, ask me off anon but otherwise I won't say anything else that they can use against me
I've been too anxious to come onto this blog because last time I said something, it went badly for me. So I really don't feel comfortable or safe to say anything else
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Hey I just wanted to give a shutout to RPers that can’t be that active on their blogs, so here’s to:
- RPers that are dealing with mental health problems that make it harder to find muse to write
- RPers that work long hours that take up their energy
- RPers that have a lot of hard things going on in their real life that takes up their time
- RPers that are working on a lot other projects as well and have to pick what to work on
- RPers that for whatever reason have a hard time finding partners to write with, be it due to being in a rare fandom to having a oc that doesn’t fit a mold
- RPers that are parts of different rp blogs/groups & don’t always have time for their indie
- RPers that just have a hard time getting muse to write
You all are wonderful & amazing parts of the rpc, it’s okay to not be hyper active all the time & it’s more than okay to have things you do for fun or to make something that isn’t RPing & is more important to you.
not being as active as others doesn’t make you a bad RPer, writer, editor or otherwise a part of this community, you yourself are a treasure with or without your writing, the thought & care that you are able to put into your muse & writing is more than enough.
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Hey I just wanted to give a shutout to RPers that can’t be that active on their blogs, so here’s to:
- RPers that are dealing with mental health problems that make it harder to find muse to write
- RPers that work long hours that take up their energy
- RPers that have a lot of hard things going on in their real life that takes up their time
- RPers that are working on a lot other projects as well and have to pick what to work on
- RPers that for whatever reason have a hard time finding partners to write with, be it due to being in a rare fandom to having a oc that doesn’t fit a mold
- RPers that are parts of different rp blogs/groups & don’t always have time for their indie
- RPers that just have a hard time getting muse to write
You all are wonderful & amazing parts of the rpc, it’s okay to not be hyper active all the time & it’s more than okay to have things you do for fun or to make something that isn’t RPing & is more important to you.
not being as active as others doesn’t make you a bad RPer, writer, editor or otherwise a part of this community, you yourself are a treasure with or without your writing, the thought & care that you are able to put into your muse & writing is more than enough.
LIKE THIS POST IF YOU WANT ME TO FOLLOW YOU ON MY REBOOTED LOKI BLOG
I LOVE that they are showing Loki fighting *with* his magic instead of just with his knives.
Honestly, that whole trailer is pure gold and I'm even more excited than I was before for Loki to come out
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TOM HIDDLESTON as LOKI LAUFEYSON — June 2021 | Disney+
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You can trust me
LOKI | 2021
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Thor had tried to explain to the team that Loki hadn’t been, well, himself when he’d attacked New York. That he’d always been prone to mischief, never exactly trustworthy, but that he wasn’t generally evil. Believe it or not, Tony was trying to believe that, trying to look past the memory of Loki’s hand on his throat and remember instead how it had felt when he’d had his brain played with. It sufficed to say he hadn’t liked it much. Tony also knew a thing or two about the endless struggle for redemption and how it felt to change absolutely everything about yourself, try and do good, and have it not mean a damn thing to half the world. He’d been lucky enough that the other half had given him a second chance–one he knew he didn’t deserve. But he’d also never tried to take over all of New York City with a rabid alien army.
No, said a little voice in his head. You just let innocent cities across the world get bombed with your weapons. Your death count is much higher.
“I don’t think you’re contagious. I think you’re an anomaly,” Tony explained, already rolling his chair away to one of the many machines on his desk. “Your brand of science leaves traces. Let’s call them…blips in the natural order of things. This realm–this planet–this reality, operates on a finite amount of matter–nothing created, nothing destroyed. You wave your hands and do some abracadabra, and you offset the balance. I can trace the energy.” Tony didn’t look up, continuing to speak as he analyzed the ‘sample.’ So far, Loki was right–as much as he hated to admit it: there was nothing to see, nothing to find, nothing lingering. But just because he didn’t see it, didn’t mean it wasn’t there. “Magic is a system, right? It has to have coding. And I’m good at code.”
“Okay, fine, it’s ‘real’.” He put air quotes around the last word, finally looking up to see that Loki had not, despite his threats, actually left. He hated to admit that he was glad–he shouldn’t be–but it had been a while since Tony had had a real challenge, and alien ‘magic’ was the ultimate test. “Now that–” He said, pointing the pen at Loki. “Makes sense.” He didn’t–couldn’t–believe that magic was random, that was as simple as snapping your fingers and making a wish come true. There had to be a logic behind it, a theory as strange as gravity must have seemed to the ancients, that he could, piece by piece, begin to decode.
Tony tried his best not to look impressed. The last thing he needed was Loki getting a big head or, worse, thinking Tony was actually interested in anything he had to say. But the truth was, well, he was. The man just turned his pen into a snake. That shouldn’t have been possible. It wasn’t the weirdest thing Tony had seen, not by a long shot, but there was something different about seeing it up-close when no one was trying to kill him and no alien army was knocking on his door, ready to take his head off with a magical guillotine. With no immediate threat, no lives currently in danger, no “heroing” he had to do, there was nothing but pure, unadultured, scientific inquiry. And he loved it.
“And this Seidr–it understands the oath?” he asked, eyebrows raised and leaning back so far in his seat, he’d have fallen over long ago if he hadn’t designed it for that very instinct. He put his legs up onto the desk, crossing at the ankle, and folded his hands behind his head–the picture perfect image of casual indifference, but inside he was buzzing. “You’re trying to tell me you’re in contact with all the atoms of the universe? That you’re having ‘magical’–” Again, he made air quotes around the word “Conversations on a cellular level?” He sat up. “I know I’m going to regret this, but fine. Let’s…oath it out. What do we shake hands or something? Blood pact? Do I need a lock of your hair? A small doll I poke with pins when you annoy me?”
Loki wasn’t sure whether being an anomaly was much better than being seen as a monster or contagious. He was...Loki wasn’t sure what word to use, but it was rare anyone showed this much interest in his seidr, so it was a welcome change that Stark was and wanted to learn more. However, he didn’t like feeling like a science experiment, nor did he like the idea that he was only worth having around so long as he could be poked and prodded at. He was grateful that his back was turned to Stark, he would have been humiliated if the mortal saw how his usual stoic mask crumbled from the onslaught of memories assaulting him.
One in particular was causing him the most pain. He was suspended in the air, his skin being peeled off by the Chitauri to test his healing abilities, his defenses and his pain threshold. If he could have passed out from the agonizing torture he was being put through, he would have, but Ebony Maw’s intrusive microsurgery needles kept him awake throughout it all. Loki was allowed no rest from the many ways they had tried to break him. they’d just kept pushing his body and mind till it could take no more, and once they had broken it, they had been able to rebuild it however they wanted. They’d indoctrinated and radicalized him into their way of thinking, turning him into the villain Stark still saw him as.
He took a moment to recompose himself before he turned back to Stark, plastering a smile on his face. “I suppose Thor’s told you all about how unusual I am.” Better to pass him being an anomaly off as a joke than to admit that it had touched a sore spot. Loki’d been seen as unusual and as an outsider all his life, it was something he was used to so it was second nature for him to act unbothered when someone else pointed it out to him. “I wish I could confirm your theory, but there’s no coding to what I can do. There are things about the universe that are mystical in nature, however much you want to deny it, it doesn’t make that any less true.” He admired Stark’s intelligence, but this was one area the mortal fell short. His ignorance and refusal to accept what his science couldn’t explain made him narrowminded, and ultimately would get in the way of understanding the universe on a deeper level.
Loki wanted to explain seidr to Stark, to help him understand and learn. It had been centuries since Loki’d taught anyone and he wasn’t ashamed to admit he missed passing his knowledge onto someone else. However, teaching was a two way street, the potential student had to be willing to learn, and open to possibilities that contradicted what they already knew. There was no problem having questions, Loki welcomed them, but outright denial wasn’t welcome in a place of learning. “There is a system of sorts, there’s a sort of give and take when using a spell. It takes energy to wield seidr, if you don’t have enough of it, or are inexperienced the spell will either fail, or hit back at you.” It wasn’t unknown for overenthusiastic beginners to die from trying a spell well beyond their ability. “It’s a living force, it should be respected, those that abuse it aren’t just scum, they’re a danger to themselves and everyone around them.”
The pen turned snake continued to slither up his arm till it reached his shoulder and hung around his neck. It brought a smile to Loki’s lips and he gently stroked his fingers along its scales. He’d always had an affinity to snakes, they were wonderful creatures, often misunderstood like he was and far more intelligent than humans gave them credit for. They were also survivors, using that little they had to find a way to come out on top, it was a trait Loki respected. “You can take it if you want.” Loki offered. “It’s perfectly safe.” Loki could be cruel, but he wasn’t about to turn a pen into a snake that was venomous, not when he wanted to earn Stark’s trust. “See for yourself how real it is.”
Loki wasn’t expecting to make a believer out of Stark overnight. He knew it would take time, if it happened at all. Annoying as it was to be doubted and to have Stark resort to childish air quotes, he could understand Stark’s skepticism. He was being asked to believe in something that he couldn’t prove with his machines or any other scientific means that were available to him. If Loki had been in Stark’s position, he would be just as reluctant, so he could hardly fault the mortal for how he was acting. “It’s not so much a conversation, think of it like how you might combine elements together. You’re not talking with them, you’re just putting pieces together that already exist.” Stark was making it more complicated than he needed to.
“There’s nothing special you need to do, you don’t need my hair or my blood, nor do I need yours.” Loki couldn’t help but wonder where Stark had gotten these ideas from. Were these the kinds of sagas and stories the mortals told themselves? “I only need to say the words and imbued them with magic.”
The best thing happened to me last night and I'm honestly over the moon. I just wish 2 years of potential friendship hadn't been wasted because of someone manipulating me.
I have a friend back, someone I cherish dearly and I cannot be more happy. I'm still hurt that someone I trusted has been manipulating and lying to me, but at least now I know the truth.
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I really wish mental health and neurodivergence weren’t such stigmatized topics in the workplace. Like if I could actually tell my boss “hey, because of my ADHD, I need to be able to work in blocks of time and not be expected to respond to chat messages” or “I could use help prioritizing projects because to my brain they are all urgent” without worrying that they’d see me as less competent or efficient. Or if I could say “hey I have PTSD and something triggered me this morning, no idea what, but now I’m staring blankly at the computer with my hands shaking and I don’t think I’m gonna get you that draft today” and not be seen as unstable.
But no, let’s just pretend we’re all cogs in a machine with no minds, emotions, or differences, just hours of productivity.
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Anonymous asked:
Loki is the abusive one, not Thor who has every right to be angry at him.
Oh?
are
you
SURE
about
that?
I think what anon is ignoring in dysfunctional relationships is that both sides can be abusive/show toxic traits to one another. The overall family dynamic in the Odin family is fucked up if you take a closer look.
Like with Gamora and Nebula, Odin put this competitive pressure over both of his sons, blames the weakest for not keeping up then last minute tells them he loved them this whole time AFTER he traumatized both. Not to mention Thor was the golden child in the family. He could do no wrong and if he did, then it must have been someone who influenced him (cough loki).
There are times where Loki does do things that are cruel and malicious as does Thor, but (as Loki so insightfully put it) “communication was never our family’s forte”. Neither of them know how to take the high road and honestly, even if they did, what’s the use? That wouldn’t change what their family values and prioritize and it might even make things more difficult.
Their family only knows how to blame, fight, yell at each other, enable and take sides. Everyone of them! (As much as I love Frigga, shes guilty, too)
If we kept score, sure, we could find a “winner”, but that’s not really the point. It doesn’t say much about the bigger picture. It doesn’t prove anything other than the Odin family is more toxic and fucked up than they like to admit.
It seems easy to forget that being the victim of abuse does not prevent someone from being a abuser. Thor and Loki’s dynamic is not healthy and it never has been. They’d been pitted against each other, physical violence was normalized within their culture and as the boys grew physically they had a great size difference. They were set up to be competition from the start and we see Thor having the pressure to be the perfect son and noble warrior.
Family abuse is a complicated beast and often there are people who are both abused and abusers within a mature and established abusive family.