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Honestly, I logged on to switch all of my blogs to "Prevent third-party sharing" since that is a thing I have to do now. Tumblr, I am not happy about that. Sigh. Anyway, here's an update on life. College: In week 7 now for both of my classes. I am honestly struggling to keep up with them, so I may speak with the accommodations people to see what can be done to help. My grades continue to be good, but I feel like I'm struggling with the lectures and amount of material I need to read, especially for the first class. I just need to get myself to do it. Health: I have an official diagnosis for fibromyalgia now, and I started some treatment for it. DBT group is going well, and we just started the third module, Distress Tolerance. I'm still waiting on hearing back for a new psychiatrist and therapist, but I got that ball rolling earlier this month. I made it clear to the person doing intake that I want actual diagnoses since that did not happen with my past providers. I will likely be waiting a while for that. Jobs: Husband's job has improved. Mine has not, but I am continuing to tolerate it while working on my degree. I am also casually looking at positions in the library field to apply to. Reading: Currently, I'm reading Howl's Moving Castle by Diana Wynne Jones, and I want to say I'm almost halfway through it. I have four other books from the library waiting to be read. Honestly, I read while eating lunch, and it's quite relaxing. Video games: I play Palworld here and there when I have spare time. I also need to make my PS5's storage space bigger so I can play Genshin again. I haven't played it in weeks. Writing: Between college, work, and my social life, I don't honestly have time for much writing right now. That may change once the semester is over, but I'm not sure. That's all. Again, you can find me on Discord if you feel like chatting!

Heya everyone! I hope you're all doing well. I just wanted to give a bit of an update on things since I know I don't have you all on Discord. If you don't have me already, I'm FateDefied. Cats: Content with the box in front of the window near my desk, especially since it has a blanket on it. College: Guess what? I'm going to be starting grad school next semester! Simmons, the university I was gunning for, accepted me into their MLIS program, and I also got a merit scholarship that will likely be enough to cover books. Health: Just got through a cold of some sort, and I'm better now. I'm switching medical providers starting January 2nd. DBT has been going well and helping. We just started the emotional regulation module. Jobs: Still sucks and still full of drama, but I'm just rolling with it for now the best I can. Husband is still actively searching for another job as well. Other: I'm driving at least once a week to my DBT group, which has been great for my confidence. I'm also reading more books from my local library! Currently, I'm nearly halfway through The Ten Thousand Doors of January by Alix E. Narrow. Also borrowing Under the Whispering Door by T.J. Klune, who is an author I highly recommend after reading The House in the Cerulean Sea. Video Games: Still playing Genshin, so catch me on there. I also just got into Sun Haven, which is a more magical version of Stardew Valley if you're into that sort of thing. I'm enjoying it so far. I recently beat Spider Man: Miles Morales, which was fun. Writing: I may or may not be willing to do some writing on Discord, but I am still not actively here on tumblr (as you can see). Some muse is there, but it's not a lot. I'm still writing a bit of poetry here and there, but I'm not interested in posting it anywhere public. That's everything of importance, I think. I just wanted to keep y'all in the loop too since y'all are my friends. Have a good night!

For those who may want to know because of the news: my husband and I are safe. We live two hours north of where everything happened. We have friends down there, though, and we're still waiting to hear from them. I'm shaken, scared, and it's been hard to focus at work, but I am physically safe. Please keep Maine, especially the community of Lewiston, in your thoughts today. Maine is a state made up of small towns where everyone knows everyone, and this has shaken us to our core.

It's been a busy couple of months, so I thought I'd give a bit of an update. Things are hopefully going to slow down for a little while before they speed back up for the holidays. Cats: Okay for the most part. Vincent appears to have lost more teeth, so we're keeping an eye on him. He doesn't seem to be slowing down, though. Health: I have a root canal scheduled for later this month. I also need to find a regular dentist again. Otherwise, I've been getting out for walks more with the better weather, so that's been good. I'm starting my DBT life skills group this Wednesday per my therapist's recommendation. I'll be changing providers in January, so fingers crossed I can get a referral for a neuropsych eval for autism and ADHD along with a better med manager and/or psychologist. Job: Mine still sucks, but I'm doing something about it. I got my loans out of default, and I was able to file the FAFSA. Now, I just need to apply to schools for a Masters program in library science, and I have four in mind. Husband is actively looking for another job as well. Other: My sister got married last week, which is what was keeping me majorly occupied for a while in regards to planning and mental energy. So, that was exciting! We also got to do other things surrounding that wedding, never mind going to a concert the week before due to winning a raffle. Writing: I have no interest in RPing for the foreseeable future. It's like someone flicked a switch in my brain, and now I don't want to write for any of my characters. Maybe that will change. Maybe that won't. I'm taking things a day at a time. I still don't feel like posting my poetry on tumblr either. Not logging onto this website has been great, honestly. That's been it. If you want to keep in touch, you can find me on disco: 209843601356750852. Apparently, that's how the IDs work now. You can also search for FateDefied. See you around! Hope you all are well!

An explanation of sorts. I'll try to keep it brief. Cats: Adorable menaces. All healthy. They say hi. Health: Current priority. Physical health is mostly fine. Mental health needs a lot of work. I'm taking steps to improve, but they're slow ones. Job: Mine sucks. Husband's job sucks. I've taken steps to get out, albeit small ones, but they will take a lot of time. Social Media: I am logged out of all social media on my phone (save for disco and pinterest) for my health, but I will leave my accounts logged in for work only. It's going to stay like this for at least a few weeks if I can manage it. Writing: RPing is on an indefinite hiatus for now. I can't get myself to do it. My brain doesn't want to. Poetry still happens occasionally, and I have written poems since I last posted on my poetry account, but I'm going to look for a new website to host it. I don't like logging onto tumblr right now. That's everything I can think of. I know I've been quiet. That quiet will probably continue for the foreseeable future. I need to conserve my energy and focus on myself for a while. I haven't been, and it shows (at least to me). I'll be on disco as usual, but that's about it. See you around!

I finished gomens 2 yesterday, and I have a lot of feelings. Most of them are incoherent screaming, but they're still there. I will cry forever about Zira and Crow. No, I'm not gonna type out the full names because this is tumblr. I also have a lot of feelings for Beelzebub and Gabriel. And Maggie and Nina. And Muriel. Just. Ugh. I need there to be a season 3. Please.

I'm only two episodes in, and this fucker is already poking me again. Same with Aziraphale. I really fucking love them both to my core. It's also really fucking healing my religious trauma, let me tell you.

This is my brain right now. I am burnt out. Beyond it, really. Both my husband and I are. Ramble below cut because I'm just... I need to vent.

I communicate in meme format, so let's do that.

I don't enjoy writing right now. It's not fun for me. It's a chore. I don't feel like it's for me at the moment, and that's why I'm not forcing it. I actively avoid using my computer when I'm not on shift, and, when I am at my computer, I don't even bother opening my tumblr-associated browser. I focus on my soul-sucking job while playing Civ, and then I get off as soon as I can. I don't want to write. It feels freeing to say that while also sad. If you know, you know. Eventually, I'll be back. Probably when the hypomania comes back or something. Maybe I'll write a reply here and there when I'm feeling it. For now, though, I'm not forcing myself to do something that doesn't bring me any joy but does the exact opposite. I'll still probably upload my poetry and whatnot since I do find joy writing that, but that's it. See you!

Can I focus for more than two seconds to do some writing? We will make an attempt. I make no promises. I am running on very low sleep with a headache.

I have a writing blog, and I've posted one of my newest poems on it. You can find it here. I'm going to queue up some of my other poetry as well as put up some musings and lyrics I like. Feel free to like and reblog from it if you're so inclined. Feedback is also appreciated.