fandom stories that have been on my mind recently…. 📑

as what the title says, cpn things that have been living in my head rent-free for the past days/ weeks. i just need a place to write them down and let them shine on their own ✨

same disclaimer applies. for cpn-loving turtles only. please don’t ask me to elaborate cause as i said, i have very minimal information on hand.

new year tarot reading for xzwyb. 🗒️

if you’ve been seeing turtles on wb talking about it, then this is what it’s all about. i was personally curious and i’ve always been partial to tarot readings so i thought i’d share here. please don’t take it seriously. i know this kind of thing is not for everyone and that’s fine, just scroll along. stuff like this is popular among bxgs because of the whole 95 reading before.

what’s interesting is this is not mean for cpfs at all. it is for fans who wanna get an insight on what is the ideal type and marriage partner of wyb and xz. the videos were done separately. the only reason why this was on our radar is the what the cards were saying are pretty 👀.

Az utolsó.. ! :) (Unmute ! )

I feel bad about laughing at some of these, like the missed jump, but none of the cats appear to be hurt by their misadventures, and the rest had me literally WHEEZING. The cat crossing the unpleasantly-textured mat…I am LITERALLY CRYING.

Secret Crush On You-The Series

Just finished watching the last episode a few minutes ago...so sad it's over. The day I tried the first episode, I watched about 2 mins but thought it was going to be too overblown for me, so I stopped and tried watching something else. I was surprised as I watched the other show that my thoughts kept going back to the energy and gleefulness I saw in SCOY's first moments. I ended up stopping the second show ( can't even remember which one it was now) and just had to go back and give SCOY another try.

Best decision.

Episodes 1-5 were already up and I ended up binging them all. Once I got into the wackiness of Toh Jao Som and Daisy's friendship I was hooked. They're so chaotic, but also supportive and sweet to each other. Friendship goals for real.

Also, the chemistry between the 2 leading couples was really good. SkyJao took a little time to go on me since Jao always seemed reluctant and scared. I didn't think it was cute that it seemed like Sky had to force Jao all the time. Jao would never expressly say no, but it always seemed awkward between them until Jao finally loosened up and trusted Sky a bit more. NueaToh was so cute! The teasing, the eye contact and the kisses. They did it all. Sweet and cute, hot and steamy, emotional and silly too.

I never felt bored. Not for one minute in any of the episodes. There were moments of frustration ( Van Gogh/Red discussion), of anger (tj.go.to.hell posts), and sadness (Daisy/Day dilema), but never boring.

I won't take any complaints about Toh's collection either. The show addresses his actions multiple times to show that he and others know it's creepy and to deliver the message that his actions are not standard or accepted. I didn't read the novel so I don't know if the show exaggerated or toned down Toh's actions for the series. I do know that I didn't take it too seriously and just enjoyed the crazy moments of he being super awkward trying to keep items.

I think the cast did a good job, but special shout out to Seng for playing Toh. Never slacked for a minute in his role and really made it hard to imagine him behaving in any other way. I feel he embodied Toh very very well.

Also, really liked that there were all sorts of couples. BxB GxG BxG Trans x B. Each with their moments of cuteness. One of my main complaints with BLs is that the story doesn't leave space for other couple configurations, which isn't realistic. It's like this is supposed to be a space on inclusivity so why do so many shows exclude other pairs? I so happy SCOY included so many. Obviously there are more, but I definitely like this step in the right direction.

I really loved watching this show. I previously thought Cutie Pie was going to be one of my favorite BLs this year, but SCOY really pushed it back. My sleeper hit of 2022 so far. SCOY will probably stay at the top of the list, because I honestly can't see another show coming out this year and giving me as much life and as many feels as this one.

Lastly, this was produced by Saint Suppapong. I think this was his first project from IDOLFACTORY. The next is a GL, GAP The Series, which I watched the trailer for. I'm excited to see it as well. I feel that I can have high expectations since I like SCOY so much.

I’m eating my entire fist right now

gay people be wearing maid outfits when they have to do simplest house tasks. this is what i call accurate portrayal

Completed watching star on my mind and cutie pie and can I just say scoy has totally destroyed my immunity to "unnecessary misunderstandings couples go through in dramas " cuz i just got so frustrated over both shows and i was never like this like secret crush on you is such a breath of fresh air people have insecurities about their relationship they talk , people are unsure about themselves they talk and wholesome couples who love each other so purely and not a hint of toxicity like do you realise how rare that is no one is pushing boundaries , no one is undermining or underestimating anyone , both parties respect and love each other and treat each other as such and great communication . Scoy has set my standards for relationship and dramas so high i don't think I can enjoy other shows as much as I used to and i am truly not ready to say goodbye to such a beautiful and unexpected show next week . I will miss scoy .

Often times in BL (and dramas in general) there are various friendship groups around the main characters but none of them has felt so real and organic as the juniors in Secret Crush on You. Toh, Jao, Som, and Daisy love each other so much and while it was evident in the first two episodes with just how far they are willing to support Toh, it was the scene in episode 3 where they all huddle on the ground and cry together that cemented just how…real and lovely their bond is.

Where 3 goes, 4 goes as well. Wherever one goes, the others will follow. You don’t have to do this alone because you have us, always.

It’s comical to watch these four get into wild shenanigans. They share a singular brain cell most of the time but when it’s time to be real, when someone is showing raw vulnerability, the others in return give it right back. In the first episode when Toh cried over the gift being throw in the garbage, Som, Jao, and Daisy were crying right there with him. Just…ahh!! The empathy, the love, the support, their friendship!!

i watched all 7 episodes of secret crush on you last night and i’m not gonna lie, at first, toh’s obsession crush on nuea made me unconfortable, but as the show went on i realized that toh always thought the pictures, the soda can and other trinkets he keeps, are the only things he is allowed to have.

he and his friends are outcasts, they are not the hot popular guys. they aren’t allowed to touch, only look, dream, fantasize. 

that became very clear as jao kept running away from sky, even though sky has been very open about his intentions. he’s “chubby”, he’s not the kind of guy sky is “supposed” to want.

toh is much the same, he tells nuea he’s “happy” with just admiring his crush from afar, because he thinks this will remain as that secret crush you have in college and after they graduate, that will be the end of it. they don’t take sky and nuea’s actions seriously, nuea for example is “just teaching” toh how to kiss.

it’s very obvious that nuea and sky have feelings for them. sky spent an entire night outside waiting for jao to turn off his lights (!!!!!) , nuea is out there telling everyone, including his ex-affair (?friend with benefits?), he likes this person (toh) and he’s serious about them.

it’s very obvious, but only to us.

There's so much in the way Toh wakes up and moves away, taking a memory of a moment he thinks is going to go away, a moment he can't trust, love that he doesn't see himself as worthy of, the way Nuea reassures him but Toh still struggles to believe the words because of how he's always see himself, how he's always been the joke, the one that gets laughed at, not the one that gets the boy let alone the one who gets the engineering sports prodigy.

And Jao's doubts, Jao's deep insecurities about who he is and who Sky is and that fear. The fear that love is malleable, that there's someone better for Sky out there, that he is only a stepping stone, that he could never be anything more, that Sky could never be as serious as he seems because Jao cannot imagine loving himself the way Sky loves him.

Sky and Nuea both Toh and Jao very much. They love them deeply and they love for who they are, for all the things that make them insecure, for all the things that make them exactly who they are. But they're in an uphill fight against their lovers own insecurities and the exact things that make them love them so much.

Secret Crush on You said "You know all those people you've been mocking in BL for years? The feminine boys, the chubbier people, the overly invested fans, the queer friends? What if they were people? What if they were loved? What if they truly mattered, to each other and to the world and to the people that you have held in such high esteem all along? What if the engineers loved these boys, loved them with all their hearts and their souls and they were the ones being chased, the ones being pursued, the ones being loved?" and ran with it.