Realized I haven't updated anything on my blog since I was 22 lmao. Here's my face now, I missed y'all š
My account was hacked and I've been locked out for years, but I finally have access again! Who's still here?! š
not to be dramatic, but hearing someone acknowledge their mental illness and their symptoms in casual conversation or social setting is so affirming.
when someone saysĀ āyeah, Iāve been tired lately because of my depression. Iām gonna talk to my doctor about my meds,ā or like they mention coping with intrusive thoughts, or delusions, or hallucinations, or focus issues, or compulsive behavior, etc. etc., like itās normal, bc for them and for me and for so many people, one or more of those things ARE normalā¦ā¦..
TALK about a shot of serotonin STRAIGHT to my whole being
i have never felt as mature as when i finally understood (through therapy) and internalized (through emotional work) that you cannot connect and communicate with some people no matter how kind, compassionate, understanding, articulate, eloquent, or smart you are, and that sometimes a person not listening to you does not reflect on your communication skills or ability to connect or straight up intelligence. in a way, itās letting go of the belief that you have the power to make people understand you. communication is a two-way street, and needs two willing participants. some people are just walls, and it has been unbelievably helpful for my mental and emotional health to let it slide and know that it does not affect me or my self worth.Ā
me: feels an emotion and expresses it
abused brain: apologizeĀ
dog teeth #114
Superliminal- a fun size perspective game!
how the fuck do you even BEGIN to code this
FUCK aliens ! we got these crazy shits under da sea and weāre not payin any attention!!!
āthe colony can regenerate injured parts or continue growing after being broken apart.Ā Unless all individual clones are killed at the same time, a colony can theoretically live foreverā
This thing is fucking mythical
yeehaw
Whatās encrypting your internet surfing? An algorithm created by a supercomputer? Well, if the site youāre visiting is encrypted by the cyber security firm Cloudflare, your activity may be protected by a wall of lava lamps.
Cloudflare covers websites for Uber, OKCupid, & FitBit, for instance. The wall ofĀ lamps in the San Francisco headquarters generates a random code. Over 100Ā lamps, in a variety of colors, and their patterns deter hackers from accessing data. Ā
As the lava lamps bubble and swirl, a video camera on the ceiling monitors their unpredictable changes and connects the footage to a computer, which converts the randomness into a virtually unhackable code.
Codes created by machines have relatively predictable patterns, so itās possible for hackers to guess their algorithms, posing a security risk. Lava lamps, add to the equation the sheer randomness of the physical world, making it nearly impossible for hackers to break through.
You might think that this would be kept secret, but itās not. Simply go in and ask to see the lava lamp display. By allowingĀ people to affect the video footage, human movement, static, and changes in lighting from the windows work together to make the random code even harder to predict.
So, by standing in front of the display, you add an additional variable to the code, making it even harder to hack. Isnāt that interesting?Ā
via atlasobscura.com
What the fuck.
when you find an academic source thatās perfect for your paper but itās behind a pay wall
Deciding to cite it anyway base on the abstract, knowing your professor probably wonāt go through and look up every source in works cited
if you guys want to read academic papers but theyāre behind a paywall, get the chrome extension Unpaywall. when you visit a site that requires you pay for their journal to view the article, the extension will look for other open access sites that will show you the article for free, and itās all completely legal. all that money goes to the publisher, the writer of the paper gets none of it. https://unpaywall.org
If you can find out an authorās name, contact them. They may be willing to email it to you.For free.Ā
Check researchgate.net and academia.edu! Also authorsā professional websites.
Reblog to save a life
peak character design
Dear family who want me around for major holidays,
If you havenāt worked retail since the Reagan administration, kindly FUCK OFF. Your Reagan-era and Reagan-inspired laissez-faire policies are whyĀ I fear retaliation for even considering asking off for any time in November or December. Yes, this will be my sixth holiday season in a row with no time off. I am well aware. I donāt haveĀ āseniority,ā I canātĀ āpull strings,ā there is no one who canĀ ācover for me,ā and my manager will certainly notĀ āunderstand if I just donāt show,ā not this time of year. Those are statements of things that wereĀ possible when unions were stronger in the 1970s and had the lobbying strength to make sure that employers werenāt running busy times on overworked skeleton crews with no backup. Accrued time off, and especially paidĀ accrued time off, simply doesnāt exist anymore for anyone on an hourly wage, so even if there wasĀ coverage, I still need to eat.
If youāre so upset your children and grandchildren canāt see you for the holidays, maybe you shouldnāt have sold them into wage slavery in the 1980s and every election since with your voting habits.
As this circulates again for the 2018 holiday season, Iād like to remind everyone that the best ways to fix this are to 1) vote, early and often, 2) unionize, and 3) donāt shop on Black Friday weekend or the weekend of/immediately before Christmas. (Yes Iām aware Black Friday already happened, but itās a good rule for all years.) Yes, the doorbusters are good deals. Those deals come at the expense of your comrades in labor. Donāt fall for it.
ITāS THAT TIME OF YEAR AGAIN. Welcome to Christmas 2019!
This was posted one December night at 3 am after I had been badgered for over a month by my family to do a thing I simply could not do. I would like to remind everyone that the complaints in this post are NOT excuses to be assholes to your family members. Let the notes of this post be a place to vent, not the dinner table.
I would also like to remind all the nurses, cops, call centers, and everyone else with a āmy job is so much harder than yours!ā comment that yeah, probably, and you should demand better pay, conditions, and understanding, too. This is not zero sum. We ALL can and should expect better from our employers, customers, government, and families.
Give yourself a holiday present this year and unionize.
During the most poor and homeless period of my life, I had a lot of people get angry with me because I spent $25 on Bath and Body Works candles during a sale. They couldnāt comprehend why the hell I would do that when I had been fighting for months to try and get us on our feet, afford food, and have an apartment to live in.
Those candles were placed beside wherever I slept that night. In the morning, I would move them and set them wherever Iād have to hang out. At one point I carried one around in my purse - one of those big honking 3-wick candles. I never lit them, but Iād open them and smell them a lot.
I credit that purchase with a lot of my drive that got me to where I am today. I had been working tirelessly, 15+ hour days with barely any reward, constantly on the phone or trying to deal with organizations and associations toĀ āget help atā. Itād gone on for almost a year by the end of it, and I was so burnt out, to the point that I would shake 24/7. But I could get a bit of relief from my 3-wickĀ āupper middle class lifestyleā candles. They represented my future goals, my home I wanted to decorate, and how I would one day not be in this mess anymore.
When we moved into the apartment, and our financial status improved, I burned those candles every single day. When they were empty, I cleaned them out, stuck labels on them, and they became the starting point of my really cute organization system I had ALWAYS planned to have.
So whenever I hear about someone very poor getting themselves a treat - maybe itās Starbucks, maybe itās a home deco item, maybe itās a video gameā¦ I donāt judge them. I get it. I get that you canāt go without anything for that long without it making you go crazy. You need to pull some joy, inspiration, and motivation from somewhere.
poor people deserve things they want, too. it is unfair to expect poor people to only buy things they āneedā.
My grandfather used to tell me: if you only have 20 kr left, you buy grocery for 10 kr and flowers for the other 10 kr because you need a reason to live as well.
We are not machines and an unmet need is an unmet need.
Artwork by Boris Vallejo