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“I am trying,” she offered him a grin, “oh, absolutely, I mean,” she gestured towards the rest of the room, “I do not think we fit in so well with all these people who have suits that likely cost more than two months’ worth of my rent.” Another grin, “but you are right, that is absolutely part of why being here is so satisfying. I was talking with another friend - and we were saying how back in high school, even the thought of being someplace like this was just nearly impossible to imagine, and yet here we are.” She spotted the waiter at nearly the same time as Ziggy did, pleased that he had the same idea she’d had, and that soon enough there was a bottle of tequila in front of them and at least a half-dozen shot glasses. A certain part of her paused, wondering if Sebastían’s girlfriend, should be seen taking shots, but in another moment the thought has passed, because enough people here are too self-absorbed or drunk themselves to care.
“I think the dishes are not so certain if this grey stuff is delicious,” she raised an eyebrow at his remark. He was so easy to talk to - no matter what the occasion, he was someone she felt safe around, someone she knew had the same way of seeing the world as she did. Or even if not the exact same, a way similar enough that any differences were essentially negligible. He was both a friend and a home of sorts, if she permitted herself to think that way. Someone who she knew that she could be herself around - any of her selves, from the more professional to the activist to just Celeste, and he accepted each in turn. She also knew that his acceptance was all and entirely genuine, given without desire for anything in return. She liked to hope she could - did - offer the same for him. “I think I might dare to be offended that you would think I would make them anything other than extra spicy. Consider it done, soon as you wish. Just say the word.”
His next words startled her out of her own thoughts (some of which included leaving the party and just cooking, more - though she wouldn’t leave the premises until it was time to do so, until she was sure nobody would bother Sebastían). “I understand - yes, nobody should have anyone, per say, but I am his girlfriend, so I suppose that entitles me to something, maybe?” Her eyes widened at his next remark - not because she didn’t entirely expect it, but because after finding out more about his London trip earlier, she found it harder to wave off the comment. Even if he was more than welcome to do anything with anyone else, nobody but the two of them really knew that. “I -” she bit her lip, “well, maybe - he did go to London with another woman for about a week hardly even a month after we started dating, and I am sure it was all business, that is what they both say, but…” she trailed off, “I mean, she is far more well-off and better suited to this sort of life than I am - I mean she seems to be here because she belongs, not because she is working for charities or is the girlfriend of a very rich and well-regarded news anchor.” She paused, “I mean, you gave a brilliant speech, you also belong here more than I do, right now, even if I have committed over half my life to working with kids.” Ever since she was a teenager. She looked over to her friend, “but I - well, he has said he is loyal and I am inclined to believe him. I should, as his girlfriend. Right?” It was too easy to be vulnerable with Ziggy, even if a part of her did feel incredible guilt at lying to him. He, more than most, deserved the truth. She took another shot glass and poured tequila into it, before taking it down and resting her head against her friend’s shoulder. “Thank you for being here.” She sighed into his shirt. “It means a lot.”
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It wasn’t exactly rare for Ziggy to find himself in the company of those who saw the world through a similar lens as him — like tended towards like, after all. But in this moment, surrounded by so many whose beliefs only extended as far as a corporation’s checkbook would allow, Celeste is more than just a breath of fresh air. she’s the adrenaline rush that accompanies validation, the thrill of being seen and heard without the prerequisite of a spotlight or a speech.
He settles even further into the comfort of the moment as he confesses, “When I get nervous, I just lose my appetite completely. It fixes itself after a few hours or so, once the nerve-wracking thing is done and over with, but... I mean, tonight — it wasn’t just the speech, but the people, the pressure, the whole...vibe.” His hands gesture vaguely in reference to the space around them before returning to the shot glass, index finger spinning around the rim in an attempt to get a pitch to sound. It’s a placeholder of an action, an absentminded effort to hide the fact that certain other thoughts still plagued his mind instead of the happy all too lovely idea of a home-cooked meal crafted in the kitchen of one of his closest friends.
Thankfully, she offers a distraction of her own in addition to plenty food for thought as her head rests on the broad of his shoulder. “Damn, Cel,” he starts after a moment longer, musing over the lip of his glass. “You really know how to torture a guy, huh?” There’s a soft chuckle, followed by the clarification, “First it’s the promise of some Biang Biang and then you tell me Mr. CNN ain’t even paying attention to you?” Dark eyes fix on the brunette then, as if in search of some point of clarity that everyone else but him found perfectly visible. “I don’t wanna tell you what’s going right or wrong within your relationship...”
The words are delivered with a slight shake of his head, and the betrayal of his physicality in the moment is only a precursor to the subsequent, “but someone who abandons you for half the evening despite knowing how you feel in situations like these? Especially when he’s a veteran at these shindigs and knows exactly how to navigate them?” The questions, mostly rhetorical, devolve into a sigh, and Ziggy throws his hands up in self-acknowledged defeat. “I just think you shouldn’t have to question whether or not you can trust someone you love, or someone who claims to love you.”
Gently, he rests his cheek atop her head, tempted to press a kiss to the crown of it just as he would in any other intimate connection, no matter the context. Despite lingering there, the man holds back for reasons he can’t quite define. Alcohol and adrenaline each brought on their own hasty tendency towards sloppy decision-making, this much he knows — so perhaps it’s only natural that the desire remains contained, and the sweetness of the moment simply perseveres on. “Listen, if you don’t feel like you belong here as an activist, or an artist, or a citizen, or — hell, even a drinking buddy...” He clinks another shot against hers and downs it, before asking, “How about as a chef? Grey stuff and bar peanuts just don’t hold the same appeal after you whet my appetite with the promise of some noods.”