The Push and the Pull (Bucky Barnes x Reader)
Summary: There’s nothing Bucky wants more than to be with you - and for that reason alone, he has to break both your hearts.
Words: 9.8K
Warnings: It’s angsty and smutty (18+ only please) and fluffy. Bucky has a slight anxiety attack and spews all his insecurities. Poor man.
He had been observing you all night.
From his seat at the bar and with a different whiskey in hand every fifteen minutes, Bucky had spent the last couple of hours with squared shoulders and a tightly locked jaw following your gradually more and more clumsy footsteps with Steve on the dance floor. He had been in a foul mood all day, irritated and bitter, and with an urge to punch anything within a ten-foot radius, but like all his recent nights, you were still able to light up the entire room and make everything a little brighter simply just by being there.
You were twirling in Steve's arms, your eyes lighting up each time he spun you around, and Bucky was made painfully aware that if you had spent your night like this with any other man apart from his best friend, his chest would've burst open with jealousy the minute he had laid his eyes on you. But simply because it was Steve and not somebody else, the jealousy had so far only manifested itself as small prickles on the back of Bucky's neck even though he wanted nothing more than to go over there and wrestle you out of Steve's grip.
Bucky, however, kept telling himself not to. That what little jealousy Steve sparked was good, that it was a way for him to practise feeling this way, because even though Bucky knew that Steve wasn't really a threat when it came to you, he also knew that he had to get used to seeing you in the arms of other men.
Whether he liked it or not, he was determined to break your heart tonight.
Wowww this actually had me shedding a few tears lol. Bucky needed someone who would accept the new him, trauma and all. He just needed assurance ❤️. The highs and lows I felt while reading this 😭
