Thiam Week Day 7 : Free Day
(Warning: character death! He doesn’t die on screen, but that’s what it’s about, so don’t read if you don’t like!!)
People say that losing the love of your life is one of the most painful things you can experience. Liam thought they were wrong. He didn’t feel anything. Hurt, anger, sorrow, pain… He didn’t feel any of it. He was just… numb. Like there was nothing. He knew it should have scared him, the not feeling, but it was oddly soothing, given the circumstances.
Visitors came and went, bringing casseroles and pies and soup and pasta. Everyone in the neighborhood had gotten to know Theo in the time he stayed with them, so it was definitely a shock for them to find out he was -
That he wasn’t there anymore.
Dr. and Mrs. Geyer would welcome the visitors and accept their words of condolence, but Liam stayed in his room the whole time. No one bothered him, except when Mrs. Geyer would bring him breakfast and dinner. He didn’t eat. He didn’t sleep. He just stayed in the bed and buried his face in Theo’s pillow, breathing in his scent before it disappeared forever.
It wasn’t until two days later that Scott stopped by. He’d left college as soon as he found out what happened, but the trip was long. Liam didn’t mind. He didn’t think he could stand seeing the pity in Scott’s eyes.
When Scott did get there, Liam didn’t tell him to go away. He let Scott come into the room and sit at the foot of the bed. They sat together in silence for a long time before Scott spoke. “I’m sorry.”
Liam nodded, not bothering to sit up. He was wearing one of Theo’s hoodies, basking in the warm scent of his Mate. With it surrounding him, he felt, just for a moment, like Theo was still there, holding him and teasing him for being so clingy. He snapped out of it when Scott spoke again.
“I know you don’t want to hear this, but it’s going to be okay-“
“Shut up.” Liam’s voice was raw from disuse and he sat up, glaring at Scott. “Don’t. You. Dare.”
“No!” Liam shouted. His eyes burned. “No, don’t even say it! You can say whatever the fuck you want to me - tell me the world is going to end, tell me the sun is going to explode, tell me everything’s gone to shit and there’s nothing I can do about it. But I swear to god, if I hear it’s going to be okay one more time I’m going to scream!”
Scott looked at him sadly and Liam turned away, tears streaming down his face. He choked on a sob and curled in on himself, finally allowing himself to feel the emotions he’d been pushing down the last two days. It hurt, it hurt so bad to feel, but once it started Liam couldn’t stop it, no matter how much he wanted to.
Scott moved closer and wrapped his arms around Liam, holding him tightly. “I’m sorry,” he whispered. “I’m so sorry.”
Liam didn’t know how long they stayed like that, but eventually his body grew tired and his tears stopped. “Why does it hurt?” he whispered. “Why do I feel so much pain?”
“Because you loved him,” Scott replied, running his fingers through Liam’s hair. “And that’s okay. It’s okay to be upset. It’s okay to be angry. You can scream, you can cry. You’re allowed to feel, Liam.”
“I don’t want to,” Liam said, pulling away. He looked down at his lap. “I don’t want to feel a damn thing.”
Scott didn’t know how to reply to that. So he didn’t. He knew Liam wasn’t going to get past this. He wasn’t going to move on. He would always be mourning Theo, for the rest of his life. The only thing Scott could do was try his best to support his beta.
A/N: I hate myself for writing this. I’ve never written character death stuff before, so I hope I did okay. I don’t know how to end stuff like this, so it’s kinda crappy, and I’m sorry for that. Starting tomorrow I’ll be answering requests again so be on the lookout for those! I hope you enjoyed! Thanks so much for reading and as always, feel free to let me know what you think!