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Me Just Trying to be Me

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This blog is for things that I enjoy such as stories, art, etc and personal things that I want to share with you. 40 years young (She/her)
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It's Only Logical - Chapter 23

Chapter 23: Confrontations and Justice

Pairings: Logicality/Prinxiety

Warnings: TW for Jason Bryce, Violence, and swearing!

His flowers, he thought. Plants that he’d raised from seeds, bulbs, babied along their whole lives, now lying ruined on the ground. Twisted, trampled and ripped. Innocent, and he took a silent moment to grieve before racing around the corner of the building.

What an amazing story. What an amazing ending. @tinysidestrashcaptain thank you for your hard work and dedication to this story and thank you for sharing it with us. This story is one of my comfort stories and I read it when my heart needs to smile. So I thank you. What an amazing story!

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It's Only Logical - Chapter 22

Chapter 22: The Big Day

Pairings: Logicality/Prinxiety

Warnings: None, this is all fluff!

Virgil’s eyes scanned the jeweler's case with an increasing sense of frantic paranoia. The wedding was literally two days away, and Logan had physically dragged him from his house to finally find Roman’s wedding ring. Perhaps the notion that he could find the perfect ring was one he should have deleted from his brain around jewelry store number three, but he really hadn’t expected it to be this difficult to find a damn ring! And he hadn’t MEANT to put it off this long, LOGAN, but nothing that he saw was really right.

Well my heart was so happy ❤️💜 and I cried from joy 😭and now I am terrified 😮 at what comes next! Great stories 📕are always worth the wait ⏰ for the next part and this is a better than great story. I am anxious for the next part. 😬

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My back pain has been bad lately. Not the “can’t walk” kind of bad but just really pervasive and always THERE, reminding me it exists. 

I’ve been struggling to get my walks in, but I’ve adopted a “shorter walks but more of them” strategy. So instead of taking 3 or 4 walks a week where I’m hitting 2-5 miles per walk, I’m doing six walks a week, just 2 miles at a time. This past week I still hit my personal goal of 12 miles in the week, and today I did 2 shorter walks (the first was 2.5 miles and the second was 1.69 miles) so that at least puts me at 4.2 ish for the day even if there was a literal nap between the two. 

I dunno. I’m trying not to feel too mega bummed that my back is being so nasty. Shorter walks are still beneficial, right? :( 

Bleh

Yes short walks are still beneficial. ALL walks are beneficial! You are just adjusting to what your ability is for this moment in time. You are doing great and I am proud of you friend!

Thank you!! This is comforting to hear. I figured logically they still had to be useful, but sometimes I worry about seemingly losing ground (a few weeks ago I was walking 5-6 miles, and now 2 is pushing it…it’s a bummer to feel like I’m moving backward). Thanks for the reassurance! <3 

Sometimes recovery or rehab or any progress is one step forward and then two steps back. It can be discouraging. But even if you have taken a few steps back, take a moment on how far you have come and where you started. Could you imagine the thought at one time of thinking that you could walk 5/6 miles? And look at you now? This moment is just a time your body needs you to slow down a little, self care a little and then soon you will be moving forward to even more miles (if that is your goal).

I mean honestly this time last year I’d’ve been impressed with the thought of 2 miles, and now I consider that a ‘short maintenance walk’ so I guess that is definitely progress! I’m just annoyed that my back is deciding to be rude. Oh well. I’ve worked through it before, I’ll do it again. 

Your frustration/annoyance is very valid! You will 100% do it again!! Take care of yourself in this “down” time and allow yourself rest and recovery.

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My back pain has been bad lately. Not the “can’t walk” kind of bad but just really pervasive and always THERE, reminding me it exists. 

I’ve been struggling to get my walks in, but I’ve adopted a “shorter walks but more of them” strategy. So instead of taking 3 or 4 walks a week where I’m hitting 2-5 miles per walk, I’m doing six walks a week, just 2 miles at a time. This past week I still hit my personal goal of 12 miles in the week, and today I did 2 shorter walks (the first was 2.5 miles and the second was 1.69 miles) so that at least puts me at 4.2 ish for the day even if there was a literal nap between the two. 

I dunno. I’m trying not to feel too mega bummed that my back is being so nasty. Shorter walks are still beneficial, right? :( 

Bleh

Yes short walks are still beneficial. ALL walks are beneficial! You are just adjusting to what your ability is for this moment in time. You are doing great and I am proud of you friend!

Thank you!! This is comforting to hear. I figured logically they still had to be useful, but sometimes I worry about seemingly losing ground (a few weeks ago I was walking 5-6 miles, and now 2 is pushing it…it’s a bummer to feel like I’m moving backward). Thanks for the reassurance! <3 

Sometimes recovery or rehab or any progress is one step forward and then two steps back. It can be discouraging. But even if you have taken a few steps back, take a moment on how far you have come and where you started. Could you imagine the thought at one time of thinking that you could walk 5/6 miles? And look at you now? This moment is just a time your body needs you to slow down a little, self care a little and then soon you will be moving forward to even more miles (if that is your goal).

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My back pain has been bad lately. Not the “can’t walk” kind of bad but just really pervasive and always THERE, reminding me it exists. 

I’ve been struggling to get my walks in, but I’ve adopted a “shorter walks but more of them” strategy. So instead of taking 3 or 4 walks a week where I’m hitting 2-5 miles per walk, I’m doing six walks a week, just 2 miles at a time. This past week I still hit my personal goal of 12 miles in the week, and today I did 2 shorter walks (the first was 2.5 miles and the second was 1.69 miles) so that at least puts me at 4.2 ish for the day even if there was a literal nap between the two. 

I dunno. I’m trying not to feel too mega bummed that my back is being so nasty. Shorter walks are still beneficial, right? :( 

Bleh

Yes short walks are still beneficial. ALL walks are beneficial! You are just adjusting to what your ability is for this moment in time. You are doing great and I am proud of you friend!

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To Build A Home - Chapter Two

Editor: @ao-koshka

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Warnings: Child abuse, negative thoughts. 

Also available on Ao3 here.

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“Virgil? Kiddo? Hey, come on, wake up.”

A soft voice brought Virgil out of his light doze. He lifted his head from where it had fallen against the car window, and blinked repeatedly. They had been driving for roughly two hours and Virgil had drifted off soon after they left the orphanage, he saw the moon was high in the night sky and Patton was smiling at him from the front seat. “There you are,” Patton said. “We’re almost home, bud.”

Amazing!!! What a great way to start my day - reading this amazing story!! 💜💜💜💜💜💜

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To Build A Home - Chapter One

Editor: @ao-koshka

Warnings: Mentioned homophobia and past child abuse.  Authors Note: Hello! If you’ve read this story before and you’re wondering what on earth is going on, don’t panic, I’m going to explain. If this is your first time reading though then feel free to skip ahead because you won’t know what the old story was. Basically, I took the old one down because I wanted to turn it into an original book, but I didn’t consider how hard it would be to turn a story I’ve already written into a new creation. So I’ve decided to give you guys this series back while I try writing my own seperate book. However, I am editing this version and things will be different this time around, so it won’t be the same story it used to be. Characters may be missing, storylines may be changed a bit (including what happened “that night”)…but at the heart of it, it’ll still be a loving found family story, and I hope you still enjoy it. Thanks for supporting me (as always.) 

Summary: A man who likes cookies and cuddles, and his husband who is fond of stories and stargazing, adopt a young boy with a tragic history. It’ll take a lot of trial and error but the new dads are determined to create a loving home for their son, and show him that sometimes the family you don’t think you need is exactly the one that you do. 

Also available on Ao3 here. 

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The hallway seemed to stretch on for miles as Virgil walked towards the interview room. The matron Diane was waiting for him by the door, she was smiling but the wringing of her hands was a telltale sign she was nervous.

Virgil didn’t blame her.

I can’t wait to read more! I love the original but I know whatever changes will be in this story, this story will be amazing too! Excited!!

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Much love and many good vibes headed your way.

Thank you. Very much appreciated. More than you know.

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People who have majority rational thoughts have no idea what it is like to live in the irrational. I have been having panic attacks all day about what to do due to the weather. I have no water pressure (can’t shower), my washer is frozen, and roads are bad. I don’t want to go stay with my family cause Covid is still a thing and my stepdad is higher risk. I had a massive panic attack because of all the “what if’s” and “what will they think” and “ so and so would never do this” and on and on. I finally made the decision to call out for the week because weather will get worse again and water most likely will not be up and going (I have water to drink I just can’t shower or wash clothes cause washer is frozen) till weekend. My boss thankfully even though frustrated understands. I hope my coworkers will understand. My company does not allow work from home (which is stupid cause it can be done) but I may see if there are things that I can do to help from home anyway. Anyway..I hate my irrational runaway panic paranoid brain. Stay safe if you are caught in this please.

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Someone please be proud of me for this, I've been pushing through a lot of pain trying to get healthier and help my back and I know this is slow hobbling walking but I'm trying so hard please someone validate me 😑

Slow hobble walking is still walking!! You are doing better than all those sitting on the couch doing nothing! I am super proud of you! You are doing great and I am inspired by you to push though my pain and keep moving!!

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To Make A Home - Chapter Thirty - One

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Warnings: Eating disorder, throwing up, swearing, occasional negative thought, food mention.

Editor: @ao-koshka

Also available on Ao3 here.

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When Patton and Logan had asked Virgil to babysit he had been admittedly rather reluctant, but not wanting to let them down, he agreed to do it.

Virgil had felt quite apprehensive about being in charge of another living, breathing human for an entire day but as it turned out, he was actually having a good time.

I LOVE THIS STORY SO MUCH!!!!!

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To Make A Home - Chapter 30

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Editor/Co-writer for this chapter: @ao-koshka

Warnings: Swearing, minor panic attack, eating disorder and food mentions.. but otherwise all fluffy. 

Also available on Ao3 here.

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Talking with Logan about his feelings certainly did calm some of Roman’s nerves, but eventually it started to get so cold outside that Roman could barely control his shivering, and Logan suggested that they stop for the night.

They said their goodnights, then Roman got to his feet and went back inside. He tiptoed around the air mattress where Elliot and Remy lay snoring and headed back to his place on the couch.

Roman laid down, gingerly at first so he wouldn’t jostle Virgil, but Virgil shifted and more or less pulled Roman down on top of his chest.

❤️❤️

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HC (in the “the sides are filming the series and playing parts for dramatic effect but are actually all friends” verse): 

Patton gets giggle fits during filming more than any other side, and the others make a game out of getting him started. 

Logan is the best at it, with his absolute dry sense of humor and wit: 

Deceit is probably the second best at getting Patton into a giggle fit. Apparently Patton finds dry/sassy humor to be very amusing (probably because it’s different than his own bubblier brand of humor). All Deceit has to do is pop up and make some snarky comment and he can get Patton going. They’ve had to ban him from shoots before because he won’t stop getting Patton to laugh. 

Roman and Remus (the goofball twins) just make him laugh with physical humor. With Roman it’s usually dramatic but silly stuff: 

but with Remus it’s usually just absurd slapstick style humor (popping up with a chicken on his head and pretending it’s not there, doing a nonsense dance for no reason, taking prat falls, just utter 3 stooges style nonsense)

Virgil is a little different. He may not have the dry sense of humor of Logan and Deceit, or the goofy physical humor of the twins, but all Virgil has to do is make one simple pun, and Patton is pretty much on cloud 9. It can be the most deadpan thing ever, but it makes Patton’s day. 

So yeah anyway the “Sides as actors filming the series they helped write” is my favorite HC and I will die on that hill, and this is one of my favorite HCs within that HC. Patton is a giggle monster and when he’s gone he’s gone. 

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It Just Dad to be You

Parental Royality, Prinxiety Tw: food/eating, like 2 seconds of tickling, alcohol/drinking Sometimes I just sit down and say to myself.. Can I top my usual softness? Can I make things even softer? Let’s see.

Virgil needs a project partner.. And maybe just a bit more than that. Virgil made his way into class, just like any other day. He settled into his usual seat near the back of the large classroom as he waited for the professor to arrive. He was about halfway into his time in university and this was a pretty general class that pretty much everyone in his major had to take, so it was easy enough for him to stay near the back and not really have to talk to anyone.

Oh my gosh this may be one of my most favorite stories!! I love it so so so so so much!!!! 💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️💜❤️

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