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You are the stars and more.

@almostdarling

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liking someone you simply can’t have:
the sickly taste of euphoria,
butterflies gnawing
heart thumping, and
thumping and
thumping
perceiving a glimpse of heaven
feet dancing
gold lemonade
red lipstick
him
infatuation
desire
tenderness
the tug of war between me and her
me when he’s lonely
her when he’s naive
naive is in his bones,
for the cluelessness of a child
is surpassed by the wisdom of an
owl

-but i still love you

j.n.g

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“Eventually you’ll miss me, even the bad parts you constantly pointed out. You’ll say that you miss my smile, the smile you rarely got to see. You’ll say that you miss my body, the body you saw as a piece of meat. And you’ll say that you miss me, but this time, I won’t reply to your calls or messages. I’ll be gone, and you’ll get a taste of what I’ve been feeling over the past few months. The roles have switched, and darling, I won’t miss you anymore.”

-don’t come back, please

j.n.g

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10 things I learned in 2017 that I will keep with me in 2018:

1. You do not need to compare yourself to others. You are yourself for a reason and do not let another persons things, achievements, lifestyle, etc. keep you from growing into a better you.

2. Being liked by many is a good thing, but do not lose yourself trying to please every single being. Whether you like it or not, there will always be someone negative,but it’s up to you to overcome that.

3. You are beautiful. Stop letting people think you are anything but that because you are here for a reason and more people need to realize this.

4. Please darling leave that toxic relationship in 2017. You are far too precious to sink into a black pit in hopes of that person changing. They are not going to change and you need to save yourself before it’s too late. I promise there will be someone far better out there waiting for you.

5. When you’re up at 2am doing homework, writing an essay, or studying frantically for school, please go to sleep. I know that getting a good grade is important, but is an A in a class better than your mental health? Take a nice warm bath, listen to music, wash your face, and rest your mind.

6. Learn more about the world. Go to the library and read a book about why the earth spins. Try new foods, kiss new people, makeover your room, change up your style. Change is good sometimes and try not to get comfortable with the usual. Your life should not be a routine.

7. Talk about your problems. It could be your mom, bestfriend. Hell, even your cat. Trust me, keeping everything inside will only make the hurt last longer. It may seem scary to open up, but in the end, you will feel better, if not now, but later. You can’t fix everything by yourself.

8. Take care of your body more. Your body is a precious thing that fights everyday to keep you alive. Do not take that for granted. Eat salads, exfoliate, drink more water, exercise. It’ll be worth it in the long run.

9. Good music changes you. Discover new music and artists around you. There’s so much creativity and uniqueness in artists, and it doesn’t take a while to find someone new to listen to. Listen to different. genres of music. You may be left surprised.

10. As this year comes to an end, remember that you are here and you have made it. Look back on all of the endless nights you’ve spent crying, wondering if you’ll make it out alive, and say that you did it, because darling you did. I hope 2018 brings a new light to the world around us. I wish nothing but greatness and love to everyone, and I hope you become what you wish to become.

-2017

j.n.g

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Don’t you know that you were the soul to fill my void? You kissed my scars and aches like it was the works of Picasso or Beethoven, and our love was mounted on the walls of those pretty art museums you like. You still like them right? They say you can never forget a love like that. And no amount of eyelashes or dandelion seeds I wish on will grant my wish of you coming back.

The end.

j.n.g

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“And when I saw you and her walking hand in hand down the hall, my heart broke just a little. Just knowing that you’ll never tell me you love me again made me want to scream on the spot. But instead, I walked past you as if I hadn’t known you, or the way your cold, cold hand ever felt in mine.”

I hope you’re happy.

j.n.g

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"Life is short man. You need to say what you feel and do what you want because this could be your last day. Don't wait until you're 23 in your beat-up apartment, drunk from seeing that curly-haired boy kissing that blonde girl with the blue eyes. This is your life and you need to start acting like it. If you're looking for a sign, I promise, this is it, and it's time for a detox. So yes, kiss that boy, kiss that girl, stand up to your parents. Get up. You do not wait on life, life waits on you. Stop trying to wait for the perfect time, this is your time. "

-- A sign

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For I want to lie still near you. Our desperate hearts beating in sync with each others, waiting for what comes next. I just want to be with you. I want to be reckless and messy with you. I want the wind to shake the hurt from your body. I want to touch your skin. And darling, more than anything, I want to kiss you like the air I’m breathing has been lifted, and the only oxygen I have is from your lips. I want to be the air you breath. I just want be with you. Let me be with you.

contact. j.n.g

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She's turbulence, she's a soft landing, she's a window seat on the last plane home. She's the tight hug you receive from your lover after a long trip, she's the comfortable smell of your beat up apartment. It's the little things that make up a beautiful masterpiece. She's the sunrise on a Saturday morning and a sunset on a Sunday night. She's the rain on a peaceful day. She's the kiss hello and the kiss goodbye. She was put together in a way that fit perfect with him, and although she was the sun, she was also the moon on a dark night. She was messy hair and shy smiles. She was the drunk night. She was the deep voice and shaky words. She was his favorite song. The butterflies in his stomach she was. She was yellow paint, his yellow paint. She was Starry Night by Vincent Van Gogh. She was Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare. Tragic, but oh so beautiful.

Collateral Beauty j.n.g

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She was as delicate as a flower, like the kinds in those pretty paintings. She grew wild, wild but innocent. She was the lightning in the dark, cloudy skies. She flashed her light for a few moments, but it was enough to make me want more, even if I was going to get burned in the process. And although we created storms, she was mine, and I was hers. But what's true love without brokenness?

Lets create a hurricane again j.n.g

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I remember my first love. Oh how I remember the innocent, honest type of love that we shared. The kind people write love songs about, but also the kind that drives people crazy as they're lying empty on their now cold bed, reminiscing about the little freckles on their face. Oh how I miss those freckles. I remember the nights we would sneak out, feeling the thrill each minute as we anticipated what happened next. The passion, the memories, the pain, the hurt, the heartbreak --it's all worth it. It's worth every single stardust in your body to feel this way about a single being. But in the end, heartbreak and regret appeared at our doorstep, and we finally opened the door to let it in. And I now know why they make love songs so sad.

-Firsts j.n.g

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10 things I learned 2016 and will keep with me in 2017: 1. It’s okay to be vulnerable. Please don’t overthrow your happiness just because you’re too scared to love, to give yourself to someone. 2. That “popular” girl you admire and want to be has the same problems as you and as soon as you realize that, you will see highschool completely different. 3. I know this sounds cliché, but be kind. You never know what words can set a person off, and god forbid, end their life. Please, please take a little time to think about what you are about to say because believe it or not that “joke” actually hurt. 4. Don’t stay friends with someone out of pity. You need to think of your well-being first, and if that person lowers your chances of being positive or having inner peace, end the relationship. 5. Kiss him. Kiss her. I see way too many people who are madly in love, yet they are not together. 6. Call your parents. Tell them how much you love them before it’s too late. Tell them how much they mean to you and they will remember what you said for a long, long time. Just remember they are looking out for you and don’t push them away just because you don’t agree at one point. 7. Go to that party with your friends. I know that staying home and binge watching your favorite show may seem like a good idea at the moment but don’t be that person on the last day of senior year looking back and regretting not going out, or not having the chance to have friends for a lifetime. 8. It’s not cute to act like you have anxiety or depression. It’s something that people actually suffer with and in this world now, it’s promoted in a bad way, and considered a way of finding love. 9. Go outside of your comfort zone. Listen to music you’ve never listened to before, eat exotic foods, talk and grow relationships with people you would’ve never thought you would talk to in your freshman year. 10. And lastly, you’ve gotta live your life. Stop going off of other people’s opinion and make your own. Make mistakes that you’ll laugh about when you’re 23. Find something that you love, and I mean truly love and keep it. Keep it your whole life because too many people are too late in their life with regrets, wishing for something more. I hope in 2017 we will have an abundance of new life, opportunities, laughs, mistakes, cries, memories, and love. By all means, love.

2016 j.n.g

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Maybe there's a chance we'll meet up again. If not in this life, then in another when the stars align for us. I really miss us. At least the happy us. As a matter of fact, I would even settle for the unhappy us, just as long as you're with me. It hurt when you left you know? As if I was an anchor pulling you deeper and deeper into the ocean, only to see you come up for air with her kisses. Maybe we weren't good for eachother, but hell, it was good while it lasted. Just, just call me back, okay?

-Unopened voicemail j.n.g

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I like it when you sleep, for you are the most beautiful creature I have laid my eyes on, yet you are utterly so unaware of it. Your quiet little snores get me ecstatic, for that is one step closer to seeing your face in the morning. Oh how I love seeing your face in the morning. The soundless morning awoken by our vibrant love as if the world was waiting on us. Waking up next to you is like having your first kiss, exciting yet completely terrifying, but darling that moment is what I live for.

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