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wonder leaks out of me

@ex-spatio / ex-spatio.tumblr.com

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years have passed, it's quiet now. the halls no longer hear happy child laughter. the kitchen no longer smells of happiness and cookies. there's a weird scent in the air. one of resentment and abandonment; it sticks to the walls like claws, scratching on the tapestry. the flower petals have holes in them. grandma's old vase broke two nights ago. the cat tore it down. no one has bothered to pick up the pieces. they lay like knives on the floor; sharp, a danger to everybody near. i am a house. with a kitchen and a toilet and a livingroom and a broken vase and halls that don't sing and cookies that don't bake and flower petals that have holes in them and smiles that don't shine.

it’s been years since i was a home / e.r

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November always gives back my mind all the things I have done within a year. A month that makes me feel old and young at the same moment. November makes me remember the time when my heart started beating.

ma.c.a // Eleventh (via vomitingwords)

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her colors are muted and she looks tired. ‘holding up,’ she says, and i’m just holding up too but god, this contrast; light and dark, soft and bold, melancholy and anger, beauty and the furthest thing from it. she is unsettling, yet… not in a bad way. not at all. and she is lovely. her eyes are gentle, blue like twilight (and i understand for the first time why they’re supposed to be the windows to the soul). her hair is not spun gold and she doesn’t shine like the sun; she is the moon in all its glory. the kind of light she carries cannot be explained– it’s in her bones and the way she walks, and the way she speaks. soft, like she doesn’t want to be seen or heard. but she is beautiful. god built the universe with a voice like that.

when a girl loves a girl the stars fall to the earth. (via fragileabsolution)

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ex-spatio
she is a dark night, music playing at midnight while the stars compete to outshine the moon you are a pink flower, delicate and warm blossoming only in bright, summer sunlight she is an evening primrose, at night she comes alive and while she blooms, you wait for her.

even as your own petals fall to the ground / e.r (via ex-spatio)

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juansendizon
i am a wallflower and i belong to the sea. the sun— warm and giggling at me. trees everywhere— surrounding me and i’m healed. i am not moving. just letting the sea take me. i feel free. i feel like i belong in this world. i am not a stranger here. this is my home. i breathe. i breathe. and i dive to see a thousand corals. they are smiling at me. they tell me that i am recovering. they tell me that i belong. there is no need to be afraid of my monster. there are plenty of fishes here to protect me— to guide me home. i love myself so much. i am still fucking alive. i am glowing and flowing. the song of my suffering is ending.

juansen dizon, batangas (via juansendizon)

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deadwatered
what about those who don’t want to live past the age of 25? what about those who can’t see a future, what about those who live in the now because it’s all that they’ve ever known? what about those who drink too much? what about those who are obsessed with control a little too much and it turned into something ugly? what about those with addictions that don’t make them pretty? what about us?
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She’s a girl,
And I love her.
I cannot marry her,
But I love her.
She loves me,
And she shouldn’t.
I love her,
But I shouldn’t.
She’s not right for me, you say.
Could never protect me, you say.
Her voice is too gentle,
Her skin too smooth,
And her heart too tender.
Her breasts,
Her hair,
Her eyes,
Undeniable beauty,
But not for me.
Meant for a man.
She’d wither against the malice of this world.
We’d be judged,
Denied peace,
Never ascend to heaven.
But behind those breasts lives a heart
That beats in time with mine.
Behind those eyes
Lies understanding,
Kindness,
Intelligence.
A ‘her’ that exists to me alone.
And though her voice is soft,
Her words could slice steel,
Render giants helpless,
Could wage wars and rattle the dead,
Would defend me far better than a pair of broad shoulders,
Or a deep voice.
She’s my shield,
My sword,
My guardian,
My lover,
My angel,
My demon.
Your judgement,
Your words,
Are not the foundation for our peace.
And in a single breath,
I would trade the heaven in the clouds
For the heaven between her arms.
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rncpoems
Time doesn’t fly It flows like a river Sometimes pleasantly Between green lush valleys And sometimes drowning you with waves crashing wildly You can either sit and let the time flow Or flow with it wherever it goes So hold my hand, let’s swim together I don’t know where time leads But if we’re together, it’ll be beautiful I know

(via rncpoems)

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