So who is still alive here? Is it time for a big tumblr return?

Hey tumblr, can we talk about this shit yet? I was effected so deeply by this and I just want to finally talk about it. I know I’ve disappeared but I think I’ll rest a little easier knowing this is out there.

6 years ago I mentioned that I was biracial, I mentioned it ONCE during my whole time on this entire hellsite. My father is black, my grandma moved to England from South Africa with him and his sister when he was young, because she didn’t want them growing up in a place with segregation  (the apartheid in S. Africa lasted until the 90s!)

I mentioned that I had a dad from south Africa, and a mother from England. That’s all I mentioned, and I was BOMBARDED with these messaged. This is the only one I answered, so I have no screenshots of the others. But there were so many. 

In all that time I NEVER mentioned my own skin colour or ethnicity.

wtf was that about, tumblr? It absolutely RUINED my perception of myself. Every time somebody asks about my racial background, I STILL get nervous about saying the wrong thing. When it comes up on forms, I always hesitate and hover over ‘white’ or ‘biracial’ because messages like the one above always bubble to the surface again and I think ‘damn am I stepping where I don’t belong?’ I’ve had POC tell others that I’m ‘ashamed’ to ‘admit I’m not white’ which is just as upsetting as the messages like the above.

To this day I don’t know what to say if people ask what my skin colour is or what my racial background is and it’s all because of when this happened. 

I doubt the people who wrote these messages will ever see this but I don’t really care tbh. I just wanted to vent and try and move past this.

(I do admit however, my thumb and fingertips refuse to be anything other than white ;)

HELLO TUMBLR

for those of you too STUBBORN to watch me elsewhere 

here’s a review of my best art of 2020! 

This tweet is making numbers so,

you guys can have it too. Have my struggles. 

Tracer and Emily in one of the comics again makes me SO HAPPY

This was an icon commission for Arito! I love doing animation commissions!!

We connected!

I’m trying to think of things that have happened while I’ve been off tumblr that I should update people on!

Unfortunately my nightmare dear cat ChocoPuff passed away early this year after a long struggle with cancer. I’m not sure who will remember her here but she was an absolute chaotic nightmare feral cat we found living in our shed about 10-11 years ago and she forced her way into our home to cause havoc and hiss and bite and just be a big meanie right to the end, but I wouldn’t have had her any other way! 

Some of my background art done during my tumblr absence

My dream to master background art is still very much active!

Yo so uh...who’s still here?

I loved tumblr and I had so many mutuals on here but I always get the impression y’all don’t really want to see my furry art PFFF :’D I think most of my followers here followed me because of Moon Moon,

I do miss the banter though! How are people? Who remains? 

Maybe I should return and post personal stuff, I know you guys liked my nature stuff! 

I am very active on Twitter but it’s furry twitter so, yeah :’D 

just popping in here to say

YO, AINT PCOS A BITCH?

bye! 

I’m still here but also not c: 

Hope you’re all doing good! 

Haha, Kitchiki is more a mascot, the FACE O’ THE ART

and Febzhyena is who I use as me! C: I’ve always had em both but Kitchiki is the main gal!  

Yo whats up guys! Just popping in to say Happy Pride Month! And remember, debate is important-as is pushing for change and improving the community, but don’t forget to focus also on the positives, celebration and the fact that every single member of the LGBTQ+ community are one big family that needs to stick together and work together! Being one big force is the most important thing! 

Hope you’re all doing awesome!