life notes
Am now 18 weeks pregnant...that was fast!
Got diagnosed w blighted ovum (nonviable pregnancy, impending miscarriage) at 8 weeks due to a large, empty gestational sac
But the following week the OB was like, wait nm, every is all good! So that was a mindfuck.
And everything is pretty swell other than wicked horrible heartburn. I can now feel fetal movement on a frequent basis which has cut way down on the "omg is fetus OK" anxiety. We are preparing for our homebirth with hypnosis. Yep. I realize that makes me sound like a total cliché but fuck it.
Am 6 weeks into being a wizened second year teacher of the children which is a thooousand times easier than being a first year teacher of the children. I also no longer have a particular student with oppositional defiant disorder, adhd, and dysgraphia in my class, so my work days are just way less dramatic. I honestly do miss him though and am considering hiring him as a babysitter 😁 he's amazing with little kids (D worships him) and way more competent in real life stuff than most 13yo's.
Lil D is 3 years old! He's a hoot. So outgoing. School was closed today so we took the 8am commuter ferry for a day of fun and he talked to EVERYONE on the boat: "Hi, what's your name? I'm D. I'm three. I used to be two and a half. I'm going to San Francisco. Are you going to San Francisco? Everyone on this boat is going to San Francisco. I have a baby, too, you know. My mama is growing it right now. You can't make a baby out of nothing, you need an egg and a sperm and a uterus. When the baby is two and a half I'm going to swing them by the feet. Look at those waves, the boat is making them. OH! LOOK! I CAN SEE SAN FRANCISCO WE'RE ALMOST THERE!"
Meanwhile I was wishing I could disappear into my hoodie.