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do not go far from me

@lecworthy / lecworthy.tumblr.com

aleta, 24, they/them. idk i just live here!
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artbychromo
No dogs on the beach!

I started this drawing thinking that no matter what happened this episode, we’d all need a moment to sit back and think. Also, I tried to embed the song in the post, hopefully it’s working!

(That said I also just finished ep. 68 and I’m!!!! screaming)

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it does not matter if you have a genuine desire to do good (kendall) or a deep capacity for love (roman) or have comparatively progressive politics and are a victim of the misogynistic environment your father created (shiv). because if your sense of self is so intrinsically tied to oppressive capitalist structures, what good are your best impulses, your love, your decency? waystar is them and they are waystar what does any kindness they possess actually matter if they are only capable of acting upon it within the framework of the fascistic, patriarchal corporation that they have no desire to escape?

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fuck. i knew two people who died in the shooting today. not super well but one worked at my high school and another was an old friend's mom. my mom is with her family right now. my mom had to go into lockdown at her school today. and apparently the shooter was trans which of course is going to further violence towards trans people, in a state that is already violent.

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cryptotheism

It's hard for me to find media that discusses transness in a way that resonates with me. I think it's partially due to the fact that my relationship to my own transness is a bit atypical.

Ive never really considered myself to have a gender. Even when I learned about being trans, I knew I "wasn't cis" but I also didn't really find myself connecting to other trans peoples experiences. There was a long while where I didn't really feel comfortable calling myself trans because the term implies a sort of lived experience that I never really had. If anything, I felt like I was looking in on a world that I felt like a passive observer to.

I think it's why I initially connected so much with alchemical literature. There's this idea of a sort of eternal refinement or distillation of the world that really resonated with me.

Transness to me is like grapes fermenting into wine, but without the grapes or the wine. It's pure process, just fermentation, a sort of eternal state of change with no beginning or end. I was never a woman, I'll never be a man, or vice versa. There is nothing here, but the shape of that nothing is shifting.

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artoodeeblue

Sorry I applied a modern lens of analysis to your boyfriend. Yeah I've completely stripped him of historical and semantic context so that I could fit his story and tropes into my own moralistic view of the world. Yeah he's practically flavourless now. In fact this was the original boyfriend and you're a problematic historian for thinking otherwise.

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