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Multi-Chapter Fics

Across the Hallway - Elriel (Finished): Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4**, Epilogue

I Do Bad Things with You - Elriel** (ongoing)

Secret Sessions - Elriel (Finished): Part 1: The Scry, Part 2: The Mission, Part 3: The Choice

Elriel Canon-based Pregnancy Series: A Surprise Bun, A Bun of Truths, Happy Solstice, Twin Tears

Tinder AU - Elriel (ongoing): Part 1**

Accidental Chemistry - Elriel (ongoing)

High Infidelity - Elriel (ongoing): Part 1**

Drabbles/Prompts

Together - Elriel

First Date - Feysand Prompt Request

Meeting on Tumblr - Elriel Prompt Request

Falling - Elriel Prompt Request

What is That? - Elorcan Prompt Request** (slightly NSFW)

Elriel Pregnancy AU (Chronological order of the AU)

  1. The First Time**
  2. That’s New
  3. Baby Kicks

An Unexpected Friend - Elain and Bryaxis friendship

Your Ivy Grows - Elriel Month Prompt 2021

Heartbeat - Elriel

Kingslayer - Elain/Elriel

Kneading Dough - Elriel**

Frenemies - Elriel**

Elriel Month 2022

Oh Baby AU:

  1. Little One
  2. My Son
  3. Like Dad - Azriel Week 2023

Collection of Elriel Month fics and moodboards for 2023. Click here.

Elain and Azriel Weeks 2023

A Hundred Lifetimes, A Hundred Worlds, I’d Choose You - Elriel (ongoing)

  1. Part 1
  2. Part 2
  3. Part 3

Mac and Cheese - Elriel

Words of Wisdom - Azriel feat. his mother

Elriel Holiday Collection

Family’s First Christmas AU

Headcanons

Art

Assriel 🍑**

Little Heir - Azriel Week 2023

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IS THIS ANOTHER HINT FOR ELAIN?!?! ELRIEL? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

[Verse 1]

Drownin' in the Blue Nile

He sent me "Downtown Lights"

I hadn't heard it in a while

My boredom's bone-deep

This cage was once just fine

Am I allowed to cry?

I dream of crackin' locks

Throwin' my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks

Crashin' into him tonight, he's a paradox

I'm seeing visions

Am I bad or mad or wise?

[Chorus]

What if he's written "Mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?

I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze

Oh, what a way to die

I keep recalling things we never did

Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trips

Without ever touchin' his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

[Verse 2]

I keep these longings locked

In lowДrcase inside a vault

SomeonĐ” told me, "There's no such thing as bad thoughts

Only your actions talk"

These fatal fantasies

Giving way to labored breath takin' all of me

We've already done it in my head, if it's make-believe

Why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow?

[Chorus]

What if he's written "Mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?

I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze

Oh, what a way to die

My bed sheets are ablaze

I've screamed his name

Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave

Without ever touchin' his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

[Bridge]

What if I roll the stone away?

They're gonna crucify me anyway

What if the way you hold me is actually what's holy?

If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me

They don't know how you've haunted me so stunningly

I choose you and me religiously

[Chorus]

What if he's written "Mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?

I'm slippin', fallin' back into the hedge maze

Oh, what a way to die

I keep recalling things we never did

Messy top lip kiss, how I long for our trips

Without ever touchin' his skin

How can I be guilty as sin?

[Outro]

He sent me "Downtown Lights"

I hadn't heard it in a while

Am I allowed to cry?

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The Downtown Lights by the Blue Nile

(Azriel vibes! 😍)

Sometimes I walk away

When all I really wanna do

Is love and hold you right

There is just one thing I can say

Nobody loves you this way

It's alright

Can't you see?

The downtown lights

In love we're all the same

We're walking down an empty street

And with nobody, call your name

Empty streets, empty nights

The downtown lights

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know it's true?

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, it's alright

Tonight and every night

Let's go walking down this empty street

Let's walk in the cool evening light

Wrong or right

Be at my side

The downtown lights

It will be alright

It will be alright

The downtown lights

Yeah, yeah

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know it's true?

It's alright

It's alright

The downtown lights

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know you feel it?

How do I know it's true?

Yeah, yeah, the downtown lights

The neon's and the cigarettes

Rented rooms and rented cars

The crowded streets, the empty bars

Chimney tops and trumpets

The golden lights, the loving prayers

The colored shoes, the empty trains

I'm tired of crying on the stairs

The downtown lights

Yeah, yeah

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Elorcan đŸ«¶đŸ»

“I will marry you, Elide Lochan. And proudly call myself Lord Lorcan Lochan, even when the whole kingdom laughs to hear it.” He kissed her, gently and lovingly. “And when we are wed,” he whispered, “I will bind my life to yours. So we will never know a day apart. Never be alone, ever again.”

🎹 Art by @gessueter

✹ Commissioned by me (find it on IG here)

💙 Please do not repost. Reblogs are welcome! 

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And while we're at it, can we talk about people saying "Azriel's darkness" this and "Azriel's healing journey" that đŸ€š

What does that even mean?

Man has emotional and physical scars from his traumatic childhood and that has obviously left him with some self esteem issues and insecurity.

That's just the standard for most characters in SJM's universe. They all have some kind of trauma.

How is he going to "heal" from that? Through... training...? Something he's been doing as a warrior for 500 years now?

Through training someone else....? Something which he has already done in ACOSF with Nesta and the priestesses and look at that, he's still as broody as ever.

The fact is, all the bat boys felt undeserving of their love interests.

Rhys was afraid he would never have a love like Feyre, never have a family that wouldn't constantly be hunted down.

And yet, Rhys healed through Feyre's love for him.

Cassian felt like he was a low born bastard, not deserving of someone who would wed a prince or duke like Nesta.

And yet, Cassian also healed through Nesta's love for him.

Azriel, again, feels so undeserving of love after his past trauma and his unrequited pining for Mor for 500 years. He doesn't even think about having children, or a future with Elain because he feels so insecure about himself.

Wouldn't it also make sense that his doubts, all his insecurities would also be healed through Elain's love for him? A love that she would choose over even a mating bond.

And before anyone says "Oh we're expecting Elain to be used as some pretty thing to heal him"... no? That's not what is being said.

Elain also has a choice here. She has made it very obvious she does not want her cauldron-given mate. She wants Azriel. Nobody is "expecting her to heal him" like it's so simple as waving a magic wand and poof! Healed.

But just as Feyre & Nesta chose their partners and helped them envision a more hopeful future, Elain will have the same effect on Azriel.

She's not here to "fix him". Whatever that means.

It has been foreshadowed countless times how Elain will surprise us when it comes to her true nature and personality.

She was more than capable of understanding Nesta, standing by her regardless of how many times Nesta bit back. She is stronger than she looks. She's not some pretty stupid thing that will see Azriel and run away screaming. She has a different kind of strength and I'm exhausted of trying to defend that ability to see the good in everything even when the world has gone to shit.

Something tells me she will see the blood on Azriel's hands, help lighten the burden on his shoulders, and find him beautiful anyways.

because that's romance PEOPLE đŸ«¶đŸŒ

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All of this focus on Azriel’s horny feelings for Elain, but can we please talk about how Elain completely led her moment with Az in the bonus chapter?

Elain closed the distance, and her breathing quickened as she again paused, now a scant foot away.

Azriel let his shadows whisk away the box as she said softly, "Put it on me?"

His head went quiet. But he took the necklace, opening the clasp as she exposed her back, sweeping her hair up in one hand to bare her long, creamy neck.

Azriel's fingers lingered at her nape, atop the first knob of her spine. Slowly, Elain pivoted into his touch. Until his palm lay flat against her neck.

"I should go," Elain said, but made no move to leave.

Her arousal drifted up to him, and his eyes nearly rolled back in his head at the sweet scent. He'd beg on his knees for a chance to taste it.

Elain shuddered, drifting closer. So close one deep breath would brush her breasts against his chest.

“Yes" Elain breathed, like she read the decision. Just this taste in the dead of the longest night of the year, where only the Mother might witness them.

Elain's mouth parted slightly, her eyes scanning his before fluttering shut.

Offer and permission.

Girlie went for what she wants and Azriel, ever the gentleman, read her cues perfectly and only took what she offered. I love a couple built with respect and mutual attraction, there’s truly nothing hotter.

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Do you think Azriel will be a better partner to Elain than Cassian was to Nesta ? I think he will because unlike Cassian Azriel is very headstrong and did so much more for Elain since ACOMAF than Cassian did for Nesta even after they got together

I think Azriel is incredibly guarded with his feelings. I think he is Hyper Independent, where he hides behind the veneer of extreme solitaire existence and independence, in order not to get his feelings hurt by emotional involvement and rejection.

Therefore, once he accepts the one person who'll satisfy his needs and his psychological disengagement, he will go all in. Even the fact that he keeps touching Elain, shows his innate need for her acceptance and her closeness. So yes, I think that once he is with her and she loves and accepts him, he would make her life incredibly good. I think he craves closeness and wants to care for someone and love somebody, but I think he wants the same in return--he wants to be desired as an individual.

I dont know if SJM thinks that deeply, but that's what I see in his character and what he needs and what he can offer.

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tswaney17

I love the idea of Az just having to pause at random times to remind himself that his life with Elain is real. That she was real and she chose him. I can see him being so overwhelmed by that at times that he just has to take a moment and almost pinch himself.

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Elain and Az have a steamy little getaway


Quick sketch for my dearest friend @tswaney17 💙

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tswaney17

GRACIEEEEEEE!!! You’ve done it again! đŸ„čđŸ„čđŸ„čđŸ„č Look at them! So cute and sweet. I just love this and you so much!! You are such a dear friend!! Thank you so much for this sweet gift!! đŸ©·đŸ’œđŸ’™

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Happy birthday to my bestie, my mate, my Elriel sister @tswaney17

I wouldn't have joined this fandom without her. So if anything, blame her! Jokes aside, I hope you have a marvelous year and meet your own stranger in the night. Please enjoy!

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Summary: Elain Archeron is celebrating her birthday and happens to meet an enigmatic and mysterious stranger who upends her world

She smoothed her black bodysuit over her hips, though it wasn’t wrinkled and then tousled her hair, in what she hoped, was sexy, beachy curls.  

Anyone else would’ve told her that she looked great—well put together, elegant, and not trying too hard. But to her self-critical eye, she saw a slew of imperfections. Hips too wide, breasts too large, stumpy fingers...She could stand here all night and critique herself, but what would be the point? It was what it was, right? Some part of her though, liked what stared back. The black bodysuit hugged her in all the right places, and paired with strappy golden heels and some delicate gold jewelry, she looked...nice. Not quite her 31 years old. Her friends always said that she was a ‘young 30’. She looked about 24. But inside, there were days when she felt 78.  

Oh well. Time to go. That’s not to say that she didn’t want to back out of her solo restaurant trip about 25 times today. Internally, she’s been telling herself that she is too busy, too tired, too poor, and that staying in with a bottle of wine and pizza would be just fine. Another part of her wanted to get out. Even if she looked like a loser, dining alone. At least it was a Wednesday night—not the weekend—so she could theoretically make up a story of being on a business trip. Not that anyone’s going to ask. But she needed that security blanket for herself: “I am eating alone, because I am here on business’. Yeah, that sounded legit. She was a successful, professional woman, determined and confident, and she was on business in Chicago.  

She grabbed her clutch and headed out.  

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tswaney17

I am so excited to read this and also very nervous at the same time. 😂😂

Okay, fuck it. I read this at work and let me tell you, I struggled to contain my laughter.

Also, why you gotta call me out so badly? Like goddamn. Don’t know if I should be flattered or offended you paid so close attention to me. đŸ€Ł

Basically looking at a glimpse into my mind with Elain. It’s self-deprecating and has endless tabs open. 😂 But goddamn. If this actually happened to me, I could tell you I’d react the same as Elain. Just a bumbling mess. đŸ«Ł That’s embarrassing.

I’m also sitting here contemplating if I want it to happen too. And if you’re plotting my murder when I come to visit you later this year
? Should I be worried?

Also, you can’t make this a one-shot! I need more!! Why was he assigned to kill her?! Who wants her dead?! I need answers!!!!!!

Another example of Azriel exposing his BDE. đŸ„”

I love you mate so much!! I’m glad I brought you into this fandom and that you’ve become one of my closest friends. đŸ„č💕

Loved this so much!! đŸ’œđŸ’™đŸ©·

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Azriel (name meaning in Hebrew) : “God is my help.”

Elain (name meaning in Hebrew) : “God has answered me.”

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Azriel in ACOWAR has me in a chokehold: How much power does Azriel actually have?

Azriel, having just rescued Elain, finds himself injured. He is ordered to sit out the physical battle and fight alongside Rhys with his powers on the hilltop.
Before the battle begins he arms Elain with Truth-Teller. Shocked faces and wide eyed glances from the IC tell us this is no small gesture.
While giving Elain TT has been hypothesized into oblivion I think it’s important in the overall context of this post and in Azriel’s roll in helping win this war.
“To my left, Azriel’s Siphons glowed—readying to unleash blasts to echo Rhysand’s. He might not be able to fight, but he would wield his power from here.”
“Echo”-interesting choice of a word SJM! 🧐 if he can echo Rhysands powers without full strength what would his power be like if he was fully healed?
Rhys panted, his eyes a bit wild. The hit had been well placed. Splitting the army in two. Azriel unleashed a second blast—blue light slamming into the now-exposed flank. Driving them farther apart.
Is SJM is setting this scene up so the reader has a side by side comparison of Rhys/Az?
“Rhys’s power flowed and flowed out of him, bracing for impact. Azriel’s Siphons flashed, a sprawling shield of cobalt locking over Rhysand’s, his breathing just as heavy as my mate’s”
Locking a shield over top of Rhysand’s
breathing JUST as heavy..
“It shredded Azriel’s shield. Then Rhysand’s. And then shredded any Siphon-made ones.”
Azriel shield was the first line of defense across the whole field
The blast shredded through the first line of defense (Az), then the second (Rhys) and then the third (siphon made shields)
.WAIT-if Azriel’s shield wasn’t siphon made then what was it?
“Rhys only ordered him, “Get back in line. The soldiers need you there.” Cassian bared his teeth. “What the hell can we do against that?” “I’m going in,” Azriel said.”
Cassian, commander of Rhys armies, is casting doubt on winning this battle. Azriel, injured, and ordered to stay out demands to go in. Multiple times. Famously we get the line about flying with a damn tree on his back (đŸ„”).
“Chain me to a tree, Rhys,” Azriel said softly. “Go ahead.” He began checking the buckles on his weapons. “I’ll rip it out of the ground and fly with it on my damned back.”
~no comment~ BUT this is giving “You can’t order me to do that.” (If he’s your high lord-what so you mean he can’t order you to do something?!)
“Azriel,” Rhys said quietly. Hoarsely. “You lead the remaining Illyrians on the northern flank.” Guilt—guilt and fear rippled in my mate’s eyes at the command. Knowing that Azriel was not fully healed”
He can LEAD an army without complaint -injured.
Cassian surveyed the depleted Illyrian lines, now holding strong as Azriel rallied them. “Az has control of the lines.”
He can single handily rally back control of the lines

“Elain stepped out of a shadow behind him, and rammed Truth-Teller to the hilt through the back of the king’s neck as she snarled in his ear, “Don’t you touch my sister.”
And lastly, his own knife, outfitted on his (theorized) mate, is used to win the war.

This whole sequence has raised so many questions for me. There are other scenes in the series (“you can’t order me to do that”-“he’s always known me best”-even Rhys is scared of Azs icy rage”-Beron unable to stop him in the high lords meeting-etc) that call into question:

  1. Just how powerful is Azriel?
  2. What is his true heritage-related to Rhys? A high lord himself?
  3. Did SJM juxtapose Rhys and Az in these scenes to hint at something?

Oh yeah
.and he’s a spymaster/Shadowsinger



Yes, they are related. It's obvious.

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tswaney17

Aside from the fact that Azriel and Rhys might be related (unbeknownst to them), Azriel in ACOWAR was expelling some BDE during the war and I’m here for it.

Imagine all the attention, that power, that brute strength turned onto the middle Archeron sister. The seer. A powerful being in her own right. Oof. These two just give me the tingles. đŸ„”đŸ„”

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