and then she fell in love with the world again

i jus wanna be genuinely loved

journal entry 07.16.2020

i am honestly jus a piece of shit. i wanna be numb and not exist. why do i keep going back to bad people when i kno they are bad for me? bc im jus a shitty person that doesn’t listen, i put this on myself so now i’m jus left with being a worthless piece of trash with nothing. i am fucking nothing. i should jus not exist anymore

journal entry 04.27.2020

why

do i only

see

the red flags

until after

i am hurt