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I Belong To The Sea

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Chaos, 27, they/them, queer, biracial, and kind of a mess. Welcome to my blog! I'm a Pop Culture Practitioner and Ocean Dweller. I'm not here to be anyone but myself. If you have questions feel free to ask! My crafted spells are in the top links as well as resource pages, and if you have any spell requests hit me up!
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Readings aren’t substitutes for professional help! It definitely can be cheaper and the appeal is understood but if a reader is tryna steer you away from seeing professionals or tryna give you advice without credentials (hell even with creds there’s still ethics & a process involved) that’s a huge 🚩

Depending on the kind of therapist you get, you too can be lucky enough to have a therapist who lets you read tarot during the session and then talk it out with you.

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Witchin’ with ADHD (part 1 - Meditation)

I had this big long intro but I cut it for all of our sakes. Actually, I deleted the entire post and started over for this reason. Basically my point of it was: I’ve been practicing for a long time and a lot of common practices have felt hard or even impossible to achieve. I’ve recently learned that I don’t need to cut those practices out entirely, I just need to do them differently. ADHDers brains work different than those without, and when we work with our brains instead of fighting, things become a lot easier. I’m starting with meditation because I think it’s one of the hardest tools to use for us. 

Learn these before starting (they’ll help you, trust me)

  1. Meditation is not about judgment. Try not to judge yourself for the things you can or cannot do. 
  2. Meditation is not about “clearing your mind of all distractions”. Sure for some people, but that’s actually not common. It’s about allowing your thoughts to come and go as they please, and to do so without judgment.
  3. It is not possible to fail at meditation. Don’t beat yourself up if you can’t sit for a 30 minute, 10 minute, 5 minute meditation. Every bit counts.
  4. Accept that you’ll probably have to do things different than people expect, and that’s okay. If you force yourself to conform you’re gonna have a bad time and not want to do it again.

Things that have helped me (that might help you)

Provide as much or as little stimulation as you need - this goes against the popular idea that meditation is about “removing all distractions”, but ADHDers know that stimulation often helps us focus better. You may want to:

  • play soft music
  • light candles and incense (sensory input for your sense of smell)
  • use a fidget toy
  • take breaks to stand and wiggle around as you need - a lot of people think this is bad, that it’ll unnecessarily break up the meditation, and I’m here to tell you 1) it’s not bad, 2) that’s okay! Break it up! Do small chunks of meditation in intervals! Again, it is not possible to fail at meditation. Any amount is good and helpful, even if you can only sit for a few minutes before moving around.
  • As you learn and grow in your practice you may find you need less stimulation. Take them away as you see fit.

Other tips:

  • Make sure you’re physically comfortable. This means wearing clothes that won’t bother you, using pillows or blankets or blocks if you need the support/need to stay warm, finding a comfortable position, etc. And if you fall asleep? You probably needed it, as this article mentions
  • On that note, try a meditation outfit! Wear the same clothes or hat or whatever each time you meditate to help transition your mind into meditation mode. This is especially helpful if you’re doing it at home.
  • Try a more interactive, guided mediation. Being able to sit in silence is an impressive skill, but it’s hard as hell, especially if you’re just starting out. I recently did a guided meditation that felt so much better than just the breathing ones because not only did it give me permission to have a lot of thoughts, it guided me on different categories to think about (I’ll explain it below)
  • It might help to schedule in time to meditate and ask someone else to help you stay on track.

The guided meditation I mentioned above:

  • Start with ten deep breaths in and out, counting the number between each inhale and exhale (ex. *breathe in* one *breath out* one, *breathe in* two *breathe out* two). I find that this gives my brain a challenge and keeps me on track.
  • Do the same counting down from ten if you’d like, but if you find yourself thinking “damn I’m bored” just skip it. You’ll have plenty of time to work up to that in the future.
  • List in your head everything you can remember doing in the day. Don’t stress if you can’t remember a lot; again, don’t judge yourself!
  • Next, list all of the emotions you’ve felt throughout the day. I see you judging yourself for your emotions, stop that. 
  • Next, list who or what you were grateful for throughout the day. 
  • Do another set of breathing to round it off, allowing the events of the day to fall behind you. 
  • If all of this seems like too much to start with, pick one category and just do that. Do more in the future if you want, or just stick to one. 

Remember: five minutes of meditation is good. Two minutes is good. And if you find yourself with large gaps between sessions, that’s okay too! Do it when you can, get comfortable with what works for you, and in time you might even find you enjoy it! 

And that’s it for today! I hope this will be helpful to some of you, and I apologize if there are any typos. I checked three times but we all know how that works out. If you’ve found this helpful, let me know what witchy subject you’d like me to tackle next! 

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things i realized in therapy:

i am allowed to be angry with people when they hurt me, even if they are sensitive and cant cope well with being told they did something wrong. their sensitivity does not mean i have to bottle up my feelings & their lack of coping skills does not make me expressing my anger abusive.

shocking, i know. truly shocking.

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READINGS OPEN INDEFINITELY

Hey guys! So as you know I’ve been dealing with some unfortunate circumstances due to COVID-19. Permanent lay-off from my main job effective as of Sept. 28th and unemployment in my state near impossible to get. I have an appointment with them but it will no longer let people file online. You can only do it by appointment now.

I know a lot of others are suffering severely as well - but if anyone has any spare income and wants a reading please feel free to IM me or send me an ask or (preferably) send me a submission form.

For readings I will need an email address to send the invoice to.

The Readings I Offer

Tarot Readings

A simple thing that many offer but with my readings you will receive images of the spreads and cards taken and any other addition items added (crystals drawing, colormancy, etc)

  • 1 Card Reading - $1.50
  • 3 Card Reading - $3.00
  • 5 Card Reading - $5.00
  • 10 Card Reading - $8.00
  • Custom Spreads or Requests - Up for Discussion

Past Life Readings

My bread and butter! Every interested in delving down into the lives you may have experienced in the past? Are you wanting to do some soul searching or get back to some of your old energy of those times? Well these readings are wonderful for self discovery, self reflection and to improve yourself over flaws of history.

  • Standard Reading (5 Cards) - $5.00
  • The standard past life reading is where I do a 5 card spread based off of the custom spread I created personally for past life readings. These readings will consist of: early life, teenage life, young adult life, adult life, and late life. Additional notes may be added to the reading by me.
  • Full Reading (10 Cards) - $8.50
  • The standard past life reading is where I do a 10 card spread based off of the custom spread I created personally for past life readings. These readings will consist of: early life, teenage life, young adult life, adult life, late life, how you were seen by others, your inner self/personality, your purpose in this life, if you met any of your soulmates, and how this life effects your current one. Additional notes may be added to the reading by me.
  • Full Reading + 3 Cards - $11.00
  • This reading is like the full reading, but with the addition of 3 more cards added to the end of the spread. These cards can be picked from a list of specifics that you wish to know more about this past life for more specific info. You may choose which of the three areas of the 10 you wish to add a card (or cards) to for more detail.
  • Full Reading + 5 Cards - $12.50
  • This reading is identical to the full reading with the addition of another 5 card spread afterwards. This additional 5 card spread will help us determine in more detail your past life in specific aspects: the time period, the location, your lifestyle (job, family, social class), your biggest fears and your goals/dreams of this life.
  • Small Reading - $3.00
  • This is my affordable cheaper option for those with a tighter budget. It is a smaller version of my standard reading featuring the first 5 cards of the standard reading: early life, teenage life, young adult life, adult life and late life.

Colormancy

My readings using custom colormancy cards made from my color theory test kit. With these colors much like other forms of card readings, I will use them and their alignments to draw answers for your questions or inquiries.

  • One Card - $1.00
  • Two Cards - $1.50
  • Three Cards - $2.50
  • Five Cards - $4.00

Crystal Throwing

A crystal throwing reading is using a bunch of different crystals and a large grid and tossing randomly selected crystals onto the grid and interpreting that for divination purposes. You may also do single drawn stones from a bag or box for single simple answers.

How the reading will work:

I will receive your question(s) and then using them as a guide will throw the crystals I draw onto my grid. I will interpret the patter, placement and the crystals correspondences to give you a detailed reading. I will also take a picture of the grid and the crystals upon it.

Pricing:

  • The price for a standard crystal reading will be $7.00 and for every additional throwing or question you would like to add is another $3.00.
  • I also have an option for if you want a Large Throwing consisting of answering 5 questions and taking the use of many more crystals than a standard throwing it is $11.50.
  • I also offer single stone drawings for $1.00 a stone.

Energy Readings

My energy readings are not the same as aura readings, I will read your energy via what visions I get, imagery, sounds, smells, tastes and feelings. I type out my readings while I experience them (likely with my eyes closed) and will go back through to correct spelling errors before sending. Sometimes these readings delve into divination other times they don’t. I will then take what I see, feel and witness and interpret it more deeply for you and send that.

The price is 6.50 for a basic energy reading. A full detailed or extended one with additional tarot cards, crystals or other added insights can be requested and price discussed.

If you need more details on energy readings feel free to look at my Energy Reading Page

Pendulum Readings

A simple reading but good for anyone who needs simple brief answers.

  • One Question = $1.00
  • Each additional Question = $1.00
  • 5 Question Bundle = $4.50
  • 10 Question Bundle = $9.00
  • Spirit or Entity Communication = IM me to discuss possible price depending on entity/spirit, length of reading and number of questions

Deity Communication/Entity Communication

Need some help communicating with a new deity, entity or spirit? I am happy to do my best to assist you with this!

  • Basic Deity Communication Spread - $12.00
  • This reading will be done with a spread I have made and used for deity communication to contact and get information from the deity. Additional cards may be added as needed each for $1.
  • Add Energy Reading - add. $5.00
  • If needed or desired I can add on an energy reading of you and possibly the deity/entity itself onto the standard basic reading above for an additional fee

Shufflemancy

A simple reading using the playlists I have saved and relating song themes, lyrics and emotions to determine the future or advice.

Price: $4.00 for a standard, $6.50 for two songs/extended reading

Readings are currently what are allowing me to buy groceries, pay off my transit pass and purchase necessities and stay ontop of things while my part-time job is covering rent at this time. I do not know if my job that let me go will open positions and call me in the future, they seemed to let everyone go/position removal as of this past week as an indication they may be shutting down until tourism improves. 

So if you are interested in readings please feel free to reach out and IM me or send me an ask/submission. I just need email addresses to send the invoices.

Readings usually take between 7 to 14 days and they are done Sundays through Tuesdays as to not interfere with my part-time hours.

Thank you all for helping me with this. If you cannot request a commission, please reblog and signal boost this if you can. Money will be tight, my city is about to fully shut down with little to no support from our local government. I also accept tips through my Ko-Fi page as well.

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Monsterfucker makes it sound like I only want them for their body...no...I am a monster romancer. I want to take them out on a date, have some delightful and witty conversation over wine. Dance together under the moonlight to an orchestra of crickets. I want to learn about every little thing that makes them who they are. And then I fuck them.

Guillermo del Toro ghostwrote this post.

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I have a little girl, called Moira. She is a small girl, with beautiful red eyes.

But, due to her past and her lack of vision, she does something called test biting. She uses her teeth and gently squeezes my hands/fingers to see who I am and what I am. Sometimes it draws a ribbon of blood, but nothing major.

I have lots of tiny little teeth marks on one finger more than the others (maybe she has a favourite?).

But, I'm not mad or angry at her.

Up until Moira came to me, her short life had been sad and lonely. Now, she has a mischief that she belongs to, sisters to play with and sleep with, regular food and treats, a soft bed... everything she needs.

Now, I have to show her that she can trust humans. I have to show her that I'm not going to hurt her, or neglect her. I have to show my little Moira that I am here to love her and have fun with her.

She has very little confidence, so Moira and I are going to work on that together.

And that's going to take time, and work. But she needs me, and I think I need her too.

This is Moira, she's taking some watered down peanut butter from the back of my hand. 🖤

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Collecting Bones: Owl Pellets

So i know a lot of people who don't know about Owl Pellets

Owls can't digest bones, fur, and nails from rodents and birds so they regurgitate a ball of it all and when disassembled correctly you're can get some really good bones and skulls.

When you search up Owl Pellets you can find a lot of labs that sell them usually for educational purposes. So for you little vultures, witches, and goblins, go buy owl pellets to get some small bones and skulls for you hoards and spells.

Different owls have different diets and you can get different animal skulls depending on what you want, just know which species of owl eats what.

✨Go get those bones you lovely creatures✨
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Be wary of who you trust: the long journey of how I’m now going to worship Apollon

I have been told many times that I am the exact demographic for Apollon. I even worship his beloved Hyakinthos. Most of all, I wanted to worship him. So why didn’t I until now? Well, this is why. This is why you need to be careful. So, Kalliope, sweet muse, let us begin the experiences I had. 

The first bad experience I had impacted me deeply as a beginner pagan. It was like a scar and a bloody one at that. 

My memory does not falter in this occasion. I remember it — I was young, age 15. I was a beginner pagan and was starting my worship of Achilles and Patroclus. I had received a dream of the swift-footed Achilles. So, I asked about it. I was a confused (and overly anxious) newbie. I got a response; but from someone who claimed they could channel the gods. As in, have the gods enter their body to speak. (That’s quite the red flag obviously lol.)

They claimed that Apollon and Anubis called me obsessive. That I needed to stop being “obsessed” with my heroes.

I broke down on the spot, on my bed. I went to my friends and cried. I went to other hellenic polytheists; asking about it. My soul was wounded. You may say that was weak or petty of me. It wasn’t. Someone claimed that a god I adored and admired called me obsessive. As someone who has ADHD, I have been bullied and attacked for being ‘obsessive.’ It was actually a hyperfixation, but I digress. 

The situation blew up. I remember being told by this 23 year old, an adult, that I needed to “act like an adult.” I was only 15. I remember them saying that Apollon will smite for ‘taking away all their friends.’ Like ah yes, the protector of young boys, such as myself at the time, will smite me. As you can tell, I never got smited. But it left a scar. 

The wound was only made deeper. The first time, a witch, another adult, said that Apollon didn’t like me because his candle cracked and grew stronger when she mentioned me. Cue this same situation happening about four times.

Eventually, I just couldn’t handle it. I felt so guilty. I had always been disconnected from Apollon and the idea that I was hated tore at me. “What did I do to deserve this?” was the question that tore at my well being. 

Until I asked my mum/dad friend to ask him about it. She said that Apollon was confused, actually. That I had potential to be nephew material. I actually had her ask twice just to be sure. And both times, it was confirmed that he absolutely did not hate me. 

Then, I continued on. Sometimes I got the want to worship him again but I let it slide. I continued to honour dear Hyakinthos and that was that.

But then Apollon came into my life. 

I remember it, I was doing something — I don’t exactly remember much. But I then I felt his presence come in. He gave me the sweetest, quiet sweet “hey.” In proper meme format, it was like:

Me, doing something: 

Apollon, quietly: …hey..?

Me: oop

At first I was… horribly confused? So I did div and got some trusted diviners to do div. It was all the same. That yes, he did want me to worship him. But most of all: that there’s potential for a familial bond. That bond was even hinted at wayyyy before by my mum/dad friends’ answers from apollon of being “nephew material.” 

So everyone, there’s a tale of caution. Be careful, especially if you’re a minor. I could’ve honoured him sooner, with Hyakinthos, but no. I was taken advantage of by adults. At least now I finally can — even if he had to be the one to say hey.

There’s not much to add aside from repeating the last point: everyone should be careful when interacting with strangers online, even if said strangers share your faith. Minors, you are more vulnerable to this than anyone else.

Don’t assume that you’ll learn better from someone, this example is a case where connecting with others was more detrimental than studying on your own. And also, don’t assume that someone is inherently a good person because they share your faith and interest.

I’ve seen it before, where people get possessive and jealous at the thought of others worshipping “their god” in the pagan community. I don’t know if it’s because they want to be special and think someone else worshipping will take attention away from them, or if it’s some “I worshipped X before it was cool” mentality, or what. But this is not the first time I’ve heard of or seen elders in the community steering new worshippers, especially teens, away from “their” gods.

I’m going to reemphasize right now, that the Hellenic gods expect worship. If someone’s telling you that you can’t worship one of the theoi because of your gender, ethnicity, country of origin, sexual orientation, hobbies, career, other gods you worship, ect…. They’re lying to you. Point blank. If they’re telling you that you’ve offended a god somehow, they’re more likely than not wrong. Because, a theos will let you know if you’ve offended them. And if you have somehow, you can fix it the same way every Joe Ancient Greek did, and just purify, then offer to that theos. It’s that easy. Cleanse and sacrifice. Boom! That solved the majority of ancient greek “I seem to have angered this god and I don’t really know how” issues, and it can solve ours too.

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Hyrulean Pantheon - Sages

Aside from the obvious connections, I feel the Sages can be associated with the following

Rauru:  The start of a journey

Saria:  Youth and innocence

Darunia:  Fraternity

Ruto:  The passage of time, moving forward

Impa:  Dedication to a higher cause

Nabooru:  Rebellion

Princess Zelda:  Responsibility 

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