also full offense but ive seen/experienced emotional & constant abuse & i always get an icky feeling when i see it again, so just guess how i feel about edward
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loudly sips a day old pepsi
anyways why are we washing out the egyptian coven, change ur damn psds.
I’M PRETTY WEAK & CLUMSY, IT KIND OF SUCKS. that’s okay, though. i’m getting stronger. the whole vampire thing is gonna help, don’t get me wrong, but . . . sharp teeth & superhuman strength isn’t going to fix my mind. aha . . . i wish it did. but it’s much more satisfying if i fix myself, y’know ? i’m going to craft my armor myself, i’m going to fight for myself, i’m going to be my own sword. cheesy, aha, i know. but when your life’s filled with vampires & werewolves & an overly romanticized love interest. . . well . . . nothing’s cheesy anymore. ☾ / independent, private, highly selective & very, very canon divergent bella swan from the twilight saga. \ ☽
STARGIFTS. //: ❱ ❱ ❱ barry !
‘ so if i said . . . i had two tickets to fifty shades of grey, would you go with me ? ’ please say yes. everyone already said no. don’t ask why he has them. / @wasthelamb
❝ . . . WHEN ? ❞ she exhales, a blush already rising to awaiting cheeks at the idea of watching a movie that honestly looked like nothing but a bdsm porno. but how could she say no to barry ? ❝ do you want me to pay you back for the tickets ? ‘cause if you say no, i’m buying you popcorn. ❞
APPLEASHEN. //: ❱ ❱ ❱ ???
WILTING ROSE ; a girl with soft skin and starry eyes , a lost lamb in a forest full of forgotten promises . (LAMB- if only she knew how much the dark eyed beauty could relate . ) she tires now , but has the wits to keep on alert . all through the trails wandered , there had been the chirping melodies of song birds , the low hum of busy insects crawling about , a curious squirrel or rabbit , or even deer , following her heels , willing to share nuts or berries or flowers to weave into her hair . but now ? oh , she might feel more comforted if she thought herself to be truly alone . umber gaze shifts wearily around flushed forests , but comes up null . a girl famously sent away with a target on her back ( no , her heart ) weariness such as this should have been a second nature , but as thoughts reflect , she couldn’t seem to recall how long it was this every silence had befallen her . and so , with the dear - heart gathers the courage of the moon , breath deep , blood rushing , she dares , ❝ hello ? is there someone there ? ❞
*✧.: ♔。❀*゚‘゚✧ @wasthelamb || ❤️
SHE CAN FEEL IT. HOW CLOSE SHE WAS TO RELIEF, how close she was to the rushing river, but such a vessel didn’t hold water, no, it held blood. sweet rose wine, bettered by the twinge of iron, but soiled by the smell of animal hide. what she had memorized from hunts past was animal blood, not human blood. a delicacy she was forbidden to indulge in ; a delicacy she forbade HERSELF to indulge in. a pity, now. she had been following the girl for a while, mesmerized by her crimson cheeks & fingertips ( & of course, her beauty even rivaled rosalie’s ) , oh how her heart would flutter ! she remembered, once, when her own would do the same. but she is no longer that girl, she is no longer the prey, but rather, the predator. she kept behind her fortress of a fallen tree trunk & a few bushes, fighting herself constantly : GO BACK, GO BACK, GO BACK ; SHE IS NOT YOUR MEAL. BUT SHE’S RIGHT THERE ! WHO WOULD KNOW ! ----------- i would know. me. i couldn’t take the guilt.
she silenced her own crusade, fingertips rising to hold a throbbing throat. how parched she was ! but she’d rather impale herself ( it wouldn’t kill her, but the pain would be enough ) then slaughter the girl. her mission was to save & protect humans, do things they couldn’t, be what she couldn’t be before. ❝ ah ----------- hello ! ❞ her words came airy & breathless, but she stayed behind her makeshift wall. ❝ are you lost, miss ? ❞
she was his hope ; the only sun he can touch without turning to ashes , the anchor that disabled him from floating to insanity . he was her life , the comfort she sought after , the light that she desired for so many years in the darkness . they were each other’s hearts ( unbeating it may be ) , a crucial part of one another . separated , they may function . but living without the other is a life not worth living . // independent . selective . exclusive . private . heavily canon - divergent ! ALICE CULLEN & JASPER HALE .
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playlist for @wasthelamb / @amvalor between Aro n Bella !!! :
— lust for life by ldr n abel.
— disintegration by the mon/archy n dita.
— me and the devil by soapnskin.
— swan song by ldr.
— heaven / california by hon/ey gentry.
SEENHOPE. //: ❱ ❱ ❱ jasper !
VENEER OF OPTIMISM LAY APHOTIC EXCITEMENT — death lay ‘twards happiness as it was but the oldest hale brother that was present . hopeful of convalesce after the female leaves but o’ , boy mistaken ! pause as comely hazel hues observe the woman ‘fore laodicean expression forms ‘self ‘pon greek marbled features of old . silence yields to her question , woman full of lies — so deemed the male as he listens to heartbeat that echoes through several yards . mien of naivety & beauty ; pandora personified ! prometheus merely stands o’er his dominion , scrutiny present in neutral eyes . though salient to stranger known as brother , creature simply relinquished thoughts of hostility & remembered how women must be treated ( even if one previously sought to murder the female . )
❛ oh , yes … . where are my manners … . do come in . ❜ albeit tone rang with open detachment & hesitation , he merely walked ‘cross the porch to give other quite the room to walk in . anxiety rose within him as he was not keen on meeting with others , let alone humans who’ve no business in his life . regret comes wallowing war-torn boy , this life was not his to lead . ‘twas safe to say , however , his anxiety merely increased ‘cause ‘twas how the other feels as well . ambiance full of serenity twirls ‘pon room & reflecting ‘pon the woman . ❛ curious one , are you not ? ❜ asks he , closing the door after she walks in & gestures for pandora-like mortal to sit . ❛ went shopping , actually . alice’s idea . esme & rosalie jumped in . ‘course , the men were hauled after . though , i’ve convinced dear alice that all my clothes looked better than the others . if you’ve arrived an hour early , you’ve gone with them . edward’s been looking quite like a hobo recently — as alice have described him . he went in lieu of myself . ❜ that was too much talking on his end . ❛ i’ll go make you some tea . ❜
UPON LIPS COATED IN GENUINE GAIETY, she’d giggle, a strange sound coming from someone like her. she simply did not ---------- giggle. but she’d blame it on her jumping nerves & the thundering of her pulse in her ears. ❝ a hobo, huh ? that’s almost hard to believe. ❞ but nothing was ‘ hard to believe ‘ anymore ; thrust into a world of vampires, what else would come to light ? ❝ well ------- that’s too bad, i guess . . . ❞ how more awkward could she be ! she should have walked away when she had the chance ! but now she stands awkwardly within a house her mother would have fainted at, delicate walls & extravagant paintings, luscious furniture & polished floors ; it felt like a modern - day castle to her. & embarrassingly so, she was still gawking, blushing eyes rip away from their search & back to him.
❝ tea ? ❞ her voice cracks, placing an intangible question mark at the end of a word that was not so laborious to understand. rose-tipped fingers rise to her throat, a nervous smile cracking across reddening features. ❝ i mean, yeah ! tea would be nice . . . thank you, jasper. ❞ she mumbles, intending to follow him into the kitchen, or wherever he was planning to prepare the beverage ( come now, bella ! where would anyone make tea ? the kitchen, of course ! ) . ❝ how long did it take to decorate & furnish all this ? ❞ her question comes with natural hesitance & a wave of her hand, she was trying to continue their conversation ; such desperation to attempt to understand a man like him. but she’ll continue her efforts without rest --------- he is, after all, ( a shiver runs down her rigid spine even before she lets her mind utter the thought ) her future family.
i have a jane muse i havent used in a long time because i forgot her account log in but im thinking of revamping her. i really want to use dakota / elle fanning but i also really want to give her an fc like bae joohyun or choi jinri. i'm at a loss of what to do, do yiu havw any advice ?
OH MY ! all four of those women are lovely ! & im so happy you’re thinking about revamping your jane ! we could always use more twilight blogs. but as for your question, ask yourself why you want to use a korean fc instead of a white one. is it because you want to ‘ fit in ‘ or be ‘ cool ‘ bc you don’t follow the system / canon ? or is it because you’re tired of twilight being a mostly all-white story ? do you want to tell a story that includes everyone & relates to everyone instead of a story that only related to neurotypical whites ? i hope you picked the same reasons i have, & if you did, then i honestly really do like bae joohyun ! she’s very jane-like ! but then again so is choi jinri . . . i change my mind GO WITH CHOI SHE REAL CUTE ! & very jane !
do you have a twilight character, oc, or verse ? if so, please reblog this post with your character(s) name in the tags, if you are an oc please specify that, and if you only have a verse be sure to specify that as well. please reblog once per blog.
reblog and tag appropriately and you will be added to this list.
anyway whites in the rpc come with a whole lotta ignorance by default and it’s tiring and i’d like to meet some new people in this disaster of a community so hit that like/reblog if you’re a person of color in the rpc who actually cares about vocally being a person of color in the rpc (meaning you don’t always keep your mouth shut or water your opinions down to spare the feelings of your white mutuals) this post includes rphs, writes blogs, indies and everything in between and does not welcome anybody who uses the phrase s.j.w unironically or roleplays abuse/pedophilia/incest and shit like that thanks.
i love your blog!! what drew you to bella as a muse?
SDUBSDIfGN I LOVE YOU ! but honestly, i don’t know. the werewolves always got me, it’s not that i wasn’t intrigued by the vamps, i just . . . i love werewolves, y’all, i’m a Secret Furry.
& in all honesty ? I HATED BELLA. every ounce of my 12-year-old body hated her guts. i hate a lot of heroines in most famous books today. it’s just that their actions are so stupid to me sometimes i want to cry & throw the book across the room. now i realize it’s bc i had avpd even all the way back then & i just couldn’t relate to any of these heroines bc no one related TO ME. they were all neurotypical for the most part & they got guys. i couldn’t understand both of those things. also bella was really annoying. like i hated her so much sdhfg.
recently i grew indifferent, but once i picked new moon again i was like bithc……………………. it’s just meyer’s writing. like i HATE her writing. but bella ? she’s just a gal who found a guy who actually liked her. she even sounded like she had anxiety too. & my brain just got to work you know, here she was, this girl who came to forks bc she didn’t fit in w/her mom & she wants to give her more freedom. frankly, i realized DO relate to her. in her very basic essence, bella would be my best friend. but that’s it, i erase all else, & build her up from the foundation up. like i kno some ppl might get offended or whatever, but i’m TIRED. bella is just a strong girl, & she tries so hard. so so HARD. i understand why people might hate her, i get it. but pls, let me introduce you to a NEW bella. i don’t know if she’s better bc that’s almost going beyond disliking a series, it’s like shading the author ( like i haven’t done that b4, but u know ), but GOD, bella is so much more than this frail, sickly girl that meyer makes her out to be.