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Conrad DeWitt is on his way home from a night shift when he is kidnapped by two strangers and forced into a van headed god knows where. Initially hoping he can spare himself from unwanted trouble by keeping his head down, Conrad tries to comply - until he realizes exactly what they have in mind for him. By then, his captors have already gone far past the point of no return. They're in it for the money, and they have no intention of sparing him from pain to get it.
The first one went smoothly; the second nearly got Moreno killed. Now, they've aquired the help of Gatz and Atkinson, a hitman and his assistant, to track down the nine that remain. As the hunt unfolds, Moreno finds themself the center of a cat-and-mouse game spanning three continents, and their grasp on reality begins to fray, but they can't bring themself to give a shit. After everything - they want revenge. The knife is finally, finally in their hand.
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THE END OF IT ALL, pt.1 // Vancouver

Previous / AO3 / Masterlist / Next (coming soon)

He doesn’t turn on the radio. A mercy, really, given his preferences.

Cold air hums from every dashboard vent, stinging tired eyes. The dial is set to red, but something in the air conditioning unit has been broken since they met him. They’ve gotten used to freezing drives, and on nights like these, the discomfort acts as a welcome distraction: the tenseness of their shoulders, their back, blending in so seamlessly with the ache of the scuffle, they can pretend it’s all owed to temperature. They can almost forget how much it’ll hurt come tomorrow.

Their ability to sink completely into the ambience of the car is corrupted, though, by a clear sense that he finds their lack of acknowledgement unnerving. It’s not like they haven’t noticed how his thumb has been tapping the wheel continuously for the better part of an hour, dark skin taught over the muscles of his forearm.

For the most part, they keep their eyes fixed out the window. Don’t move. Just watch as gathering drops of rain race across the glass, dimly lit by the headlights; or the white line marking the edge of the road, the illusion of a band of elastic vibrating towards stasis. Never reaches it, obviously.

He lets out a laugh suddenly, and it lingers in his voice for a bit, a breath he never quite lets go. “You can’t deny the poetry, though, hm? He really thought—”

“Stop talking.”

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THE END OF IT ALL // Prologue

masterlist and shit (coming whenever)

The two of them sit shoulder to shoulder on a bench overlooking the harbor. Containers stacked three stories high on the left, colors muted in the dark; they all look grey. Same goes for the crane silhouettes a mile in the distance. It's not winter anymore, but the night's air is cool enough to make their breaths visible, emphasized by the plumes of smoke he occasionally puffs out. The sound of creeping waves beyond the parking lot makes the silence between them feel less heavy. The tide must be coming in.

They shudder as he carefully rolls the remains of his cigarette, until the ember is dislodged. It falls like a spark and bursts upon hitting the asphalt, bits of orange-glowing ash immediately extinguished in the murky puddle.

"I wasn't expecting leniency," he mutters eventually, tone measured. "But I guess I get it."

He takes a deep, apprehensive breath, pocketing the cigarette filter, shoes dragging on loose gravel as he leans forward, bracing his elbows on his knees. Clean hands rubbed warm, callous against callous. It's hard to tell in the dark, but they think he might be looking at the body, or at least in that direction.

They grit their teeth, still scraping their fingernails from what lingers, one nail at a time, and flicking whatever emerges at the ground. A few clicks off the coast, a cruise ship marks the loneliest light across the horizon. It comes out a little too inarticulate, a little too quiet: "Deserved it. Right?"

He snorts. "I think," he mutters, only to hesitate again. Another drawn-out sigh from deep in his chest as he lightly rolls his shoulders, and then he gets up. He circles around with casual steps, carefully avoiding the puddle, and hooks the toe of his shoe under one wrist. Watches the slack, pale hand fall back down. "I think," he repeats, looking back at them, "that if anyone has the solitary right to answer that question, it's you."

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someone explain to me why "they're buddies but at every step of the way they act like they vehemently despise each other" is such an appealing dynamic

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Hi, I'm Elias, I'm a 26yo trans guy from Denmark. I write shit, I draw shit, and I get into unneccesarily tedious arguments with anons about torture apologia in fiction. I think that sums up my vibe

I've made a few posts about this already, but tl;dr: the Danish NHS has been refusing to treat me for gender dysphoria for the better part of a year now because they've deemed me "unstable." Unstable how, you ask?

I have depression.

No, that is quite literally it. Full context under the readmore.

Fighting to be heard and having the door repeatedly slammed in your face sucks peak ass, and I'm done now. The NHS is so lackluster when it comes to trans people, all of a sudden, it makes perfect sense to me why 31% of transgender Danes get HRT outside of the NHS.

And I'd rather not have to turn to the black market, so rn I'm hoping to get a prescription with GenderGP. The issue is, I'm poor as fuck and can't afford the start-up fees for the forseeable future - unless I do something like this. I hate asking others for money, and I hate it even more if I'm not in a place where I can give anything in return. But I also recognize I'm in over my head with this, so. If you've got a cent or two to spare, I'd be grateful as hell.

I've mathed it out, and my best estimate is that I need around 3500,- DKK / $500 USD. Again, this is just to cover the initial subscription as well as mandatory consultations/blood tests. I should be able to cover the prescriptions on my own, as well as further tests/consultations down the line, so I'm hoping this is a one-and-done sort of thing.

paypal: elimunpau@gmail.com

Also, important note. We're in a global cost of living/housing crisis and this isn't a strict life-or-death situation. If you're in a tough spot right now, don't send me anything, that'd just make me feel worse about asking. I appreciate the thought but you gotta take care of your own needs first. Peace and take care ✌️

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rambling again but now its about trans healthcare and mental health. and the danish nhs' take on both those things which is, yknow, shit

its less rambling and more of a rant bc im tired lol

surprise, the copenhagen gender clinic refused my referral for the 3rd time. this time they were kind enough to specify they won't accept another referral until a year after i had a my last in-clinic convo with them. which was october 24th. so fuck that with a passion

im gonna start the process of filing a formal complaint but i honestly dont think thats going to do much. in the meantime, im saving up to get on hrt via gendergp. im beyond fed up with the nhs. tired of asking for healthcare and getting the door repeatedly slammed in my face for the unacceptable offense of.. having depression lol

anyway uh. not to be cliché but its not just going to rent/utilities anymore

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