It’s kinda mind blowing how badly grad school exacerbated my mental illnesses.
Like, it’s not as if life is suddenly all kittens and rainbows just because I graduated, but I’m finding it so much easier to manage. I’m currently just as busy (maybe even more so) than I was in grad school, but I’m actually getting enjoyment out of each day? I’m actually able to relax a bit each day without feeling constantly guilty? My mind actually doesn’t have to be constantly torn and constantly grinding on grad school problems in the background? I don’t actually wake up in the middle of the night with panic attacks anymore? Grad school was messing me up but now it’s over!!