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Lily hardly knew Eli, and she knew firsthand that when you had feelings for someone, you tended to paint them in a positive light no matter what. Although she’d only heard good things up until recently, she wanted to tread with caution while giving him the benefit of the doubt. Her job was now a big question mark, as she was supposed to have been planning Eli’s wedding to Caroline and now he was having a baby with her best friend. But that was merely a professional concern, and all that she needed to know from that standpoint was whether or not there was still going to be a wedding that year so that she could book the weekend. Theo was in a far more precarious position.
“Do you know what you’re going to do about the baby?” she asked softly, biting her bottom lip as she pondered the possibility. Of course Lily was still going to be nothing but supportive, but Eli having been engaged to another woman while having an affair with Theo certainly changed the circumstances. “I wish I knew who he was the moment I met with him.” It may have changed the game entirely, or maybe not even at all. But at least if that had been the case, Theo would’ve known earlier. “It’s not on you for having been deceived, Theo. He had countless opportunities to have come clean with you,” she assured the other woman, putting a comforting arm on her shoulder. He could’ve just not had an affair in the first place, was the follow up thought, but Lily knew all too well that judgement wouldn’t help the situation. And in the midst of everything, Lily couldn’t help but feel bad for another woman: Caroline. “You don’t have to just ‘get over it’ either, it’s okay to feel whatever you feel right now.”
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“I’m keeping the baby,” she told her. Theo understood the question, and wasn’t at all offended that Lily had asked. It was a good question. But she’d decided long ago that she would be keeping the baby. Eli may have messed up by cheating, and not telling Theo he had a fiancé, but she knew he would be a great father. He was kind, and caring, and warm- all things that constituted such a thought. She had no doubt about his ability in that regard.
It was difficult to express what she felt. She knew that most people would probably tell her to drop him. In her mind, however, she simply couldn’t do that. “I really think he wanted to.” Or, that’s what her gut feeling was. Despite the fact that she hadn’t seen this coming, she still felt that she knew him pretty well. And if he was even a quarter of the person he was around her then she knew he would have wanted to. “I’m sure he did- but he didn’t. And that’s what makes things hard.”