Chizuru watched as the days passed. They were peaceful. A peace that came with the death of the ones she held dear in her heart. They had gone on their separate ways after Kondo’s death and one by one, all of her friends turned to dust. Only one person still remained by her side, having lost her family and friends, he was all she had. But he too didn’t have much time left. She could see it, his skin was getting even more pale and his touch was so cold. She turned to gaze at his sleeping form. He looked so carefree like this. Her hand reached out to brush his bangs away from his face softly caressing the skin on his temple as she did so. 

“I love you.” She murmured as the morning light entered the room slowly. 

“I love you too.” A sleepy voice responded and emerald eyes fluttered open. 

“Good morning, Chizuru.” Her husband said as he stared at her with a smile, his hand reached out to grab her own to intertwine their fingers. Chizuru smiled back at him, trying to ignore how cold his touch was. She could feel that his love was a warm breeze to her own heart, giving her the strength to go on for another day.    “Good morning, Souji-san. I didn’t mean to wake you.” She whispered as they leaned closer their foreheads touching and she wondered for how many days that will continue. Her husband barely left their house anymore and his appetite was getting worse.

“It’s alright, I liked my waking up call.” He smiled at her his eyes shining which made her giggle in response. He pulled her hand close to his lips and kissed it softly “But I might need to hear it again, to wake up completely.” He teased her and a small blush now adorned her cheeks.   “I love you Souji-san. Now I should go make breakfast for us though.” She responded pulling away and a pout appeared on his face.

“I don’t want to let you go.” He responded childish trying to tighten his hold on her but it was so weak that her heart sank. She leaned closer and nuzzled to the crook of his neck. He was warm. She missed when his touch was a burning flame consuming her but now that gentle warmth was enough.

“Alright. Let’s stay like this a bit longer.” She gave in and closed her eyes, breathing in his scent until she was lulled back to sleep. 

Souji stayed up watching her with a fond look in his eyes but a sadness lingered in his gaze as well. He could feel it, his body was getting weaker and weaker every day that passed. And a day where Chizuru was away, he found his sheets stained with blood. He had covered it up washing them right away, but the knowledge made him understand that the end was near. He let out a shaken breath.  “I never want to let you go.” He murmured softly kissing her forehead. He wanted to live but he knew that it was a miracle that he was still breathing. All he could do was pray that it would last a bit longer, maybe until the next spring came. 

He wanted to see the cherry blossom tree he had planted for her in full bloom. Because when those flower petals fell to the ground, his eyes would also close. He had made a promise to leave something behind for her to remember. He didn’t want to leave her alone. Not now, not ever. He looked at her and spoke a bit louder this time.

“I will never stop loving you, I will always be next to you. I will be the stars watching over you at night, I will be the sun greeting you in the morning. Every day, every year, forever.” And with that he also closed his eyes. 

Souji never believed in something like a god. He had never reached out to him before. But now he prayed to everything that existed out there, to let him stay there by her side a bit longer.

@hidarikiki-no-kenshi

“In this heat? No thanks.” he rolled his eyes as he yawned “No way, chores are boring. I want summer to end already.” he grabbed the fan from his side and started shaking it in hope to get some energy.

“How about going out of the headquarters for a bit?”

“I am bored.” Souji mused  in a slow drawl as he pouted staring at the summer sky. It was hot and he was bored out of his mind “They left me behind because of Hijikata-san’s stupid nagging.” he said with his a roll of his eyes. A rustle of leaves makes him look up,

“Oh? Who is there?”

Send one in and I'll write a drabble about it!

Okay I played Souji’s route in edo blossoms and I am in mood to write him, so send me asks for a drabble? It can be anything really, I just want to write him!!

Okay, so. I have no muse whatsover but I had the chance to rant about Souji so here it goes.

He is a really compelling and well-written character, don't get me wrong hakuouki in general is very well-written but Souji is just special. The way he regards himself, his backstory, his inner thoughts. How much he tried to change after he was saved by Kondou and how he did really change. How he knows that what he does is wrong and won't please Kondou but does it anyway bc that's all he can do. How he believes that he is a weapon and nothing else, not worth mentioning even, it's okay if he dies but at least let him die fighting. The tragedy that is his illness that haunts him and makes him feel absolutely pathetic, useless and how he takes the ochimizu to change himself because he is sick, oh so sick of letting things be out of his control. Souji hates not being in control of his own body and the general situation, he is always very keen with his surroundings and his environment in general, very observant to others people reactions and knows how to use his words to beckon them to do what he wants or just to make fun of them tbh. That's why his reactions when he isn't in control are so full of emotion, this man who is always wearing that damn smirk on his face suddenly becomes a lost child, who is clinging to what he knows to be saved. All he knows is how to use a sword and kill, so that's what he does, he doesn't even fancy the idea of having a future, how scary is that? But also so fucking interesting, it's so hard to get in his head and understand why he does what he does. His moral compass is totally messed up as well but that's just another reason that makes him amazing, because knowing how he grew up, it makes sense. Now we know how much Souji cares about Kondou, but the way Chizuru finds her place in his heart slowly but steadily is beautiful.At first he rejects her, telling her that she is better off speaking with some of the other guys compared to him, threatens to kill her too many times to count while actually meaning it, buts she sticks to his side, in a stubborn way similiar to his own, bc damn that boy is stubborn. She is an easy target for him to tease and mess with but slowly it becomes more than that, he tells her many times to not try to cross her boundaries though. Even when she stands in front of him when he wants to kill everyone that hurt Kondou, she is scared, shaking but standing her ground, I think that's something that moved him a bit. Also very important, she accepts him for what he thinks he is, she doesn't try to tell him "No you aren't a weapon." she goes along with his mindset and stays by his side when things are really bad for him. 

I think between protecting her from Kaoru's attack and the time they go to Osaka together is where he really warms up to her. He wants her to stick around with him, he allows her to fight when she wants to help him but always having her back, he teases and makes her smile, he protects her with all his might, he blames himself entirely for when Kaoru forces her to take the ochimizu, Souji really  cares for Chizuru. Souji who kills people for nothing, Souji who could never really trust people, only a few found a way to his heart and Chizuru is one of them, who even takes one step farther. When Kondou dies, she is the only thing he has, he lives for her sake, for the sake of wanting to be together with her, even if he serves no purpose anymore, even if he can't help Kondou anymore. He opens his heart to her, tells her stories of the past he only told to a one or two people at most. But the thing that really made my heart melt is that at first he doesn't know why he wants to hug her, why his heart feels like its about to burst, why he wants to hold her close and not let her go, he doesn't get it.

'My chest aches...but I am happy?'

 that's such a beautiful line to me, he just has never experienced love before and it feels like he is just a child again, a lost child who tries to understand what he is feeling. Then, when they finally get together, he is so sweet, so caring, so kind, he gives her his everything and all he wants is to live with her. And damn it's so beautiful. I just love him okay, I wrote enough I should stop.