isn't that a little derivative?

happy birthday, elmo 🎂

THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE WARDROBE APPRECIATION

↳ Theo Crain

It's been almost five years since The Haunting of Hill House came out on Netflix. And it has irrevocably changed my life.

The depiction of grief. Addiction. Depression. Loss. Identity. Family relationships. Family dynamics. Healing your inner child. Having to deal with your inner child. The fact that in some ways you never really grow up, you're that exact same person inside that is dealing with all these increasingly complex and difficult things, trying hard to not let the child in you react because you know it shouldn't.

Thinking about Theo taking her gloves off. Nell going to therapy, putting in work, and still having her demons chase her around all the way to the end. Shirley's entire life and career being based around wanting to help people in their darkest moments the way someone helped her (though isn't that what they all do, too? Especially Theo). Luke as the youngest, being left behind or not believed and eventually having to find ways to self-soothe, which as an adult are not as health-friendly as other options out there. But it's what he had to do to cope. And Steve... everyone knows a Steve.

I know people have commented before about the five Crain siblings and the five stages of grief. But they also each experience those themselves, and in some ways the five of them simply display how much grief and living can do to a person. Juxtaposing the entire modern part of the series with them as children reminded me how much the things I do now can also be drawn back to little Me. The decisions I make, what scares me, who I reach out to. What haunts me? I may not have a big scary terrifying Death House in my past, but I mean... we've all got our version of a big scary terrifying Death House.

The tragedy of Hill House, the complicated love that's shown, the connections and relationships we have with our families, the world, ourselves. I cannot, will not, should not, would not forget it.

happy new year, y’all

shoutout to everyone who’s also dealing with the longest year of a week this week

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what's the first movie you remember seeing in theaters? don't try and be all edgy and cool and say like tetsuo: the iron man. be honest.

Go!!

enough character development. now i want to chill with my soulmate

“i loved you completely and you loved me the same. that’s all. the rest is confetti.”

me rewatching hill house and seeing this moment for the 100th time

it's that time again! find your age in your spotify wrapped top 100 & tell me what song you get 🥰 mine is talking to yourself by carly rae jepsen

Victoria Pedretti as Nell Crain The Haunting of Hill House, The Bent-Neck Lady

part of me wants to be professional part of me wants to sign my emails with dark souls texts

for me the highlight of mike flanagan shows is his wife

THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR 1.09 "The Beast in the Jungle"

Zazie Beetz photographiée par Pete Thompson (2023)