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my last sin is that i hate you

@excelsior-dreamer / excelsior-dreamer.tumblr.com

| Piper | AAA lesbian | 23 | they/them
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zebrabyopn3

A girl has not felt loved in years. She never gets told that she's a pretty girl. She doesn't get called a girl. Her parents don't call her daughter. She never smiles and doesn't take care of her hair anymore. She stopped taking showers every day. She has acne and stubble. She doesn't shave, she can't stand looking at herself in the mirror. She was told that "fat is hot" until she gained more weight. People look at her weird. She feels like nobody wants her. She doesn't want anyone to look at her. She feels alone. People avoid her. She feels like she can't vent to others anymore because it's all she can think about. She wants to be loved

A girl doesn't talk anymore. She's distant and insecure. She bottles up her feelings. People reach out to her to try and help, but don't know how to help. She isolates herself, she's scared. She knows that nobody will put in the time and effort to be there for her. Nobody says good morning to her. She stopped asking for help. She doesn't laugh anymore. She feels like she's worthless. She's told that this isn't true, but notices that people only care about her when she's feeling suicidal. She feels like a burden. She can't think a week ahead because she is terrified of the future. She doesn't know if she'll make it to the end of the year. She wants to be loved

A girl doesn't express her opinions anymore. People think she's a dangerous freak, that she is disgusting, gross and filthy. She feels that weight. She cries most of the day, most days. She stopped brushing her teeth. She feels disposable. She only feels useful when she's validated. People will toss her aside as soon as they get a good excuse to do it. She feels like a sacrificial lamb. They keep her at arm's length. She knows that she's judged silently. She feels like people would feel more comfortable if she wasn't there. She's trying to keep going. Her eyes hurt. She's loud. People think she is annoying. She's tired. She wants to be loved

I see u. I love u

You're a pretty girl. What you say matters. How you feel matters. It's ok to be angry and afraid. It's unfair that others don't notice and don't care. Keep being loud, keep being yourself. It's not too late. You matter

I see all of you. I love every single one of you

A girl feels abandoned. She's hurt. She tears up at the thought of love. She can't ask for help anymore. She can't get out of bed, she doesn't go outside, she hasn't cut her bangs. She feels alone. She stays up late and oversleeps, wondering why she's still here. She's scared. She stays in her unmade bed. She can't take a shower. She skips breakfast. She feels like she's not worth taking care of. She checks her phone. No new notifications. She wishes somebody would send her a good morning text. She wishes someone would reach out. She wonders if people even see her

We do. We see you. What you say and how you feel matters. Your pain is real, your struggles are real, the indifference of people is real. That hurt inside your chest is real, that tight grip around your lungs is real, that uncomfortable feeling in the back of your neck is real, that heavy burden on your shoulders is real, those words and thoughts stuck in your throat are real, that tiredness in your eyes is real, that piercing noise in your ears is real, that hopelessness in your mind is real. Your grief is real

You're not worthless, not to us. We have to do better to welcome you, to include you, to trust you, to compliment you, to support you, to celebrate you, to remember you, to love you. You can be loved

We see you. You are beautiful. We love you. You will make it. You matter so much

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my new thing whenever an embarrassing memory jumps up out of some backwater neuron to t-bone my present-day thought process is to declare a statute of limitations. like i can burn down an entire building in the state where i live and the law deems it both unfair and illegal to prosecute me after six years have passed, i think that thing i said in high school can be expunged from my record.

Okay, but this is actually kind of genius.

My family has a related Policy called "The Five Year Rule". Five years after an embarrassing or dramatic event happens to someone, everyone else has to shut up about it. This rule was created to keep some of my aunts from bringing up shit from fifteen and twenty years ago at family dinners.

So if you need to set a statute of Limitations: If it would be fucking rude of your auntie to bring up at thanksgiving, it's rude for your brain to bring up at 3AM too and it needs to eat some mashed potatoes and shut up.

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"low support needs disabled people are often not believed to have a disability at all and therefore struggle to get accommodations."

"high support needs disabled people's accommodations are often seen as 'too much' and therefore are not met."

"neurodivergent people's needs are often dismissed because nothing is physically wrong with them."

"physically disabled people people often cannot physically access buildings and people refuse to do anything about it."

"invisibly disabled people are seen as lazy by society."

"visibly disabled people are ostracized from society."

IT'S ALMOST LIKE THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS A SOCIALLY ACCEPTABLE DISABILITY

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thebelfry

I just learned that the Russian word for “ladybug” translates to “God’s Little Cow”

It’s the same in Irish! bóín Dé!

in hebrew it’s “our rabbi moses’s cow”

Oh I love this news!!!!

Multiple cultures upon seeing a ladybug for the first time: “Who’s cow is this????”

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happyheidi

a little bunny looking at the stars in case you're having a bad day.

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women’s right to respect isnt determined by how fuckable you think they are btw

i do think body hair and fat rolls and weak jawlines and ext are sexy, but that’s not why women like that are deserving of respect for their bodies. fundamentally, if your response to bodyshaming aimed at women is to go “uh, well, i’d fuck her” you don’t get it. its not about sexiness, it’s about your ability to respect someone you dont find attractive and not bring it up at every available time and not generalize all women with a certain body type

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