Anakin is dead
Jacen is gone, kidnapped.
we’re all we have left,
yet we’re falling apart.
My hearts been ripped in fourths
with half of it missing,
one piece, up in heaven with ani
another in a room,
fighting to break free.
losing all hope.
We’re all we have left ben,
yet we’re the ones falling apart.
“Ben! Ben! Oh, Come on Benny! You have to admit it was funny! Don’t storm away from me!”
“I don’t know what to do anymore Jaina. This is who i’m meant to be, this is what i’m meant to do. Just fuck up everything and screw up out entire legacy. I’m a burn on the organa-solo name.”
’ why are all you solo boys so damn stubborn ’ leia spoke before wrapping her arms around her son. ’ now what’s going on? ’ she asked softly
“I blame our father.” Jacen muttered, a small laugh leaving his lips before he crumbled into his moms arms. “I did a bad thing, momma. I lied... It was a bad lie.”
You were my brother!I loved you!
"it is so long, I am so tired. I miss, Anakin.”
"i’m so tired, its been so long... I miss Jacen.”
“Too bad, I do. I’m not having my own twin hate me days before my wedding so either you talk or I talk.”
“What? What could you possibly want from me?”
Jaina ignored her brother, taking a seat beside him. “No. I’m not going anywhere Jacen.”
“Jaina please.” Jacen sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “I don’t want to talk.”
‘ come on, we are gonna go get coffee together whether you like it or not. ‘ // @betterxsolo
“I guess i really don’t have a choice in this matter do I?” Jacen sighs. “Lets go, Wanda.”
Jacen had never had a healthy way of coping with his feelings and life. The only thing he can attribute that too is himself. The Solo kids were never smart with their feelings. He thought he’d locked himself into his room, faking being caedus was draining his heart and soul and god was it hard. he was breaking down as the door found it’s way open and he really wasn’t sure to react when he turned to find who he found. “Go away.”
“Because, we both made the same mistakes not too far apart. You cannot keep pretending that you don’t need family, like we are the reason for you falling.”
“You are all the ones who are blaming yourselves for my falling. I didn’t blame any of you. I still haven’t blamed any of you. I blame myself. “
“I should be asking you the same.” Ben was heartbroken, he tried so hard to keep this from happening. “Jacen…Why?”
“This way i don’t need anyone but myself.” He said sternly, looking over at his brother. “Why not, Benjamin?”
wanda could sense something was up, but she didn’t bring it up. it wasn’t her place right now and she was here for ben, ’ me and ben are having a gender reveal party for the baby. I know it means a lot to him to have his whole family there. I want you to come. ’
Jacen turned to face the woman, Bens girlfriend. “You are pregnant?” He asks softly, before his eyes met her stomach and he nodded. This was as bad as a time as any for Jacen to fall, but what could he do now? “I will come.”
Luke winced at the sight of him. His nephew took such a hard turn in such a short amount of time or maybe it was a longer process than he realized he just wasn’t there for it. However, it felt like deja vu between Ben, his father and now Jacen it was almost like a never ending battle fighting against the dark side especially within his own family, “Yeah, you can resist this … Jacen.” Refusing to use the term Darth Caedus. Jacen was so loving, such a great father he never would have guessed he would fall to a fate like this. “What’s Allana going to think? She deserves better than her father to turn into this. Now come on, knock off his nonsense and come back to my apartment with me where I can smack some sense into you, will you?” He joked playfully, knowing this probably wasn’t the time or the place but he couldn’t accept this for him and he wouldn’t. There had to be something more he could do.
“What are you talking about uncle?” He asked softly, turning to look at Luke with a smile. “I’m completely fine.” He spoke once again about allana and for a moment, caedus faltered. He froze. Unsure of himself because she didn’t deserve this. “She wont see me for awhile.” Was all he said in defense for himself. He shrugged. “No one said i wont go with you. Nothings wrong with me.”
