— 008

you made a bouquet of crumpled petals today. it had crumpled petals and broken stalks.

it had daisies and yellow roses. you washed the blood off of them, coughing and nursing your throat as you did so, adding green stalks of leaves you brought the day prior and resting in a bowl of water so they didn’t dry out.

you made the bouquet, tying them all up with a ribbon you found lying somewhere in your house and then you placed it in a large vase filled with water. and then… and then what did you do? you couldn’t quite remember the course of events, they were all muddled up in your mind like scraps of papers blown away by the wind.

you sat on the ground, on the uncarpeted floor with the cool granite touching your thighs and feet, and rested your back on your couch and then you stared at the arrangement you had made. you felt quite psychotic as you did so but you were so, so tired. you thought you were quite deranged while you washed the petals of your own blood, the colour seeping into the sink in swirls, but your regret was belated.

you thought of the boy you had coughed up all those flowers for, and you had thought of giving him those flowers, and you had positively disgusted yourself of your own thoughts.

you felt pathetic for a while but you thought of hyunjin again and you coughed a little more but you were so tired, you couldn’t cough up any more flowers. you thought of the boy everyone loved so dearly; his parents, his friends, his lover. you thought of why you couldn’t stop loving him too, maybe a little more than you would have expected. you thought of the first time you had thrown up flowers - what a cruel world, your favorite flower and his climbing up your throat in painful contractions as you spit them out with specks of blood. you never knew when to stop loving, did you? you always loved a little more than was expected, didn’t you? well look at you now, and don’t you deserve it?

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𝙗𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙠𝙛𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙮 𝙠𝙞𝙙𝙨 ( 𝙙𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙙𝙖𝙮 𝙤𝙛𝙛𝙨 )

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bang chan — breakfast burrito

a combination of savory breakfast dishes rolled into one. perhaps homemade, perhaps from a drive thru. eaten while going to the studio after forcing him to drag you along for the day. he can’t resist you.

lee minho — cereal

eaten at the crack of dawn, ready for a busy day together. potentially eaten to save room for a hefty lunch. sometimes simple cornflakes, other times literal candy floating in milk. shoved down your throats while scrolling through social media.

seo changbin — bacon & eggs

“a hearty breakfast!” changbin says. constantly makes sure you’re eating well. usually splattered with ketchup. eaten together before he goes to the gym for a bit. occasionally during sunday breakfast at a local diner. ignore the fact that he’s 1% pig.

hwang hyunjin — crepes

served at an outdoor spot during special occasions. perhaps your anniversary, a birthday, or other festivities. served with other delicacies like croissants and cappuccinos. eaten as you wipe the chocolate syrup off the corner of his mouth.

han jisung — bagels

loves the versatility of bagels. sometimes savory, topped with salmon or egg and such. sometimes sweet, with cream cheese and strawberry jam spread on top. eaten as yours cut in half, his as a sandwich.

lee felix — french toast

a dish he learned to made from a traditional cookbook. a special treat to give you after a long, draining yesterday. eaten with a smile on your face, cherishing the love he put into it. served while he says “enjoy!” in french.

kim seungmin — pancakes

watched countless videos on how to make good pancakes because you deserve the best. decorated with fresh fruit on top. sometimes even a fruit-made face is on top. eaten while sitting on the kitchen counter lazily.

yang jeongin — frozen waffles

when you’re both too lazy to cook a proper meal. drenched in maple syrup and chocolate and strawberries and anything you could find. eaten while watching cartoons on the vouch. “because when are you ever too old to watch?” jeongin says. you agree.

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K-Pop Spotlight: Stray Kids

Stray Kids are back with their noisiest and most memorable album yet. To celebrate, we caught up with the self-producing boy group to talk about their second full album NOEASY, the new single “Thunderous,” and some of the lessons they’ve learned in the three years since their debut. Check out our full interview below!

Where did the inspiration for the album title NOEASY come from? Would you consider your Stray Kids sound to be noisy, and do you like that description?

Bang Chan: We did a little wordplay with the words “no easy” and “noisy,” meaning that in a world where things aren’t so easy, we will be noisier and noisier. I actually don’t mind people describing our music as noisy ’cause that’s what we’re trying to be. The loudest noise that everyone will remember!

Changbin: Since our title songs are typically powerful and performance-based, I’m sure some people think our music is a little noisy. With that said, some people enjoy that sort of energy. We also get energized and have fun on stage, so I think the expression “noisy” is a positive thing. The title NOEASY is a spirited response to all the noise that distracts us and gets in our way—to say that we’re not an easy match and we won’t back down.

You celebrated your third anniversary as a group earlier this year (congrats!)—what are some of the (harder) lessons you’ve learned over the years as a group that produces all of their own music?

Hyunjin: During these past three years, the things I’ve learned are the love of STAY and how to love more. Additionally, through countless performances, I think my stage skills have also improved.

HAN: I was amazed and thankful to learn that the songs I write and create can move people. I hope to continue making good music that will move more people and continue to touch their hearts!

Felix: I learned that it’s hard to reach many goals in life. However, over the past years, I’ve learned to ask for help and feedback from my members. As time goes by, we’ve strengthened our team play to overcome anything.

What’s the first song you remember loving, or what is one of your recent favorite songs?

Bang Chan: Out of Stray Kids songs? “Hellevator” because it was our first official song as Stray Kids.

Lee Know: I was told that when I was a child, I used to dance and sing along to the music on the radio that my parents would listen to. I think that’s when I first started loving music, but I can’t remember what those songs were!

Changbin: “개똥벌레” (T/N: This song translates to “Firefly” in Korean and is a nursery song.)

Hyunjin: I think my favorite song is “Secret Secret” because HAN and I share the same emotional wavelength, and the lyrics really resonated with me.

HAN: I really liked “D” by DEAN!

Felix: “Grow Up” is a song we always sang together with our STAY during our concerts and performances. This song brings back a lot of unforgettable memories for me.

Seungmin: Kim Dong Ryul’s “Drunken Truth”

I.N: My favorite song from this album is “Thunderous!”

Many of you were really into anime and exercise as your stress-relief/hobbies the last time we spoke. Tell us a little bit about what you are into these days, outside of your activities as Stray Kids.

Bang Chan: Umm, I’m still exercising daily, and these days I’ve been using Felix’s Switch to play games.

Lee Know: I either cook or go to a cafe to read a book.

Changbin: I like working out!

Hyunjin: I study art and draw. I like to have my own time of healing in my free time by watching other artists on YouTube.

HAN: I still watch anime, go on YouTube, work on music, and exercise. I think I tend to gravitate more towards things I can do at home rather than outside.

Felix: If I have the time, I go out bike riding, walk in the park, or look for some new recipes to cook for the people around me.

Seungmin: I’ve been enjoying taking vocal lessons and playing the guitar sometimes! I’ve also developed a deep interest in coffee, so I’ve been exploring different machines and flavors.

I.N: I recharge by laying in bed and watching YouTube or movies.

On these last few albums, we’ve seen some unit songs developed outside of the usual 3RACHA team. Do your members ever surprise or excite you by what they come up with when you’re working as a new unit?

Bang Chan: Yes, it’s always surprising and exciting! It’s really unexpected, and their ideas are really good, too, so it’s always fun to work as units.

Changbin: It’s even more inspiring and helpful when I hear other ideas outside of my own.

Seungmin: I was blown away by Felix’s rap and vocals in “Surfin’!” I remember being very pleasantly surprised by the originality/freshness of his self-written rap.

You’ve all grown so much as people and performers since your debut. How has that growth impacted your sound and the themes in your music?

Lee Know: As we’ve grown, we’ve widened our range of music and performances, which has allowed Stray Kids the ability to convey a broader range of expressions.

Seungmin: In my case, I think I’ve become a reliable vocalist for Stray Kids! In order to sing our team’s songs well, I’m honing my singing ability so that I can pull off any type of melody 3RACHA creates.

I.N: Our album contains songs of diverse genres, and singing this wide variety of songs has helped me grow a lot.

If you could have a meal with your families anywhere in the world tonight, what would you be eating and where?

Bang Chan: Just having a normal dinner with the fam at home would be nice.

Lee Know: I think it would be the best if I could have a home-cooked meal with my family at our home in Gimpo. There’s no place more comfortable than that, and Soonie, Doongie, and Dori (our cats) are there, too.

Changbin: I want to go to Australia and eat steak!

Hyunjin: I want to visit Japan with my parents and go to a hot spring again. I’d like to eat the grilled skewers that we had there last time.

HAN: I would like to have a BBQ party and grill tons of meat like chicken, beef, pork, lamb, etc. It would be fun to rent a vacation home and just eat and have fun!!

Felix: I’d love to eat in Australia with my family at a nice, big, fancy restaurant, just enjoying the view, the food, and having the time of our lives together.

Seungmin: I would like to cook and enjoy a meal together at home. It’s the best when you can eat good food and have good conversations in a comfortable atmosphere!

I.N: I would like to grill and eat pork belly in Hawaii while looking out at the ocean.

Want more of Stray Kids? Check out their second full-length album NOEASY and the music video for "Thunderous" here.