@windfighter / windfighter.tumblr.com
My brain feels flatlined, but I also have to keep jumping from thing to thing to thing because I can't let myself think whatever's going on up there because I can tell it's not good and I hate it here and I just want to crawl into bed and pretend I'm Kouji until I fall asleep but I also don't want to go to bed because I'm going to start crying the moment I do and I just want to...
I just want to be left less alone
Tell us where you live! Submitted by @elicrumb
Torturing Kouji again >:D I probably won't finish these stories to torture the rest of y'all with, but at least the depression is good enough that I can get some words done again!
Progress!
First the people at the genderclinic tell me I can't be a man if I wear red and I go "fuck it then I guess I'm a nonbinary man if that's what it takes to be allowed to wear my clothes" and then they go "well if you're not a man you can't get HRT"
and I just...
I wish I could just die
I watched Tango's episode of building his redstone-shop and now I have this very stupid idea for a shop I want to make.
...a shame we don't have a shopping district x3
another picture of my absolutely ridiculous raft, I love it x3
Pfff, Iskall got stuck in the horse-parking outside the permit-office x3 I hope that led to at least some horse!Iskall-arts :P
did some arts at art workshop today :3
My pet x3 I dunno what it was about this picture that made me go "I want this as my background" but he looked so stupid I just had to change it, otherwise I'd probably still just have the default one 😹
There was a tiny, black cat in Junpei’s hands. Grip firm, holding the cat with outstretched arms as to get it as far away as possible. Takuya blinked. Junpei did as well.
”Is… is Kouji here?”
”He was yesterday”, Takuya answered and stepped back inside.
Junpei followed him, cat still held at arm’s lenght. Didn’t even kick off his shoes.
”What’s with the cat?” Takuya asked.
Grabbed his wallet from a table and put it in his back pocket. Junpei huffed behind him.
”It’s a hellspawn is what it is.”
Takuya laughed. Junpei didn’t and the laughter died out just as quickly. Takuya opened the door to the study.
”Kouji?”
”In here.”
Ah. Takuya closed the door with a smile and went to the bathroom instead. Opened the door and leaned against the doorframe. Kouji was in the bathtub, arms resting on the side and his head on his arms.
”Want to join?” Kouji asked and smiled.
”Would love to”, Takuya stepped inside, leaned down and gave Kouji a kiss, ”but you have a visitor and I have errands to run.”
He dipped his fingers into the water. It was warm and Takuya frowned. Kouji would usually take a cold shower and not soak in the tub.
”You’ll still be here when I get back?” Takuya asked.
”Probably”, Kouji closed his eyes. ”I’ll hide in the study if you’re bringing someone.”
Junpei peeked inside and Kouji opened his eyes again, frowned when he noticed the cat. Takuya buried his fingers in Kouji’s hair, felt his head move as his eyes traced over Junpei.
”Gia is gonna be mad”, he laughed. ”Shoes off, Junpei.”
”Yeah, yeah”, Junpei didn’t move to take them off. ”I need your help.”
”Is it urgent?”
Kouji closed his eyes again and leaned back, let his arms sink down into the water. Takuya sat down on the edge of the tub, kept his eyes on Kouji. He could still see Junpei move in the corner of his eyes.
”Is it urgent?” Junpei repeated. ”Is it…”
He lifted the cat a bit higher, as to make a point. Takuya snorted.
”Take this hellspawn before I drown it in the tub with you.”
”You wouldn’t”, Kouji said.
Didn’t move. His eyes were a little too closed to be relaxed, but he wasn’t hunched over or holding his hand against one of his sore spots. He was in pain, Takuya realized, but not more than a five. He grabbed Kouji’s hand and squeezed it. He wouldn’t want Takuya’s help for anything less than an seven.
”I need to leave now”, Takuya said. ”I’ll be back in a couple of hours.”
He stood up, dried his arm and gestured for Junpei to go back out. Junpei didn’t move until Takuya grabbed his arm and turned him around, dragged him out of the bathroom and closed the door.
”Give him ten or so minutes”, Takuya said as he let go. ”Then he’ll be ready to help you with… whatever this is.”
He gestured at the cat, who chose that exact moment to let out a stream of pee right on Junpei’s shoes. Junpei’s face got red, lips thin, and Takuya put a hand infront of his mouth to hold back a laugh. He patted Junpei’s arm.
”I’m sure the two of you can figure it out.”
With that he hurried to the door, grabbed his coat and left before Junpei could do anything. He shook his head as the door closed. He just hoped the cat wouldn’t be there when he returned.
How wide can I make this thing before it's just silly? x3
Had a dream that Etho recorded a whole episode WITH A FACECAM
so weird
I don't remember what happened in the episode because I was way too distracted by his face being there ^^'
Can't log in to twitch for some reason. Ah well, I did well before I discovered hermitcraft streams I'll do fine without it.
