to be soft and gentle when the world wants you to break : that is bravery.
TEDDY LUPIN - loved by ari.
to be soft and gentle when the world wants you to break : that is bravery.
TEDDY LUPIN - loved by ari.
to be soft and gentle when the world wants you to break : that is bravery.
TEDDY LUPIN - loved by ari.
to be soft and gentle when the world wants you to break : that is bravery.
TEDDY LUPIN - loved by ari.
to be soft and gentle when the world wants you to break : that is bravery.
TEDDY LUPIN - loved by ari.
just letting y’all know: i’m archiving teddy and moving him to a new blog. i’ll reblog this post with the new url !
Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell To Arms (via thelovejournals)
heaven is found in every kiss given , short and shallow breaths taken as he traps any further sounds behind his lips . no direction needs to be given , no pleas drawn out by lack of satisfaction . teddy knows the map of his body as well as an astronomer knows the map of the stars . it feels strange — being the center of this universe . he’s so used to merely playing a small role in someone else’s , own desires ignored and others hailed . but teddy and him are equals . ‘ sat–satisfied . ’ breathless voice reveals too much , body already melting for the other’s touch . his hands move to rest on teddy’s hips . a soft hum , ‘ — maybe . ’ silence is allowed to tease for just another moment before he speaks again . ‘ i like it when … you tell me what to do—what you want . ’
beautifully undressed of timidity and surrendering to the warmth of desire : xeno is a wonder to watch when he puts away the defensiveness that he carries on daily. blue eyes linger over the newly - formed love bruise on his boyfriend’s neck before they move back to the boy’s face. satisfaction fills him and he leans in once again , lips hovering over xeno’s upon hearing the confession and rewarding it with one more kiss , this time longer and slower. his hand finds comfort in the other’s curly hair and begins to play with a few strands , his voice disturbing the fervor filled silence. ‘ take off your shirt , then. ’ he shifts slowly , sitting up straight and letting his weight into xeno’s lap while his hand travels down from his hair to his mouth and fingers begin to trace the outline of his lips. ‘ and don’t quiet yourself down. ’ hips give one small roll before he shifts again , giving room to his free hand to slide underneath the material of xeno’s sweatpants , resting on top of the forming bulge. ‘ i like knowing what you enjoy. i want to please you. ’
technimorph replied to your post: does anyone have any tips on how to distract...
It’s such a lame ??? Thing to say but I’ve been really into meditation apps at the moment. That and listening to podcasts ???
ahh yeah that sounds good!! i can’t install anymore apps on my phone because i have very little storage space but podcasts sound good
chamberofmuses replied to your post: does anyone have any tips on how to distract...
Do you make icons? I find making them and listening to instrumental music helps, it’s the repetitiveness. Any repetitive activity might work the same like knitting or tetris etc.
hi! yes, i do. i think i might try that later today. thank you so much
does anyone have any tips on how to distract yourself / get rid of triggered induced panic ?
Lately I’ve been seeing people discuss why ‘genderbending’ isn’t transphobic, or why it’s something that’s fine and should be accepted. Most of the people who have been discussing this are cis, which is an issue right off the bat, so I’m going to preface this post by saying that if you are not trans, you do not have the right to determine what is or is not transphobic. Full. Stop. So if you’re cis, and your first instinct is to argue with me on this, I would like for you to consider why you believe that you can recognize transphobia better than someone who is routinely subject to it. That being said, let’s get into this.
To start off, what is ‘genderbending?’ Most fansites will define it as the act of ‘switching’ a character’s gender, but there’s already an issue with this. ‘Genderbending’, or ‘rule 63’ as is called in some circles, it not just about switching a character’s gender, it is about changing that character’s body as well. I have yet to see a ‘genderbent’ version of a male character who lacked breasts and a dfab body. This the first and most obvious reason why ‘genderbending’ is inherently transphobic - it assumes that physical traits and gender are the same thing, and that you cannot be female without also being dfab. This is cissexism, and this is transphobic. The message that ‘genderbending’ says is that you must have breasts and a vagina to be female, and you must have a penis and a flat chest to be male. I should not have to explain why that message is transphobic.
However, the way ‘genderbends’ are carried out also has distinctly transphobic implications in how it switches out the physical traits of characters to make them ‘the opposite gender’ ( the notion of there being ‘opposite genders’ is some fresh bullshit that I’ll cover later in this post ). For example, by giving a male character breasts and curves when ‘genderbending’ him, the message is clear that this character was cis to begin with. ‘Genderbending’ inherently implies that all characters are cisgender by default, and erases any possibility of these characters being trans. This is not as overtly transphobic as the first point, but it is harmful to trans people within fandom spaces, as the assumption that all characters are cis until explicitly stated otherwise pushes us out of media and removes whatever representation we might try to make for ourselves.
The third issue with ‘genderbending’ is that it is always cis male <—> cis female, and nothing else. I have never seen people ‘genderbend’ characters by making them nonbinary or intersex. I have never seen a genderbend of a female character which made her a trans male instead. ‘Genderbending’ implies that there are only two options when it comes to gender: cis male and cis female. There is no such thing as nonbinary people within this ideology. Intersex people are laughable at best. Agender people are little better than a distant myth. ‘Genderbending’ ignores that it is impossible to make a character ‘the opposite gender’, because there is no such thing as an ‘opposite gender’. Gender is a spectrum, not a binary, but you wouldn’t know that from the way fandom spaces treat it.
Of course, there are some reasons for ‘genderbending’ cis male characters into cis females that will always get brought up in discussions on the politics of ‘genderbending.’ The most frequent is that cis girls, who only see themselves as one-dimensional characters in media, want to have characters like them who are just as multifaceted and developed as the male characters that we are given, so they make their male faves female to give themselves the representation they desire. This is a decent reason for ‘genderbending’, but it does not excuse the fact that the way in which ‘genderbending’ is done is inherently transphobic, and it gives fans yet another excuse to ignore female characters in favor of focusing on their male faves.
Another reason for ‘genderbending’ that I’ve heard is ‘it’s for the sake of character exploration - like, what if this character had been born as male/female instead?’ This excuse is cissexist and transphobic from first blush. The idea behind it is that someone ‘born as female’, aka with breasts/vagina will automatically be a cis female, allowing fans to explore what that character’s life would have been like if they were female. Why not explore the possibility of a character being designated female at birth, but still identifying as male? Why do you need a character to be cis for you to find their personality and life interesting to explore? Why do you automatically reject the notion of your fave being trans? If you want to explore what it would have been like for your male fave to have struggled with sexism, consider them being a trans woman, or a closeted dfab trans person.
As a closing statement, I want to make one thing very clear. ‘Genderbending’ does harm trans people. It perpetuates dangerous cissexist notions and the idea of a gender binary being a valid construct, erases nonbinary and intersex people, and others trans people. These are what we call microaggressions - they are not as dangerous as outright harassment and assault, but they enforce and support a system and ideology in which we are other, and we are worthy of hate and violence because we do not fit in.
‘Genderbending’ is a transphobic practice, and if you engage in it, you need to be aware of and acknowledge this.
❝ alright ! umm ——— right how about ‘ tonksy ’ ❞ contemplation takes over her features now in matters of potential monikers for her person . ❝ ——— or ‘ two-left-feet ’ what do you think ? . i think that one suits me better ❞
‘ that’s too obvious ; everyone knows you’re a clutz. the point to code names is to not be obvious. duh. ’ index finger taps against his chin as he hums in contemplation. ‘ how ‘bout something more... dramatic. like storm. ‘cause you’re a storm on legs ? it sounds like a vague superhero name , too. pink storm ! on second thought , that sounds pretty... toxic. ’
kind gestures do nothing to soothe the hurt inside of him . xeno does not want tea and food . let his stomach growl and ache as much as it wants . what he wants is for teddy to say his name , to show him a sign . something that says i forgive you . fuck the ministry’s opinion of him and fuck every wizard who shall look at him with disgust and disdain . the only opinion that matters to him is that of this man and his family . he wishes that thin fingertips could cling to hope and optimism for understanding but with every passing second it becomes harder to hold on . maybe all is lost without it even beginning .
the help is accepted for lack of a choice , weak frame struggling to keep him upright as he transitions from land to the boat . eyes still avoid any contact with the other , instead focusing on the floor of the boat . teddy’s arm is held onto tightly , as though it is the one thing tethering him to this earth and protecting him from the towering walls of azkaban , but abandoned once he is sat down . clothes are also taken with hesitance , fingers brushing over the soft and clean material in slight awe . none of this feels real . any second now he expects to be pulled out of this strange dream and slapped by the cold hand of reality .
no thanks is given , manners forgotten in the years of torment that fill his mind . small talk seems to have left him behind too , all means of communicating trapped behind a wall of fog . the old him , the one untouched by twelve years of torture , has been locked away , disconnected from the shattered soul he has become . he doesn’t know himself anymore . he doesn’t know teddy anymore .
any family ? the words slice through him like the sharp edge of a knife ; an injection of hurt finally driving his gaze up to the other man . ‘ family ? ’ he doesn’t know that word . not anymore . he thought he found a family once , one in which teddy had been the sun , but nothing good has ever lasted . ‘ no— no family . ’ it hurts to know but it hurts worse to say . biting down on his lip , he’ll give a slight shrug , once again dropping his gaze down to the floor . ‘ i’ll figure something out . anywhere’s better than here . ’
after waving his wand towards the boat and muttering a spell , they are both sent into the cold waters of the ocean under the protection of edward’s patronus. teddy finds himself sitting in front of the ex - prisoner wiith a ghost smile painted on his lips , like hope clinging to the dreadful wasteland haunting the earth. his eyes shift from the palace of death to the man who was now free.
features shift from peaceful to worried , brows furrowing as lips begin to press together and form a thin line. this is what edward found inhumane : the reintegration of the prisoners was ignored , no matter the crime committed. ‘ i’m sorry. ’ it’s a silent apology spoken in a whisper as eyes avert to the floor , head hanging in shame , which origins he cannot pin point. he is doing his job : fighting for law and order , fighting for a better and safer future - yet he feels like he’s walking over principles every time he cannot do more for the people in need. ‘ i hope you.. i hope it will be alright. ’ edward regards the man with one last gaze before he finds the horizon. only one more hour before they reach the transition point.
silence falls over them. it feels heavier than the dreadfulness that surrounds azkaban. it has never been like this. the weight of this man’s confession crushed edward’s heart ; empathy is a cursed thing to have in the amounts that he has. his sigh gets lost in the gentle breeze of the ocean. even the world is silent.
‘ you’ll , uh , you’ll be able to have your wand back the moment we’re in london. ’ the tone of his voice is quiet , almost as if he’s afraid of startling the other. ‘ i think that will feel amazing , won’t it ? ’
softer than moonlight , tougher than war. rules.
if you don’t know kesha’s songs by heart are you a true millennial?
writing a new post because the other is a bit dated now.
hi, my name’s danny, i’m trans, mentally ill (bipolar, anxiety, depression), physically ill, and living in an abusive household. i dont get to eat as much as i should be eating due to government fund cuts (our foodstamps and my benefits, specifically, which have been completely taken from me). not eating is bad for both me and my dad, as i have POTS syndrome, endometriosis, and borderline diabetes, and my dad has heart problems and diabetes.
i was going to go to new york this month for school and was denied the final thing i needed to attend: the last loan which would have covered my price completely. there’s no supplement available that could have covered the price so i was forced to withdraw and i’m being forced to stay with my dad for another 4 months to a year, i dont know, i have to look into local enrollment and see when that opens.
so as a result, i’m still not eating, i still don’t have food. if you have any spare cash you can comfortably give, my paypal is hghars@aol.com and i have a google wallet, that email is samthebravehobbit@gmail.com. if you want a doodle or graphics in return, please contact me to work out a price.
graphic example, art examples.
hi, um, while this is still a concern for me, my biggest concern right now is transitioning. i need like 11 thousand dollars, the only surgeon in my area charges 10,880. while i highly doubt anyone here can accumulate even a scintilla of that, if every person following me was able to spare 10 dollars, i’ve have 800~ shy of what i need. and that’s ENORMOUS.
if you can spread this – to people who might be able to – that would mean. everything to me. i’ve hit a breaking point with my transness; our state rescinded trans health care so i have no other options.
HIS BODY Y AND MIND EASE INTO THE CONVERSATION / lips running against a chuckle seating the boy in impish outbursts. ‘ favorite is too kind, tolerable is more like it.’ he is on a timbre of calculation in which eyes designed of humor ripple, wanting to pick apart the idea of fun. ‘ and for fun we read and clean here.’ he , teddy always brought comfort alongside the push of mirth and it settled him quickly. ‘ you must be sick to want to hang out with an old man like me boyo.because i don’t do fun’ he stands and goes over to teddy brushing back his hair. ‘ so let's go we got a lot to do.’ he hides the smile in his eyes and walks out the room , he’d turn it fun but he need some help first.
‘ tolerable ? incredible ! ’ fake offense takes over his visage , leaving his mouth hanging open before he sits up and follows after sirius , lips quickly returning to their grin. ‘ huh , that sure must be fun. you are the soul of the party , aren’t ya ? ’ the darkness that nestled in the house’s hallways contrast with the young boy : he’s tall and bright in every aspect , his blue hair bounces with every step he makes , his eyes are clear skies trying to shed light on everything they land on. to see sirius’ amusement only further improves teddy’s mood. ‘ they should send me to st. mungos once we’re done. i can see the headlines : boy driven insane by sirius black’s party. ’ he all but chuckles at his own joke , lips pressing together before he speaks again. ‘ alright. where do we start ? can i use my wand or are we doing it the old style ? ’