6/21/2017-6/25/2017 - People

My weekend have me in my thoughts.

I always get these thoughts that I’m not good enough. That I’m not a good enough friend and what if it’s true? But is this based off one person’s opinion? Why do I keep letting other people’s opinion affect me, whether it’s good or bad (mostly bad)? I guess I just don’t want to have a negative affect on people. On the other hand, people are gonna not like me for whatever reason.

Idk...part of my damn overthinking. I just can’t let things be but you just constantly think this and think that. It has it’s good and bad.

All this when I was missing someone a lot.

-KB

6/16/2017-6/20/2017 - An Old Feeling Again

Based on these particular dates, an old feeling came back again. I’m just glad someone had a good time. :)

-KB

6/11/2017-6/15/2017 - Just Staying In

Actually idk why I even gave it this title. Like I had realized that this isn’t the weekend and during the week. I mean all I did WAS stay in so there’s that.

Nothing so interesting, but I did get some good news which will affect me soon.

Still waiting to hear on other news.

I just really need to move out. That’s what this week was all about really.

-KB

6/6/2017-6/10/2017 - Something Different Again

As of right now, yes I am behind in writing my blog posts. And to be honest, I kinda have forgotten about those days because it’s just wasn’t interesting enough or I really forgot about it.

So instead of me just skipping days, I figured I would group up the days. the next couple of blog posts will consist of five consecutive days.

Just trying to do a little something different.

It’s just that there’s been a lot on my mind lately. And I feel like I need to either do some self-evaluating or just take a hiatus from everyone. At times I don’t know where to go or what to do or sometimes who to talk to.

It’s like my mind is wandering. Like I’m not kind of myself but it’s not as bad as you think.

I mean I go to work and just come back and chill. Sometimes no excitement at work or inbetween work or when I come home. I just go into my bed and it’s Netflix, Tumblr, and just talking to people...and also the lack of sleep.

And even struggling to get up, especially with the weather getting hot at times.

I mean I am okay believe it or not. Just stuff on my mind. That’s all.

-KB

6/5/2017 - 5 Days Again?

I guess considering that last week was a 4 day week, it was unusual to start working on Monday again.

Other than that, just another Monday.

-KB

6/4/2017 - Up Till The Morning

Just a random story that came being bored at home.

So I remember going to a hookah lounge with my best friend and her cousin. They invited two other guys that were trying to get with them. So of course I was the fifth wheel.

Anyway, after we left, we were all deciding next moves, so we all sat at the bus stop. We ended up sitting at the bus stop and talking till the sun was bright and out.

It was too the point that we got more drinks...well my best friend and I.

Then I’m hearing things about getting a motel and all this stuff and I’m like oh Lord.

And it’s about 7-8am in the morning when this happens. While I’m just there drinking and having to use the bathroom and wondering what the fuck am I gonna do next.

Eventually the guys left and it was just best friend and her cousin. We eventually hung around more and just all decided to go home.

Be aware that by the time I decided to go home it was like 11am in the morning.

Interesting night and morning, I should say.

-KB

6/3/2017 - In The Park

It was a very nice day...so what better way than to hang with my best friend, her kids and her baby daddy?

I feel like I haven’t been in a park setting in a long time. Then again I had no reason to go to the park.

But it was nice. That’s all.

-KB

6/2/2017 - Vision

I am kinda glad that I got vision insurance. It’s the PERFECT opportunity to go to the eye doctor, get a regular exam and get new glasses and possibly contacts.

Believe it or not, the glasses that you’ve seen in my selfies are pretty old. I believe since my junior year in college...so 7-8 years old.

So yeah it’s about time I get new glasses and possibly contacts. We’ll see how this goes.

-KB

6/1/2017 - Other Stories

I’m writing this because I’ve had to deal with stories. What do I mean by stories?

This might be a response to my blog post about “right person, wrong time”.

I think the point here is that we can only create our own story by us. Something about creating stories from others and that you shouldn’t create your story based on other stories or rely on others stories for your own story.

That’s all. Not gonna go through this.

-KB

5/31/2017 - Right Person And Wrong Timing

So I saw this Tumblr picture of a page from some book that hit me...as Tumblr will at time.

It mentioned about the right person and wrong timing. Based on previous experience, I kinda always believed in this. Like in some situations, the right person comes in your life but you can’t be together or try something out at this particular time.

But then it said if the right person came at the wrong time, then it’s possible it’s the wrong person. If it was the right person, time wouldn’t be a factor. And that we’ll be too dependent on the factor of time instead of figuring out that that “right” person is wrong for you.

And I thought about it and there is a good point but I don’t think it’s so simple. I guess I’m always trying to find a loophole to things because I always feel like there’s a reason for everything. Not everything is black and white. So if you feel it’s the right person, do whatever you can to make it that right person. On the other hand, don’t depend on time to just figure it out because if that’s the case then maybe it is the wrong person.

All I know is that since I read that page, that’s all that I’ve been thinking wondering if it’s really true or not.

-KB

5/30/2017 - Day Off Mode

You know it’s been a long time since you’ve had a day off when you really don’t want to do work at your office.

This is the first time in a while that I’ve been so lazy and I don’t like this feeling.

Maybe because it’s a short week.

Maybe because my boss is still in Cuba.

But nope...gotta get out of it. I hate that I can be really lazy when it hits me. Blah

-KB

5/29/2017 - Unofficial Start Of “Summer”

I put the quotation marks around summer because it hasn’t felt like summer at any point since the year has started (except for like 3 days).

Memorial Day weekend usually symbolizes the unofficial start of the summer. Like half the schools are out and it’s supposed to be a sign of warm ass weather and that was not the case.

And I didn’t go to any cookouts. Tbh, it was not cookout weather. Maybe it’ll change 4th of July weekend.

Still should be a good summer.

-KB

5/28/2017 - Curiosity

There’s a deeper meaning to this work “curiosity” and I’m not going to explain it. I mean it’s a funny reason behind “curiosity” but things didn’t go so well after that word was brought up. I mean I’m fine. It’s just...idk.

Just something I can’t really explain.

-KB

5/27/2017 - Age

Is age really a number?

Our whole lives we equate our age with something in our lives. And sometimes you have to be a certain age to do something. Think about it.

You should be 4 or 5 starting Kindergarten

You should be 14-15 starting high school.

You should be able to drive by the time you are 16.

War at 18; an adult 18; legally drink at 21 and so on.

What about love? IS there an age for that?

Love is such a weird emotion because it can come at you at ANY point in your life. Some experience earlier than others. Some experience it twice, thrice, multiple before they find real love.

It intrigues me when someone says I’m *insert age* and I haven’t found love yet. I never understood that. There’s no age requirement or limit when it comes to love. When it happens, it will happen. I mean I didn’t experience love until I was 24. Yeah I dealt with love and heartbreak but it’s a part of life.

As for others that haven’t experienced it yet, there’s nothing wrong with you. Maybe it’s a good thing you haven’t found love yet. Maybe God is being extra careful with you so that you can go 1/1 when it comes to love. It’s hard trying love over and over and over again. Some people have hope and some people just give up unfortunately because they feel why try again.

And I get that you may be the odd one out of your circle of friends or out of your peers that hasn’t found love yet. So what? That’s them.

There’s no formula, There’s no right way. It just happens. I just wanna make sure that people who read this realize that it isn’t their fault. Love will come. If it takes longer than others, then so be it. Live your life. Take chances. Do what you can to make your life happen and then love will come out of nowhere and you won’t even know it.

Just some thoughts I had after a few conversations.

-KB

5/26/2017 - Free Happy Hour

It was Friday and my boss won a free happy hour.

With that in mind, all of my co-workers went out after work for free drinks basically.

I don’t usually do happy hour but I’ve never been so lit during happy hour.

We were allowed two free drinks and drinks in regular were five dollars. I had five drinks in total.

I like how we all wanted to get Long Islands but it’s not part of happy hour. We’d have to pay 12 bucks each. I just like how that was our mindset after a long week into the three day weekend lol.

But it was a very good time.

My co-workers are fun.

-KB

5/25/2017 - Too Much Rain

Another rainy day...that’s all.

-KB

5/24/2017 - More Finances

Had another meeting downtown dealing with my job’s financials and it was good.

Idk...I get a good feeling when I’m dealing with this. I mean all I’m really doing is helping the CFO we got for helping us with our financial books.

Sometimes I wonder if I should’ve majored in finance. Or maybe I can go back to school or take some type of courses dealing with finance.

We’ll see how this goes.

-KB