CALAMITY'S CHILD.

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[  revamping.  ]  an  mcu  loki.  interpreted  by  evan.
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julien baker lyric sentence starters.

this is a list of lines from songs by the american singer-songwriter julien baker, intended for use as roleplay sentence prompts.  feel free to change pronouns, details, etc. to better fit your muses’ situations if you wish.  enjoy!
  • ❝  wish i could write songs about anything other than death.  ❞
  • ❝  you’re gonna run when you find out who i am.  ❞
  • ❝  i know i’m a pile of filthy wreckage you will wish you’d never touched.  ❞
  • ❝  it’s not easy when what you think of me is important.  and i know it shouldn’t be so damn important, but it is to me.  ❞
  • ❝  i know i shouldn’t act this way in public.  ❞
  • ❝  give me everything good and i’ll throw it away.  ❞
  • ❝  there’s more whiskey than blood in my veins.  ❞
  • ❝  i’m sorry for asking, but please, come take me home.  ❞
  • ❝  i’ve kissed enough bathroom sinks to make up for the lovers that never loved me.  ❞
  • ❝  i’m staying in tonight, i won’t stop you from leaving.  ❞
  • ❝  i know that i’m not what you wanted, am i?  ❞
  • ❝  you don’t have to remind me so much how i disappoint you.  ❞
  • ❝  maybe it’s all gonna turn out all right.  ❞
  • ❝  but there’s a comfort in failure.  ❞
  • ❝  i know you were trying to help but you’re only making it worse.  ❞
  • ❝  tell me you loved me.  ❞
  • ❝  is it real or a dream, which is worse?  ❞
  • ❝  lord, lord, lord, is there some way to make it stop?  ❞
  • ❝  i was just wondering if there’s any way that you made a mistake.  ❞
  • ❝  if it makes me feel better, how bad could it be?  ❞
  • ❝  i’m not fooled when you tell me that you’re glad i came.  ❞
  • ❝  i know i should be being optimistic but i’m doubtful i can change.  ❞
  • ❝  i know there is nowhere i can hide from your humiliating grace.  ❞
  • ❝  i know it’s a bad time, but there’s no one left for me to call.  ❞
  • ❝  damn it, we are gonna figure something out.  ❞
  • ❝  i just don’t want to be alone.  ❞
  • ❝  when is it too many times to tell you that i think of you every night?  ❞
  • ❝  i could be cruel.  ❞
  • ❝  i could make you hate me.  ❞
  • ❝  it’s not that i think i’m good, i know that i’m evil.  i guess i was trying to even it out.  ❞
  • ❝  isn’t that what you want?  for me to be miserable like you?  ❞
  • ❝  well, brother, you’re about to get your wish.  ❞
  • ❝  i can’t be fixed, so help me.  ❞
  • ❝  i’m better off learning how to be living with demons i’ve mistaken for saints.  ❞
  • ❝  i take it all back, i changed my mind.  ❞
  • ❝  knock me out again.  ❞
  • ❝  how far do you think i can go beneath before you won’t follow me there?  ❞
  • ❝  i want to let you break my heart.  ❞
  • ❝  i want to let you break me.  ❞
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continued from @epiphonoi ------ here

Was it morally repugnant of them, Loki wonders, that they did not feel anger, outrage, upon waking up to learn that Thanos had completed his quest, had erased half of the universe as he had intended?  To speak plainly, it was not as if, like most of the universe, Loki had lost lives dear to them in the incident, as they had had the fortune of experiencing any deaths that may have caused them distress beforehand.  No, it was as if the dolourous cloud of hopelessness and grief that seemed to have settled over Midgard in the wake of the, ah, dust settling was infectious, and Loki was having to breathe it in as well, with every slow inhale.

Loki stares out at the profile of Adrian Veidt from their makeshift sickbed, at the human who had plucked them from the wreckage of one of his own buildings and cared for them while their stubbornly tenuous skin and bone knit itself together, and wonders at what the Avengers might be feeling right now.  Veidt was apparently a retired vigilante, and had not even been involved in the physical fight against Thanos ------ and even he had that faraway, dulled look in his eyes, the sort common to those who had come back from terrible wars.  Likely the Avengers were sitting in their compound, feeling the bone-crushing weight of the knowledge of their failure, letting it settle, letting it cloy.

It was a feeling Loki was intimately acquainted with, of course.  Perhaps the Avengers too would learn that the pain dulled itself with every repeated blow, that it helped to simply stop expecting success from yourself.

Thanos is dead, apparently, and the stones ‘no longer a threat’.  Likely destroyed.  There really is no going back, fixing it.  Loki wonders how well the Avengers are taking that, as well.

Loki is silent, for a minute, after Adrian has spoken.  They have not been conscious for very long, have not had the chance to think of what to do with their future, in a universe that was free of Thanos but half-dead and shell-shocked.  There are more immediate things that can be done, though ------ there is nothing about the sight of Veidt so listless and dull-eyed, as if he has lost the one thing remaining to him, that pleases Loki.  They had been there, once.  For Loki it had been their sense of self.  For Veidt it had evidently been hope.  The future.  Loki would certainly have told him how foolish it was to make such a thing one's sole motivation, had they known him --- before all this.

They are not entirely sure what they are doing, but finds themself doing it anyway --- and although it is two feet that touch the floor upon getting up from the sofa, soon it is four that start padding silently toward Veidt, and a small black cat nudges with its head at the mortal's leg, looks up at him with too-intelligent eyes.

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tagged by:  stole from another blog of mine haha tagging:  anybody who wants to !!!

ZODIAC  SIGN:      aries    |    taurus    |    gemini    |    cancer    |    leo    |    virgo    |    libra    |    scorpio    |    sagittarius    |   capricorn    |    aquarius    |    pisces

MYERS - BRIGGS: ESFP    |    ISFP    |    ESTP    |    ISTP    |    ESTJ    |    ISTJ    |    ESFJ    |    ISFJ    |    ENFJ    |    INFJ    |    ENFP    |    INFP    |    ENTP    |    INTP    |    ENTJ   |   INTJ

FOUR  TEMPERAMENTS: sanguine    |    melancholic    |    choleric    |    phlegmatic

CELTIC  ZODIAC: birch (the achiever)    |    rowan (the thinker)    |    ash (the enchanter)    |   alder (the trailblazer) |    willow (the observer)    |    hawthorne (the illusionist)    |    oak (the stabilizer)    |    holly (the ruler)   |    hazel (the knower)    |    vine (the equalizer)    |    ivy (the survivor)    |    reed (the inquisitor)    |    elder (the seeker)

SOUL  TYPE: hunter    |    caregiver    |    creator     |    thinker  |    helper    |    educator    |    performer    |    leader    |    spiritualist

ALIGNMENT:     lawful good    |    neutral good    |    chaotic good    |    lawful neutral     |    true neutral   |    chaotic neutral    |    lawful evil    |    chaotic evil

DARK  TRIAD:      psychopathy    |   machiavellianism    |    narcissism

THE ANIMAL IN YOU:      lion    |    tiger    |    dolphin    |    bear    |    wild cat    |    fox    |    weasel    |    badger    |    dog    |    otter    |    wolf    |    sea lion    |    wild dog    |    walrus    |    gorilla    |    deer    |    rhinoceros    |    hippo    |    sable    |    horse    |    sheep    |    mountain goat    |    warthog    |    zebra    |    baboon    |    elephant    |    bison    |    giraffe    |    cottontail    |    mole    |    bat    |    porcupine    |    beaver    |    prairie dog    |    shrew    |    mouse    |    eagle    |    rooster    |    owl    |    swan    |    peacock    |    vulture    |    penguin    |    crocodile    |    snake    |    rabbit

ROSENBERG  SELF  ESTEEM  SCALE:      0    |    1    |    2    |    3    |    4    |    5    |    6    |    7    |    8    |    9    |    10    |    11    |    12    |    13    |    14    |    15    |    16    |    17    |    18    |    19    |    20    |    21    |    22    |    23    |    24    |    25    |    26    |    27    |    28    |    29    |    30

BRAIN  LATERALIZATION  TEST:     left [19.6%]   |   right [80.4%]

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i bet loki is one of those people who feels kind of nervous whenever someone does something for them without having to be persuaded or without asking for payment or a favour in return because nobody is truly that altruistic, especially towards me, they must want something, this will probably backfire on me somehow, what do they want
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self knowledge questionnaire take it here! 

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NEEDINESS

Being affirmed and nurtured by others is a central requirement for you to feel safe. This means you can be slow to warm up to other people, which is difficult because what you most need from them is their warmth. Yet you know how to be vulnerable: to let down your defences and accept that you need another person. This lack of pretence is a valuable trait, and ultimately more endearing than the macho efforts others make to deny their childlike sides.

AGGRESSION

One part of your character is anger in all its forms: frustration, outrage – and when anger is suppressed – bitterness, grumpiness, and bodily aches. Fundamentally, frustration comes from hope: you get upset because you expect your life will be more than a valley of tears. One way to deny aggression is to direct it inwards, as self-criticism. But you’re at your best when you acknowledge anger, and act it out clearly and in a focussed way, with honour.

EXHIBITIONISM

There’s a strand in your nature which loves making an impression – perhaps with your clothes, or conversation, or in a self-revealing blog or a novel. You like to dramatise yourself, to pose as a unique, perhaps mysterious person, to joke or exaggerate your part in adventures. Though you might more than once have been called a show off, it is actually a generous tendency: you want to please and entertain others. It could be the start of good teaching and leadership.

tagged by: again tbh at this point this quiz is a necessary rite of passage for my muses tagging: anyone who wants to!

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Warmth                      |||||||||   26% Intellect                      ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||   86% Emotional Stability     ||||||   14% Aggressiveness         ||||||||||||||||||||||||   74% Liveliness                   ||||||||||||||||||||||||   78% Dutifulness                 ||||||   14% Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||||||   58% Sensitivity                  ||||||||||||||||||   54% Paranoia                    ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||   90% Abstractness              ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||   82% Introversion                ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||   90% Anxiety                       ||||||||||||||||||   54% Openmindedness      ||||||||||||||||||||||||   78% Independence            |||||||||||||||||||||   66% Perfectionism             |||||||||||||||   46% Tension                      ||||||||||||||||||||||||   78%

tagged by: i was encouraged to steal it from @whatwakes tagging: steal it from me!!!
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tryingmother

IF YOU ARE OKAY WITH ICONLESS ROLEPLAYS REBLOG THIS SO YOUR FOLLOWERS KNOW !!

like as much as i love icons and a good psd, sometimes its just tasking to do. and not everyone has great resources. so if you’re okay with having threads with no icons, please reblog this so that people know you’re okay with it. i feel like roleplayers today are too focused on the aesthetics and won’t follow people who use base icons or even none at all. it’s not about icons, but about the writing !!

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what is your character reluctant to tell people?

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crucial muse development questionsaccepting! // @theninthxian

anything related to the prejudice and self-hatred they turn unto themselves regarding the ways they never fit into asgardian culture. their jötunnheritage and the resulting internalised racism. their sexuality and the resulting internalised homophobia. their gender identity and the resulting internalised sexism/misogyny/transphobia. and just. general ways in which growing up the way they did fucked up their self-esteem and self-perception in general. so honestly the most accurate answer that touches upon all bases would be everything that they perceive as part of a weak personality, because they hate to think of themself as weak or flawed in any way which just makes it funnier that they have like 10000000 personality flaws lol but those are the more specific things that they would hate to vocalise.

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(dooo it)

OKAY SO iron man is obviously cha seung-won i’ve been recommending this face claim for months now. tbh jung woo-sung has also been saying in interviews that he’d fucking love to play iron man and i’m here for that too lolol. natasha romanoff? is an ethnically korean russian and she’s jung ryeo-won. honestly an ethnically korean nat would be really interesting!!!!!!! because there are actually hundreds of thousands of third, fourth generation ethnically korean people living in formerly soviet territories and it would actually be really interesting to delve into that & incorporate that into nat’s story. bruce banner? i’d recommend someone like lee beom-soo or jung woong-in (love that goddamn guy he’s such a fantastic actor). thor is jang hyuk from his role in chuno. loki is WITHOUT A DOUBT no minwoo esp from his role in the sword and the flower. (his fam name is no, which is HONESTLY a mood and i wish my fam name was no.) clint barton is probably lee byeong-heon but honestly i don’t know clint very well i’ll have to think on this. steve rogers already has korean face claims thought up by the quality asian!cap @wonwars but i do believe she uses lee joon-gi and song joong-gi and park seo-jun and i am honestly 1000000% here for that.

delving into making even more of the white aesir asian, odin can either be lee soon-jae or baek yoon-sik, the two go-to actors whomst korea goes to for the Grandpas With Gravitas so i’ll accept both of them. volstagg has to be ma dong-seok the artbox manager of my heart. sif? claudia kim sovereign of my own captive heart. or lee yeo-won works too. fandral can be like idk hyun bin. lololol i know amora the enchantress isn’t in any mcu movies but i love her and so she can be jun jihyun or han ye-seul. i would personally go with either chae si-ra or jeon in-hwa for frigga.

as for other white mcu characters, someone like gong hyo-jin as pepper potts. won bin as james buchanan ‘bucky’ barnes. (honestly lee byeong-heon would work for bucky too but i don’t want to be unoriginal.) shin se-kyeong as sharon carter. and idk i can’t remember any other white mcu characters now but honestly throw me some names and i can come up with some korean actors w/ similar vibes.

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headcanon questions---accepting! // @myosi

👕: What is your muse’s fashion sense like?

this is something well-documented in the thor & avengers movies; loki seems to favour a lot of black and green leather with gold highlights, and seems to wear variations of that basic colour scheme during different occasions, in battle, when chilling in the palace in asgard, etc etc. and when on earth, loki wears formal suits while on earth in thor 1, in the avengers, and in thor: ragnarok, so they must have at least a general idea of what is considered acceptable, presentable formal wear on earth. tbh i feel like if loki needed to pick out more casual clothes among the earth styles available, they’d probably go for unisex clothes that would be considered more on the goth/alternative side and in mostly the same colour scheme they wear on asgard.

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what the fuck is wrong with my character?---accepting! // @wonwars

5. a trait they’re not ashamed of (but maybe should be) / @perusine sent this in as well, thank you bb!

their ruthlessness & willingness to do things that are nooooot morally acceptable for whatever goal they have in mind, whether it be for their own gain or for someone else they care about or as part of some larger plan. although tbh i feel like the events of thor: ragnarok are kinda getting loki to reconsider being like this---but not really for the right reasons ajlfksdgh

6. a bad habit

lashing out at other people because of internal emotional conflict / pain.

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How does your muse score on the Hare Psychopathy Checklist-Revised?
On each criterion, the subject is ranked on a 3-point scale: (0 = item does not apply, 1 = item applies somewhat, 2 = item definitely applies). The scores are summed to create a rank of 0 to 40. Most people score around a 5. Anyone who scores 30 and above is probably a psychopath.
- Do you exhibit glib and superficial charm? 2 - Do you have a grandiose (exaggeratedly high) estimation of self? 1 - Do you have an excess need for stimulation or proneness to boredom? 2 - Are you a pathological liar? 2 - Are you cunning and manipulative? 2 - Do you have lack of remorse or guilt? 1 - Do you have shallow affect (superficial emotional responsiveness)? 1 - Are you callous or do you lack empathy? 2 - Do you have a parasitic lifestyle? 0 - Do you have poor behavioral controls? 2 - Do you have a history of sexual promiscuity? 1 - Did you display early behavior problems? 1 - Do you lack realistic long-term goals? 2 - Are you overly impulsive? 2 - Are you irresponsible? 2 - Do you fail to accept responsibility for own actions? 2 - Have you had many short-term romantic relationships? 2 - Do you have a history of juvenile delinquency? 1 - Have you experienced a revocation of conditional release (broken probation)? 0 - Do you display criminal versatility? 2
MY MUSE’S SCORE: 30 / 40
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