Life is tough.
I couldn't get more stressed... HAHA Year 2022 is not for me. But I still have 4 months left pa naman since it is just Sept 1.
I just thought that this year would be the year of my progression, productivity, wealth, health, gaining knowledge, etc. But it is the 9th of the year and yet I am still here, laying in my fucking bed, blogging about some shit that happened in my life. Lol.
Ain't it funny? The last time I blogged was last April. I had a job way back then, a job that I wanted so badly, but why did it become so hard that I really wanted to escape there, thinking that it ruined something in me? I resigned. I just woke up one day, thinking that that day would be the day I would file my resignation... and I did. All I was thinking was, "Ayoko na don, ayoko na, di na ako babalik". I just can't stay anymore. I don't want to. So yea, I did what I really wanted to do.
I am hella confused, but there was this feeling of ease in me... like there was a nail detached from me. But I wanted a job. I didn't want to be jobless, so I tried reaching out to Kia. She is working at DMCI Homes in Makati. I was given an opportunity and was scheduled for an interview. I studied and practiced for that interview. Yet I still made a mistake and blew my chance. So yea, I was rejected. It hurts... but what can I do? I made a mistake, so I must learn from it. And maybe I did. lol
I tried for MDC and MDC Buildplus. I was accepted at MDC Buildplus because of Krishna. I made an effort to be part of that company! Really... so it was very hard for me to go and leave that company because it was another dream come true for me. and I put effort into them. But life.. life is confusing, hard, and it would not give you what you really wanted without you being in a hard situation. I don't know. That's life for me. I always have to choose between two things that are actually good.. like I have to choose between "better" and "best" with their best features, including each other's differences in benefits. Did you get my point?
So yea, I decided to leave MDC for what I think is a better purpose and a better opportunity for me. It is for Fluor. I just hope that this company will be a company that I can last a long time. I don't want to go anywhere. I want to be here. I want to learn here! So please, life... I know it seems unfair, but please... help me overcome all these. I just want to have a job.
- engr. banaag 090122;1046pm