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@justepilepsy / justepilepsy.tumblr.com

Diagnosed with epilepsy. This is not a blog led by medical professionals, but a private blog used to share experiences and interactions related to the subject.
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Out of curiosity, does anyone know anything about Epidiolex, or use it? It's a possible prescription for me, and I'd like to know as much as I can before actually getting it prescribed.

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justepilepsy

I recommend talking to your pharmacists about it. They often know a lot more about these meds than the actual doctors and can give you a lot of info and advice!

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Anonymous asked:

WIBTA for saying I’m epileptic?

Background: I (17M) have multiple seizures a week, typically 2 - 4. I’ve been in and out of hospital getting investigations done into the cause since July of last year, when they started. The doctors don’t know the cause. Currently all they’ve given me is “non-epileptic, possibly trauma based.” The seizures are typically grand-mal, tonic-clonic, (if you don’t know what this means, picture your stereotypical epileptic seizure) lasting between 10-30 minutes. Sometimes there is multiple recurring immediately.

Now this is fine. I’ve accepted it. The issue is I never know what to tell people when they happen. Paramedics almost always get called when they happen in public—understandable. But then after when people are checking up on me (and I do appreciate this) they always have so many questions I don’t know how to answer. At first I would tell people, “yeah, I don’t know the cause, the doctors think maybe trauma” I would maybe 8/10 times get “oh, so you can control them?” “so you’re faking them?” or roughly something along those lines. And let me tell you—I am tired. These seizures are so draining, especially at the rate they’re currently happening. I’m so tired of having to explain to people what it is, and why I don’t know what it is, and answering all their questions when they don’t know the terminology I’m using. I feel like it would just be so much easier to say I’m epileptic, because that’s how my seizures present, and people know what epilepsy is and I don’t have to go into any details. At the same time, it’s not epilepsy and I feel like maybe I’m taking space away from actual epileptic people.

Of course, I would tell the paramedics and people who need to know/people I’m close to the truth. I just feel like I don’t actually owe these other people any details, and it IS personal. But I’m not sure. WIBTA?

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Hey Anon, I don't think you are the antagonist. This is not taking space away from people diagnosed with epilepsy. People are not obgligated to know your trauma/medical history. And especially in moments post seizure, it is better to focus on getting into a safe and stable environment, rather than being bombed with questions and stuff. First off - Epilepsy and seizures don't need an identifiable "reason" to occur. Epilepsy is a cummulative diagnosis covering a multitude of seizure disorders (specifics to exist though). People with non-epileptic seizures are welcome in epilepsy community spaces in my books. No matter what may cause your seizures, I think it is better to stand in solidarity than alone.

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Do you ever think people with epilepsy get so pissed when the 9000th game they've tried to play or movie they've tried to watch has the waring? Becuase I see that flashing warning almost everywhere.

I’m glad when there’s a warning because having no warning when it needs one is worse, but I also get frustrated that like… cyberpunk 2077 has the same amount of warning as animal crossing. Incredibles 2 has the same amount of warning as a considerate show with a scene with a few camera flashes. That sort of stuff. I wish warnings were better and more specific because everyone has different thresholds for what will trigger them.

I see, I want to clarify I meant it in regards to so much media having flashing not the warning itself

Oh then yeah, absolutely, the worst part is that when we bring it up as a criticism a lot of the times we get dog piled like “not every piece of media is for you”. Or “what did you expect?” Or “if you were really photosensitive you should know better than to play video games or watch movies”.

The amount of times the epilepsy community has pointed out how dangerous Spiderverse or Cyberpunk 2077 are (as examples, not the only ones) and how it’s not necessary and been met with responses like “but you can’t smother their artistic vision!“ or “so you want to take that scene away from the rest of us?!” Is honestly awful. These sorts of attitudes are super prevalent, so we honestly haven’t gotten much further than begging for proper warnings a lot of the time.

I like to say that the bar for inclusivity for people with epilepsy is at the center of the earth and companies still manage to tunnel under it because we’re currently stuck at a point where we’re begging for keep out signs. Not even to be part of the audience. And certainly not to see ourselves onscreen. I hope we can manage to progress to the bar at least being non the ground (meaning us being able to be part of the audience) but unfortunately I feel like things have been moving in the other direction, where flashing lights are only becoming even more prevalent.

(Sorry for the long reblog, I just have a lot to say on this topic)

Reblogging again because more people should see this

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In uneventful news. I forgot to take my meds

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sirislayer

So I made a video about those things I've been thinking about related to Somerton's recent Response Video.

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justepilepsy

shameless self promotion, I actually made a video, especially after the ask about the fact that there's not that many known to be epileptic youtubers out there, I figured I might as well just rewrite the talking points of my previous posts. thanks to @brainbuffering for proofreading

@haikyuupaladin for checking out the script and in general for the mutuals and friends who gave me the audacity to insert myself into that situation like I have no shame.

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Very Silly Concept: a show called "Accessibility Nightmares" but it's structured exactly like Kitchen Nightmares. An accessibility specialist goes to different establishments and helps them make their businesses more accessible.

The accessibility specialist asks why the door at the top of the small set of stairs has a wheelchair symbol on it. The owner replies that's the accessible bathroom. The camera zooms in on the specialist as they process this information.

Gordon Ramsay staring in disbelief
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A customer with a service dog comes in to a restaurant. The hostess tells them they don't allow dogs. The accessibly specialist looks over at the hostess like

Gordon Ramsay looking at something with shock and alarm
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And there are web accessibility episodes too. The accessibility specialist stares at the white text on the light pink background of the home page like

Gordon Ramsay resting his hand on his chin as he stares with a pained expression, eyes squinting
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The specialist asks why not a single product picture has alt text, and the business owner says "Well I mean, it's makeup, why would a blind person be shopping for makeup?" The specialist just

Gordon Ramsay staring with a look of shock and disbelief.
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The specialist asks the web designer how a screen reader user is supposed to complete the captcha portion of the password reset process when there is no audio alternative. The designer admits they don't know.

#this post has 10k notes to me

When you left this tag three days ago, I thought "that's so sweet, but no. No way this concept is even close to that popular."

[ID: Four pictures of Gordon Ramsay in various states of confusion. /end ID]

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kittydesade

This is it. This is my job. This is what I do for a living. I make those faces and then I tell my uncaring monitor exactly what is wrong with this website and what the site owner needs to do to fix it with all the fucks I can’t put in official work documents sprinkled liberally throughout.

And now I will be picturing Gordon Ramsey when I do it.

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Okay uhm - I need to say this because I am noticing this a bit in the responses to Somerton's "Apology" video. Do people really think, just because ableism in the workplace is forbidden, that workplaces don't discriminate?

Even if insurance stuff covers your health issues, I won't put it past an employer to let you go with the made up argument it doesn't. Because non-epileptic people are generally very uncomfortable with seeing seizure activity and some of them will prioritize their comfort over sticking to anti-discrimination laws.

I think Somerton's video is full of BS, but I am even more uncomfortable with how happy people are to dismiss Somerton's medical history/symptoms, just so they can argue against him. As if people with disabilities can be absolved for being dicks by accepting their stated medical and discrimination history.

When you don't even have to do so to point out the harm Somerton's logic does?

I mean - I think it's warranted to question James' statements because of his complicated relationship with telling the truth, but I am just kind of bothered by how people argue "this could not have happened because laws/policies" No. Let it have happened. It makes his apology worse if you choose to believe him on this, trust me.

If our response to disabled people acting terrible (stealing other people's material and presenting it as your own), is to accuse said disabled people of lying about their symptoms and diagnosis, I think we are missing the point and problem.

It's also incredibly difficult to take a company to court if they are discriminating against you, especially if they're a small independent one. So yes, I can absolutely believe that Somerton would be let go. i myself, have faced workplace discrimination because of my disability. Where I was told I was "not a team player" because of the procedures I needed to put into place to prevent seizures. My attempt to BE a "Team player" resulted in my seizure count trippling.

Beyond anecdotal evidence, I would like to point out that workplace discrimination is illegal in the UK too. And yet the office of national statistics show that only 34% of people who have epilepsy as their primary condition are in employment.

So for once, yes, there is plenty of site able evidence to back up Somerton's claims. As justepilepsy has said, we cannot start to question disabled people about their workplace experiences, nor fall for the ongoing rhetoric that if something is illegal than it never happens. The law is often just a slip of paper, and as any history student will tell you: De Jure change does not lead to De Facto change.

Sommerton's attempt to blame his disabilty for why he chose to take claim for the work of other people from minorities, to spread lies and falsehoods, and bully people into silence is despicable. He is trying to throw all other disabled people, specifically those with memory issues, under the bus with him.

Do not let him do so, on the pretense of social justice.

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Okay uhm - I need to say this because I am noticing this a bit in the responses to Somerton's "Apology" video. Do people really think, just because ableism in the workplace is forbidden, that workplaces don't discriminate?

Even if insurance stuff covers your health issues, I won't put it past an employer to let you go with the made up argument it doesn't. Because non-epileptic people are generally very uncomfortable with seeing seizure activity and some of them will prioritize their comfort over sticking to anti-discrimination laws.

I think Somerton's video is full of BS, but I am even more uncomfortable with how happy people are to dismiss Somerton's medical history/symptoms, just so they can argue against him. As if people with disabilities can be absolved for being dicks by accepting their stated medical and discrimination history.

When you don't even have to do so to point out the harm Somerton's logic does?

I mean - I think it's warranted to question James' statements because of his complicated relationship with telling the truth, but I am just kind of bothered by how people argue "this could not have happened because laws/policies" No. Let it have happened. It makes his apology worse if you choose to believe him on this, trust me.

If our response to disabled people acting terrible (stealing other people's material and presenting it as your own), is to accuse said disabled people of lying about their symptoms and diagnosis, I think we are missing the point and problem.

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Hey! Agreeing with your James Somerton post. I also have epilepsy! I’ve been living with it for most of my life and I’m also in an academic field that requires a lot of writing. Even after my seizures I’m able to recognize my own writing compared to others, and I’m still able to cite my sources correctly in my writing. I think it’s a really terrible excuse to pin a career of plagiarism, misinformation, and misogyny on epilepsy (among other things, but still). I would really love more epileptic representation on youtube, but not from people like him :(

Hi Anon, this is so real. Personally I suspect that a lot of people actually just don't mention their epilepsy, even when they make Youtube videos, because it is difficult to explain and carries a lot of stigma.

To my knowledge Stanzipotenza (active on YT and TikTok) has non photosensitive epilepsy, some of her videos may not be friendly for photosensitive audiences (but I enjoy her skits a lot). https://www.youtube.com/@Stanzipotenza I also want to shoutout @moviehealthcommunity youtube channel, with some great content and movie evaluations in video form! Link here!

With all that is going on with James, it is of course obvious, that a diagnosis is no guarantee for a person's content to be the right fit, nor to contain accurate information.

I don't know if I want to rack myself into the "YouTuber" list, because it really is just a hobby for me and I don't see myself actually growing much beyond what I currently have earned by making mostly fan-animation content for the adventure zone.

Could people share, if they know YouTubers who have mentioned their Epilepsy Diagnosis???

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In case anyone of you has been following the reveal of James Somerton's fragrant Plagiarism via Hbomberguy's "Plagiarism and You(Tube)

James Somerton has released a second response video, which may be more collected and calm, but he mentions his diagnosis with epilepsy and therefore the memory issues he suffers from as a reason for how the rampant continous plagiarism was possible to happen over and over again.

I believe him in saying he has memory issues. (I also believe him that he got fired because of his epilepsy, because sadly this is a very common occurence!)

I personally am not convinced, that memory issues cause you do copy-paste entire books and a multitude of articles into a script, close the doc, open the doc the next day and go "wow i definitely wrote all that, let me read it into the camera".

I don't remember a lot of the things I am saying, especially in verbal communication. Friends quote me back constantly and a lot of times I don't remember, I can only say "this sounds like something I would say".

My memory is very bad at times, and terribly accurate at others.

I know there are different types of memory issues.

But I can not - for the life of me - ESPECIALLY when I know I have these issues, imagine that someone with memory issues does not include pasting a link to the SOURCE of the text they are copying into their word.

I also am pretty sure, one would recognise their own writing style, even when not remembering writing something... especially in like - longform text formats.

I think also - when having a co-author, I would lean towards asking the co-author to check my writing for instances of accidental plagiarism, in order to stop it from happening (again).

But maybe this is just me. Am I being overly harsh here?

I don't want to shoot against someone who is also epileptic without reason. Please share your thoughts.

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Anonymous asked:

Hi!

This question isn’t directly at you, but I’d really appreciate it if you shared your insight as well. I just wanted to reach an audience that has epilepsy or some kind of seizure disorder.

Does anyone else have a really low mood when taking lamotrigine? I was recently upped to 800 mg and my depression is taking over. I know different people have different reactions but does anyone else who may be or has been on lamotrigine experience this?

Thank you again and I really appreciate your blog in making people like me feel less alone. Take care

Hi anon!

The question is very medication specific and I can not speak from a pharmacist perspective.

I did take lamotrigine in the first few years of my diagnosis and it didn't work for me personally. I don't remember if it affected my mood or caused me issues with depression etc., because a lot of that could also be chalked up to being an angsty teenager at age 13-16.

So I'm passing this one on to everyone else to share their experiences and opinions.

Please keep in mind that this is obviously very subjective and the side effects of medication can be hard to prove.

I hope you have a great day and take care of yourself! ☆ thanks for your kind words ! 🙏

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Ngl it kind of sucks that the term Photosensitivity is not just referring to neurological reactions to light (contrast) stimuli, but that it also refers to an actual SKIN??? condition causes by exposure to UV Light

Which is like.. I get it. Both is like shit reaction to light, but there is a difference and it sucks i cant search for studies about photosensitivity without running into skin research about an unrelated phenomenon that ALSO HAS TO DO WITH LIGHT

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cpunkhobie

"disability only exists because the world isnt accessible" idk how to tell you this but chronic pain still hurts

i like the sentiment and i think its true in many ways, but people with mobility issues will still have mobility issues in an accommodating world, people with sensory disabilities will still have those disabilities in an accommodating world. and thats not including neurodiversity where two people with the exact same disorder will have very different experiences with them. like there's not a world where someone with agoraphobia wont be scared to leave the house just cause outside is more accessible

i dont think it accounts for the wide range of disability experience and caters more to low-support needs people. i think life would be so much easier if being disabled was less stigmatized, but disability wont just go away once it is

you can't autism proof a bright summer day, but you can normalize stimming and using sensory aids in public

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I think I mentioned this before, but I kinda wanna talk some more about how Hazbin Hotel balances photosensitivity issues. It's not perfectly safe for all levels of photosensitivity, especially if you are sensitive to red colours in general, but I think the show does some interesting things to mitigate and find a decent balance. There are very few moments I personally find get to a general uncomfortable level of photosensitive effects, over all speaking scenes that are usually a definite issue for me in shows, are not in this one. It is odd how a show targeted at an explicitly adult animation audience, manages to be more balanced and smart in its visual problem solving approaches than Oscar Nominated/Winning general audience/family entertainment. This is not me saying "all adult animation usually is bad", but it is me saying: From a show targeted towards an older/mature audience alone, I have less expectations in terms of content sensitivity and health safety, than let's say, a show targeted at a younger demographics. Younger demographics, especially children and teenagers are at a higher risk to experience photosensitive reactions such as seizures (which can be deadly), than the average adult. Also I am saying: please do not ramp up the photosensitive effects in season 2, I would very much like to watch it.

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