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a fragment of my very complicated mind.

@all-usernames-are-taken

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Hello , long time no post.

My life has been unhealthily stuffed with school assignments and exams. This and the fact that I am lowkey sadistic made me write this small story that you will see below.

I hope you enjoy the ride. ( any comment would be very helpful and appreciated )

Disclaimer : this takes place in a moment during the end of the world. It is , very chaotic.
Oh my dear, would you join me in my lonely kingdom, where I have lived for so long alone ? The mirrors got tired of my reflection; and the walls did not listen to me anymore, where the emptiness outside filled my soul. But now , the wind is not the only sound I hear, each one of your footsteps left blooming flowers behind. On the outer side, screams are rising, and the people , are frightened . Yet, how can I be scared, when I am with you ? Hence , do not listen to the crying of the people, only listen to my voice. My beloved , would you take my hand , and hold it tight? Shall we engage our slow dance in the dark? With the only melody of our heartbeats leading the steps. Let us live , here and now, in a place, only we know, because for too long, I have lived dead in the shadows. So , my lovely, hold on to me. And taking our final breaths, let us say I love you one last time , before the clock calls our death. Outside , they say the world is  ending. But I do not believe it, because my world is right in front of me . My precious , let us hug eachother, let the  flames of our hearts shine so bright they burn us .The moon , is  jealously looking at you, and for the millionth time, I am desperately falling for you. I am okay with dying , my only one, if the last person I witness is you smiling. I remember your warmth and light everytime I look into your eyes. Tell me, is there any worries left in your heart ? Let us stop the time, and forget about the universe and it's problems; to drown in each other's embrace, till we both run out of breath , both run out of life. There could be a million troubles , yet how dare I let them trouble me , when there is only one of you ?
While the flames slowly consume us , let's rejoice in our deathless death , for beyond our bodies , lies a thread that connects both of our souls. A thread that can never be cut , even by the most destroying tools. For I would trade the whole galaxy, to gain one last moment with you. So my endearing, would you join me in my lonely kingdom , and keep it's gates tightly closed ? For one last moment , allow me to show you my isolation , and be lonely with you. While the apocalypse is rising, your gaze is the only thing I pursue, and before the world ends us, let me close my eyes , my adored, one last time, with you.
And here , in our desolated sanctuary, we will wander, the walls will remember your graceful footsteps and my lonely ones , and we will forever dance happily with ease , and no flame will ever shatter us.
We shall finally rest, in an eternal peace.
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Essays

Here’s a (non-exhaustive) list of essays I like/find interesting/are food for thought; I’ve tried to sort them as much as possible. The starred (*) ones are those I especially love

Literature + Writing

Art + Photography (+ Aesthetics)

Cities

Philosophy

History

The sea/ocean

Assorted ones on India

Sports (you’ll have to excuse the fact that it’s only cricket but what can i say, i’m indian)

Music

Gender

Food

Fantasy (mostly just harry potter and lord of the rings)

Travel

More random assorted ones

happy reading :)

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✨💛 This is the Amazing Person Award! 🏆Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you're amazing inside and out 💛✨

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Thank you ( ͡  ͜  ͡ ) ill definitely do so.

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aloi-unknown

My first post here we go

Am I the only one who has figured out that they kin a character that they knew about for a long time and then you felt absolutely stupid because it was so obvious and it took you that long to realize that you kin them.

I just figured out the other day that I kin this man and he has been one of my favorite characters for forever.

I most probably relate to this with erwin smtih.

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sallysoot

another tag game!!!

make yourself in this picrew and tag your friends !! <3

Well I’m kinda next-door-carefree-girl types 🙄😶 atleast I think so😂😂

Hey I kinda love this game💕

Thanks for tagging me….@keya-123 and @cheeseburstthoughts

I tag…

Enjoy!!!✌🏼💕

Thank you @nostalgic-ni7

Here s mine and i kinda look like that ¯\_( ͡◡ ͜ ͡◡)_/¯

Feel no pressure to do it

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chierei

Tagged by @esperata

Rules: google/search your name + your favorite color + the word ‘aesthetic’. take the first four (non collage) photos and viola you have your aesthetic moodboard! then tag your friends and moots to join.

This is way more on-point than it probably should be. xD

I wasn’t tagged but I really like this one so I thought I’d do it anyway

That’s actually pretty nice

Y’all don’t have too

Oh but I will

@compromisedandconfused (Idk I don’t have many people to tag sorry-)

don’t worry about tagging me babe it’s all good

This makes sense ʕ ꈍᴥꈍʔ

(i'ma just tag my fav people on here, k)

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madiesunny

Space vibezzzz! Thanks for the tag (^-^)

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mochiffon

Aaaaaa i love this sm

ok tagging @turtleduck-enthusiast @ghost-of-emerson @flat-as-a-board @imadethiswhileonzoom and anyone else who wants to do this! :3

I have come to the conclusion that I love moodboards

Tagging: @pinkknight999 @bookdragon1811 @rain-cesia523 @double-o-boze and anyone else who wants to do this!!!

thanks for the tag! 

mines very random :/

tagging with no pressure: @mochiffon@authorofemotion@why-cant-arson-be-my-hobby@bobrossisalegend@nofurtherquestions-smirk​ and anyone else who wants to do this

oooh thank you for the tag!

ok i made this with canva and it looks very nice tehe

i actually had to search for a bit because turns out searching “leaf grey aesthetic” doesn’t get you very far lmao. thank you for the tag, cinder :)

[Image ID: a moodboard of four red aesthetic themed images. The image in the top left hand corner is of a red vinyl record with two roses, one red and one white, laying on top of it. The image in the top right hand corner is of a street at night  lit up with red, you can see the sidewalk and the shadows of 5 people. The image in the lower left hand corner is a neon sign that reads “Sweet Dreams” with a heart in the middle, it is written in a curly font. The image in the bottom right corner is  of a room containing some tropical plants, you can see the moon shining through the window and there is a red light coming from the left./End ID.]

thanks for the tag!! i have to admit having my name the same as my favorite color was weird but I had fun with this. 

Also, this is my first image ID so please let me know if i need to fix anything!

tagging @gramsbutmoreaggressive@m1keythemage@sukis-girlfriend@raiising@simping-for-everyone​ and of course all my mutuals and whoever else wants to do it

[Image ID: A moodboard of four blue aesthetic images. The first image is a black silhouette from the chest up of a person with long straight hair wearing cat ears and holding a knife against a dark blue background. The second image is of pale blue bubbles trapped under cracked ice. The third image is of a sky at twilight. There is a crescent moon in the center, pink clouds in the top right corner, and dark blue clouds in the top left corner. Black silhouettes of two hands stretch out from the bottom corners with the fingers slightly curled, a star shining between them. The last image is a blue tinted photo taken at night of streetlights and buildings near a road./End ID]

Love your aesthetic Red. Thnx for the tag :))

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icylemonade

Searched petname but yeah✌️

Tagging anyone who wants to do this❤️

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tag 9ish people you wanna know better/catch up with

last song: west coast smoker by fall out boy

last film: run

currently watching: voyager, slowly

reading: recently finished call down the hawk by maggie stiefvater

craving: being wrapped in warm blankets and also the sims 4

i tag: from @spocksbrainzone

awww thanks for tagging me in this last song: movin right along by the muppets 2021

last film: rise of the guardians (again)

currently watching: scream queens, penny dreadful, monk

reading: delusions of gender cordelia fine

craving: a nice long midnight walk and also wreckless possible crimes like urbexing and also to spend time with friends and also a break from the baby for a day

Last song: My Past Is Not Today, remix by Sawtooth Waves

Last movie: Equestria Girls: Rollercoaster of Gayness Friendship

Currently Watching: Everything is either over or on a hiatus so nothing

Reading: The Inkheart trilogy, again

Craving: For my WIPs and fanfiction ideas to be magically written.

Last song: Peace and love on the planet earth

Last movie: Night at the museum

Currently watching: I’m desperately trying to catch up on the dream smp adjhshjshskfh

Reading: we need to read ‘To kill a mockingbird’ for school

Craving: Ben & Jerrys chocolate fudge brownie/Dnd/Chaos/a Binder sooo y’know, the usual

Last song: There’s nothing holding me back by Shawn Mendes

Last movie: I think it was Cam? Might’ve been something else 🤷‍♀️

Currently watching: My Hero Academia

Reading: The Song of Achilles

Craving: The warmth of my bed, coffee or bubble tea, popcorn

Thank you for mentioning me @el-loves-writing and also thank you to @revolution-of-art :)

Last song : true friend by bring me the future horizon ( if anyone checks it out its a great song but its hard metal just to prepare you)

And also id like to add lemon boy by cavetown , its a very good and soft song

Last movie : its an animated movie about Anne Frank s diary its very intresting that's it if anybody s intrested :

Currently watching : im actually watching a podcast about a guy in my country which talks about his experiences in prison and its surprisingly very enriching and intresting

Currently reading : the manga of AOT

Craving: I have been really wanting to just go to a deserted cliff in a forest during a beautiful starry night and just stare at the moond and the stars or look at the constellations and falling asleep with this little cold breeze of fresh air ( anyone wanna join? )

And well whoever sees this and wants to do it id be glad to know more about you

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Not all people might understand the depth of this, im too tired to write my full opinion now but what i want to say is :

Losing the person you truly cherish and love in the purest way in the world, is one of the most painfully experiences one can go through.

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Since tomorrow s the last day of 2020 i just wanted to say something before everyone starts putting up these meaningless things, to me at least.

New year is NOT new beginnings.

When the clock will hit 12:00 AM tomorrow at night no fairy is gonna appear with a magic wand and open new doors for you. Its just a new day.

Ive never really understood why people celebrate the new year, scientifically it symbolizes the earth having completed a full turn around the sun, but we tend to forget that everyday symbolizes the earth having fully turned on itself. Therefore why dont we celebrate every new day too?

What im trying to say, is that every day could open a new door for you do not stand here and wait till new year's eve comes to start setting your goals .

Pursue your dreams everyday.

Thank you for reading.

Have a happy new day and a happy new year.

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Hello hello if anyone sees this i hope you re doing good

There is something that has been troubling me these days. We all know the famous saying " Time is money" and ive been realizing not many people understand what it really means.

Most people will think about the materialistic side of this saying , however i dont see it that way.

Time is money

If you spend your time well, its like you re making good use of money

If you waste time, it's like you waste money

Its a very simple concept that i see here

It would be the same as saying "Time is love" or even "Time is kindness"

But people chose to put money instead. Why? Because its one of the most if not the only object that will always be valuable and worth while in the eyes of human race. Which is , i think , truly a shame. People these day can't see how precious love is, probably because it doesn't have a price tag on it.

That's it for today hope you liked your stay in one of my thoughts

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ya know it hasnt been an hour i downloaded tumblr but i have that desire to just talk about everything and anything

to just start discussing life or death or how they re connected how they are manifested and understanded or about kindness and the world and the people and food and music and books and quotes and mythology and gods and sexuality and religion and a million more topics but then i realize that if i do that its just gonna be a big fat mess ... AND we dont want that

Lord help me manage and organize my thoughts and not just spit everything out and make it non-understansable ... amen

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Genuine question...

Do you ever get the feeling that you wanna scream to the whole world something you ve been bottling inside for so long? Something you find so clear ,something you find that the rest of us need to realize or discover, something so obvious you really get that screaming desire to just say this thing to everyone you meet/on every social media you have?

It can be anything , an idea, an opinion or a comment an emotion or a feeling that affected you, litteraly anything.

I dont know maybe im the only one that felt this, but if anyone happens to kinda understand what im talking about id be gladdd if you told me

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Hello this is my first post on december 27 th of 2020, the "chaotic" year

And before the year ends, id like to share a bit of my thoughts about it

Ive seen the chaos going on all over the world and in my country as well, ive lost many close people this year without adding the disastrous state my country s in and my personal issues

Though with all of these, i can still say that its just another year of my life, nothing really makes it different from the others. The world has gone into many pandemics and crises and it will still most probably go through more crazy events like the ones we re living currently, that's what is making me sceptical about the subject. The world and the populations living inside of it are surely and definitely evolving a lot and i can clearly see societies and the way people think is also changing. But to me , this is probably the year where ive learnt and discovered things i couldnt even imagine. Plus it was very intriguing to see how humanity slowly adapted to this new and still unfamiliar style of life, in its' own way.

Maybe its my age or my mind or my personal experiences and point of view that are making me see it that way, but i see 2020 as probably one of the years that will be very remembered in history, not because of its events, but because its the year of "awakening" that the world went through, a door to a new era, where people see life as an experience to be lived, not a mystery to be solved, at least that's how i see it. and i wanna end this thought by a quote that says :

I can honestly add a million things to this but i wont go any further since its my first post😅 if anyone ever happens to find this thank you for reading and i hope i portrayed my message well !

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