Thursday Thoughts: [insert thoughts here]
I've begun writing four different blog posts for this week, and I just... don't want to write any of them. I have thoughts; I always do. I just don't want to put them into words right now.
That sounds weird, doesn't it? I'm a writer. Putting things into words is what I do best and what I most love to do. But, here and now, I just don't want to. I've been playing hooky from posting my Thursday Thoughts, and I keep skipping out on posting a weekly poem to Instagram, too.
Maybe I'm just tired of feeling like I have to do it. Now, my Thursday Thoughts posts and my Instagram poems are self-imposed deadlines. I started both of them years ago when I needed a way to keep myself writing even when it wasn't my day job. Nothing bad will happen if I stop doing them. I'm not punishing myself for not doing them. I don't want to stop - but, right now, I equally don't want to do.
But it's not just me, myself, telling me to do this, now is it? We're supposed to share our thoughts on the internet. That's the general consensus. We're supposed to have an opinion, now, and be loud about it. This is how we prove that we're right. This is how we make it clear who we are and that we're on the right side of the issues. If we don't do this, well, then we must not care.
But... I don't know if I'm right. My thoughts are my own, and so are my opinions. I have thoughts, but I don't want to be reactive. I care, but I don't want to contribute to the spread of clickbait and misinformation. I want to be right, but on most issues, I don't think that only one side is completely right. And I don't think I need to prove myself to anyone, at least not on social media. That's what my portfolio is for. (And, hey, if you're looking for a writer to work on something and you want to know if I'm the right woman for the job, here's my portfolio.)
I hereby give myself permission to not share my thoughts on the internet.
