Happy Birthday To @befreebehappya012

Happy Birthday to @befreebehappya012, you are a lovely person and I want to wish you all the best in the world because you deserve it and I wish you happiness and good health and I wish you peace of mind and I wish you all the good in the world and I wish you joy and I wish for you to make your dreams come true and I want you to know that I am so happy we met and I'm happy to call you my friend know that always and always, happy birthday honey may you enjoy it and think of it with a huge smile on your face.

I collect vennetian wall masks I have 5 and this one is going to be my sixth one bought today and will hang it on my wall when it comes I was very much drawn to it beause it looked so romantic and gothic and it was exactly what I was looking for and didn't cost that much money which is always good, and I already love it so much.

Let no one get any ideas anymore

I have turned off the anon and I have turned off the option of sending me media files, don't get any ideas anyone, it's enough and I've had more than enough of being triggered and made to feel small by rude anons enough is so enough I am done!!

Neighbor I used to bake bread for triggerd me

I just wanted to get a light bulb to replace the one in the bathroom and there this bitch was, she who called me lazy and who triggers me to no end anyways and makes me feel like I'm in a pressure tank with no way out of it, I told her once, I told her twice, I told her a million times when I feel ready to bake for her again I will do it, till then she can just leave me alone and if that wasn't bad enough, there were protesters outside the house, they were part of a group that so called father is in they came in the driveway with a huge tank like stage and it had megaphones plural and I asked them will you be using those for long, I have anxiety and they said no they will not, but they did.

For over an hour they used it and it was awful, I was triggered to hieghts I can't even tell you about and it made me want to cry and feel awful because I'm all for the protest and the cause but not in the backyard not so close, there's other neighbors who complained about the noise too and finally it stopped near about 22:30 at night it is awful and I feel triggered now and pressured and I want to just disappear I feel cursed and that the pattern that haunts me is back.

I am not a schizophrenic and that was really uncalled for on your part and I'm not a heathen I'm a pagan a Norse Pagan and I don't fuck around with anything and I refuse to be called a heathen and to be told that I suffer from a very very bad condition that I do not have I don't need people like you telling me I'm crazy do not ever send me anything ever again go away right now!!

So sick of being scared to sleep

I have horrible nightmares that won't let me wake up from them and I scream and yell to wake up and I can't wake up, someone please help me and tell me that it's going to be okay because I'm really scared for myself, I want to not be afraid to sleep, I am way too scared and stressed and I don't want to process anything in my sleep I just want good dreams and for my dreams to be my shelter again this sucks!!!

My subconious hates me

I already knew that my subconious hates me but it's really punishing me lately, I am having only bad dreams and not good ones and the only fantasy that I have had in a long time, has done nothing but treat me like dirt, so enough is enough of that, I am not going to call anyone to my dreams ever again, I get it now I am doomed to not be happy or find peace of mine or love of anything like that, I get that.

I am suffereing here and it's only getting worse, I have a horrible overwhelming feeling that causes me to have melt downs and to crash emotionally, I'm afraid to sleep, I'm afraid to wake up, I'm afraid to get dressed because I don't want to be called names and told I dress like an old lady, the pattern is back and I'm really scared for me.