{{ starter call! will cap at five though. }}
it’s nearly been a week. three weeks since pike was killed & he ran off on a fool’s errand. three weeks since HE died. one week since he woke up. &, hell, he’d been doing a good job ( trying ) not to think about everything that landed him in this position – trying & failing, more like. they were thoughts to be pigeonholed & saved for a rainy day. one where he could think straight without being under the influence of one medication or another. one where he wasn’t confined to the bland white walls & beeping machines & sterile smell of his private hospital room – save for the thirty minute physical therapy session that’d recently moved from his room to its designated area.
& that was why he’d started avoiding sleep now that he was able to control his response to the exhaustion that quickly plagued both his body & mind. with medication changing to fit his recovery, those thoughts of self-examination, of a guilt & anger & frustration & grief he didn’t know how to deal with attempted to infiltrate the nighttime hours. it wasn’t like he was trying to avoid. but with SO MUCH to adjust to, to digest & come to terms with, it was hard as hell to know where to begin.
but, clearly, today it all decided to stare him in the face. the half-eaten serving of lemon jello had been untouched for awhile now & he’s suddenly glad he couldn’t stomach it all. if the sound of scotty’s voice is enough to make him FREEZE, body wrung tight with tension & fear & guilt, the sight of him is enough to feel sick. if only you hadn’t pushed so hard. if only you’d LISTENED.
a deep breath pushes the thoughts from his head. for now. this won’t be easy for either of them. “Ah, c’mon, Scotty. Don’t kick a man while he’s down.” he tries for a smile, isn’t sure he manages it with the same ease he once did. but – e for effort, right?
there was a chair beside the bed, probably brought in by mccoy or mr. spock to most likely lecture jim. he hesistates a moment before placing a hand on the back of the chair and pulling it towards him. with his gaze still on the floor, he slowly takes a seat, hands folded across his lap. " star fleet has begun ta rebuild the enterprise... though a'm sure doctor mccoy or mister spock telt ya that already. "
❝ & we never talked after that. ❞
" an' have ye eva thought aboot contactin' 'er again? a mean, ye've got ta be wonderin' what eva happened ta 'er. a know a would. " the two sat across from each other, drinks in hand. it wasn't every often the pair found time to sit and enjoy the company of friends, but scotty cherished any moment he had with friends.
SHORT STORIES, my favorite kind of poetry ( meme ).
SIX WORDS .
❝ i heard you were doing good. ❞ ❝ you don’t grow your horns overnight. ❞ ❝ i promise, it gets better eventually. ❞ ❝ & we never talked after that. ❞ ❝ am i really, truly, that unlovable? ❞ ❝ don’t talk like you’re coming back. ❞ ❝ my most dangerous habit is trusting. ❞ ❝ we’re made of stars & stories. ❞ ❝ you didn’t have to do that. ❞ ❝ everything is poetry when you’re drunk. ❞ ❝ did i mean anything to you? ❞ ❝ real feelings don’t just go away. ❞ ❝ you came & changed the weather. ❞ ❝ when can you just be mine? ❞ ❝ there was no love, only lust. ❞ ❝ darling, stop wishing on dead stars. ❞ ❝ art is another form of screaming. ❞ ❝ silence is the most painful goodbye. ❞ ❝ what the fuck did you do? ❞ ❝ i’m drunk, dizzy & missing you. ❞ ❝ kiss me like you’re losing me. ❞ ❝ i don’t feel like smiling today. ❞ ❝ not all good people are innocent. ❞ ❝ we’re a disaster in the making. ❞ ❝ some things are better left unsaid. ❞ ❝ we really should’ve talked about it. ❞ ❝ i’m so glad i met you. ❞ ❝ i wish i knew you earlier. ❞ ❝ i fucked (pronoun/name) to our song. ❞ ❝ i dreamed of you this night. ❞
TEN WORDS .
❝ you saw the messed up parts of me, & stayed. ❞ ❝ all i’ve ever wanted was for someone to save me. ❞ ❝ since you left, i have no one to talk to. ❞ ❝ i apologize for the nights in which i cannot breathe. ❞ ❝ everytime i look at you, i want to kiss you. ❞ ❝ we said no strings attached but now we’re in knots. ❞ ❝ there’s a difference between missing someone & missing having someone. ❞ ❝ for which f are you drinking? fuck, forget, or fun? ❞ ❝ my biggest mistake was thinking i could live without (pronoun/name). ❞ ❝ whenever (name/pronoun) rose to kiss me, i fell even more. ❞ ❝ i wish that ‘goodnight’ was followed by ‘i love you’. ❞ ❝ let’s smoke a pack of mentholds & talk about love. ❞ ❝ your deep, sleepy voice makes me feel like i’m okay. ❞ ❝ i read both of our horoscopes looking for an answer ❞ ❝ reality is the absolute last place i want to be. ❞ ❝ i didn’t expect that drunk kiss could mean this much. ❞ ❝ all i need is a late night drive with you. ❞ ❝ feeling pain is nowhere near as terrifying as feeling nothing. ❞ ❝ your eyes are the color of summer fading into autumn. ❞ ❝ you are the warmest home i will ever, ever find. ❞ ❝ the world is less scary when i am with you. ❞ ❝ i still can’t tell which of us what the victim. ❞ ❝ i just need an excuse to hang out with you. ❞ ❝ your expectations for me have been set way too high. ❞ ❝ i don’t want to feel this way about anyone else. ❞
If I get ten “accents” I’ll record myself saying all this!
Tumblr Accent Challenge!
So I did the accent challenge last night, and decided I was going to make a new one, since the challenge I did (which you can find here,) is five years old. So here’s the one I made, have fun!
Bonus: If you’re comfortable with it, do it as a video!
- What’s your name & username?
- Where are you from?
- What’s the time where you are?
- Pronounce the following words: Meme, Pepe, Doge, Sudoku, Espresso, Celtic, Açaí, Dr. Seuss.
- What’s your favourite pizza place? Favourite pizza topping?
- What’s your favourite dessert?
- What’s your favourite food? What food do you hate?
- What’s your favourite TV show? Which show were you into, but then got out of?
- What brand is your phone?
- Do you speak a second language?
- How do you define a group of people when you’re talking to them? Do you say ‘guys,’ or ‘dudes’ or?
- What Harry Potter house do you most identify with? If sorted by Pottermore, did you agree with the one you got?
- Is there something you should be doing right now but are procrastinating?
- Now that you’ve talked about what you need to be doing, go do it!
{{ starter call! will cap at five though. }}
This is starting to get… very Russian….
This is for @parcelinc, I was your secret Santa of @50yearsofstartrek
Hope you like it :D it’s the first time I ever did a secret santa ;w;