6 days until Elle’s birthday: hair moments

just because i HOLD BACK

            doesn’t mean i’ve gone SOFT

                             i have RESTRAINT

                                   but i could still CRUSH YOU where you stand

“Merci, jolie.” Marie-Laure gave the toddler a happy smile and went back to work for a few moments before growing board of it. Blanchefleur pushed her seat back, grabbed one of Mathieus favorite toys and sat down on the ground joining the two little ones. “Venez à maman, bébé. Je me suis Timmy Tigre! Tu veux jouer avec Timmy? Haystack tu veux jouer avec moi et Timmy?” Marie cooed at the two, Mathieu gave a giggle and started to crawl towards his mother, and Marie glanced at Hayden to see what the toddler planed on doing.

Once Marie sat with them Hayden tilted her head to the side seeing the plush toy be moved a couple of times in front of her, she blinked a few times as she sat back and saw that Matty moved closer to his mother. The young toddler waited a moment as she heard her ‘name’ before making grabby hands at the toy and moving closer to her friend and Marie. “plushiiiie”

Sam followed her to the couch, sitting down next to her. “Aye, me too.” He said, watching her flick through shows on the television in front of them. Now that he was looking at it, he realized how he hadn’t been able to watch that many shows ever since he joined SHIELD, let alone before than. 

“Good. I’ve let being some kind of a monster get to me before, but I’ve had people tell me otherwise.” He said, looking to her before chuckling. “Well, it’s actually been two people— one in SHIELD and one out of it. They’re both fantastic when it comes to that kind of stuff.” He said, remembering Sharon and Kazia fondly in the moment, and how they had both told him that they viewed him as being human, even if he far from it. 

“I know, I don’t have that many questions, though.” Sam told her, raising an eyebrow at the selections. “Once Upon A Time?” He said , remembering Kaz telling him about the show, and how one of the characters looked like him. “I’ve heard about that show— I heard that I look like someone in the show.” He said, glancing at her. “We could start with that if you want. I’m okay with watching Flash, too. I’ve herd that one is quite good.” 

Marie-Laure took another drink from her glass and thought about what she should say to Hayden. ‘oh im upset because Henrys acting all nonchalantly about seeing me for the first time in five fucking years’ or ‘im upset because he could barley say hi to me’ or maybe even the ol’ ‘I can’t believe that he moved on before I did’ 

Marie shook her head and continued to take sips of her drink. She spared a glance back at her bottle and thought about just drinking the whole thing, the hangover would be less painful than this conversation. “Je suppose que son juste- I mean. It’s hard seeing him after all this time. Especially if he’s acting- acting like that.”

“I did some wrong dear. I did some wrong.” Marie pressed a kiss to the side of the girls face. She pulled back and held the girl’s face in her hands and looked the young blonde right in the eyes. “There is nothing wrong with you. There will never be anything wrong with you. Hayden Sofia Dagan-Belask, right now when you are,” She hates this term, “activated, your actions and your emotions are not controlled by you. In time you will learn how to fully manipulate this to your advantage and you will learn how get your emotions back. I promise you, you will. What happens is not your fault. It may be your hands that cause the damage, but it is not you. It will never be you.” Blanchefleur wiped away the younger’s tears and pulled Hayden back into her embrace. She coddled her and whispered soft, kind words. “You will be okay. You will. I still love you, I will always love you.” Marie pressed a few kisses to Hayden’s brow, “You are my child. I will continue to do what I can to protect you, and I’ll forever regret not being able to protect you from all of this. But not matter what you do, I’ll always love you, please remember that.”

“Thank you” was all that Hayden said after moments of silence. She was trying to keep her mind from repeating everything she had done over and over again. While others watched and analyzed her. This mode that she didn’t have full control of made her seem almost indestructible. She needed less sleep, less rest, was faster and deadlier. The fact that some of the people watching her didn’t even consider her a human anymore simply a successful experiment made her upset.