Yknow I don't use tumblr anymore but occasionally I think back on some things I've said on here.
I've made exclusive, blunt, rude remarks based on aggression and beliefs I outgrew, fascinated by discourse for no reason.
Since my last controversial post or topic, I've graduated high school, attended post-secondary, became an adult, voted in my first election, got my licence, stopped repressing my identities and embraced them (proud aromantic bisexual), MATURED.
I still hold to many of my beliefs, but I understand the way I went out of my way to stir a pot or devalue people's lives was rude, ignorant, blunt.
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I care less about the things I was once so upset about, simply to be upset, I recognize I was shitty; honestly discourse for the sake of discourse is shitty.
I recognize people are not bad or stupid for disagreeing with me and identifying/ living their lives as they do. Not my place. I am entitled to my opinions and experience just as much as anybody else is, but I was wrong to parade mine around so indignantly.
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To aros/ aces I've hurt: I'm sorry. I was repressing myself so much I didnt understand my being flippant affected those of you questioning/ sensitive to exclusive remarks. Understanding my place in the community helped me see that. Thank you.
To gender questioning/ trans people I hurt: I'm sorry I spoke over you or your experiences. It will never be my place, despite my beliefs, to insert myself into your politics.
To people who ID as pansexual I hurt: I'm sorry I ever let myself come across as hateful towards you. You are not bigoted or inherently stupid, or even looking for attention - you guys do you.
To anybody else I may have gone out of my way to tear down/ poke at sensitive places regarding identity: I know I was shitty for it. I still believe things to certain degrees, but I understand I must listen to the knowledge and experience of those around me. Hell, I even completely disagree with other things I've said in the past; I've outgrown my need to insert myself into divisionary discourse.
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Sometimes being a teenager and being closed minded makes you an ass. I was insensitive to a lot of people.
Maybe some heavily opinionated kids out there reading this will be swayed by me to realise their aggressive in-your-face-agenda devalues and harms others sometimes.
Sorry I was a piece of shit in the queer community to others, indirectly, but still abrasive.
I'm still not gonna use tumblr but I wanted to get that off my chest :^)