The last 36 hours

So the last 36 hours have been so difficult for me emotionally Tuesday evening I was in tears so much....my amazing friend who I’ve mentioned on here quite a bit over the past few months relapsed again...this time badly he was taking crack and drinking :( it was just heartbreaking....he was so upset and disappointed in himself.

The reason his psycho of an ex girlfriend has been texting him not stop for 2 weeks asking him to go round for cuddles and a drink. And saying “if you relapse let’s relapse together!” who even says that to some who is a recovering addict! I’m beyond mad with her and then to make it worse when my friend wasn’t responding she was ringing his mum the early hours of the morning say he was doing drugs and all this shit....apparently his mum was believing this pyscho ex girlfriend...ignoring my friends calls...so he did relapse and spectacularly may I add.

Thankfully he’s now back in rehab for the 3rd time this year I’m just really hoping it clicks cause his mum said to him if it doesn’t and he relapses again she’s disowning him. I actually spoke to his mum yesterday and said to her he was sorry and he would be ok. She just said he knows what will happen if he isnt.

My friend has been there for me so much over the years and previous to February this year had been clean of drugs and sober for 4 years......I’m really hoping this time it clicks for him....for his sake and that of his daughters who is finally trying to build a relationship back up with after 6 years of no contact.

@mystoryfortheaudienceoftheworld on plan October I’ve only had 3 days off plan this month 😊

Been absent again

So sorry I’ve been absent again lol but I’m going to try and get used to using this a least a couple of times a week if I can. I miss writing on here

So I hope everyone is doing well.

Plus I’m so excited for @mystoryfortheaudienceoftheworld and @hrstories1234 to hear that everything is going smoothly with them for Hayden’s visa 💜 honestly if you don’t follow these two they are just the most adorable couple and friendliest people you will ever meet!!!

This morning.

So this morning I went round to see one of Daniels friends wives whose just had a baby....a little girl called Nellie she’s adorable

Now Daniels friend is a gamer like my Daniel....spends hours playing and ignores his wife. It was so nice to be able to chat to someone who goes through the same stuff I do with the food situation and spending time with each other....I’ve only ever met her once but she’s really nice and it was just nice to be able to chat to someone who experiences the same stuff I do lol

Half the arguments we have are due to Daniels gaming and she said that’s the arguments they have to. Lol 😂 I know that I wouldn’t change Daniel for the world and I love him so god damn much....was so nice to chat and have a laugh about what they are like absorbed in the game

Just finished reading this it’s by the author of Gone girl which I also loved!!!

This book was such a page turner and I loved every second. The twist at the end was just so unexpected!

Can definitely recommend this!

My next book is

This one is more scary I think but it looked so good I will try it and see how I get on

And this one made me think of @mystoryfortheaudienceoftheworld lol 😂

Saw this on Instagram earlier so true lol

Ugh I hate rude people.....hate you send someone a message and it’s totally obviously they are ignoring you!!!

So a few months ago when my friend Rob (mentioned him the other day) relapsed and before he went back to rehab again. He was asking me question constantly and I never knew what to say.

He kept asking me why I love Dan. Which is something I should know the answer to straight away I know that. At the time Dan and I were going through a really rough patch in our relationship. I just didn’t know how to answer his question.

Well today I was at my parents watching Bridget Jones baby.....and something Bridget said made me realise that’s how I feel about Dan.

“Sometimes you love a person cause they aren’t like you. Sometimes you love a person cause they feel like home”

Now that is exactly how I feel about Dan....we have had so many problems this year but we’ve overcome every single hurdle....he’s my absolute rock. I don’t know if that phrase is the way relationships should be looked at but it’s something that struck me for sure and it’s made me realise that Dan is my home and I love him so god damn much!!!